It was Saturday and students didn't have classes so most of them decided to go to the town. I wasn't in a mood to go there. I had time to go there all the time and I was probably going to the party that night as well, so I decided to stay at the campus. I thought about meeting Sehun, Yixing and Junmyeon and we might do something together. I decided to get Junmyeon first. I headed to the building where Junmyeon had his office and as soon as I opened the door of the building and stepped on the hallway, I found Baekhyun.

He just left Junmyeon's office with papers in his hands, looking down at the ground and walking in my direction slowly. He didn't say anything, he didn't even look at me. As he came closer to me, he didn't stop. He passed me and then hesitated to open the door to leave the hallway. 

"Baekhyun, what were you doing here?" I asked. He still didn't look up and kept the distance between us.

"I-I am leaving, sir," he said. 

"What? What do you mean?" I felt panick rising inside me, even though I didn't know what he was talking about.

I've been thinking about him and his situation for a while. Now when I knew what he had been through I seriously felt bad. I wanted to know whether he really had done everything that was written in the files at Jongdae's office. It was making me worried and I didn't want Baekhyun to suffer because of that, even if it had really been completely his fault. 

"I will change schools. I am not going to be here no longer," he said, keeping his trembling voice steady.

"Why would you do that?! Did anything bad happen?" I asked and stepped closer, but noticed how Baekhyun tensed as I did it.

"Sir, it's my decision where I will study. I decided to leave. It's not your bussiness to know the reason!" he looked up into my eyes and I just noticed how his eyes were teary, but tears didn't leave his eyes. He kept them inside. For a moment I couldn't speak. I was confused and I didn't expect Baekhyun like this after actually good start of the day. He had been all excited to train with me, once I had told him about the new trainer, but now he looked like I had tortured him there. I waited for too long. Baekhyun opened the door and in the next few moment's I couldn't see him anymore. He hurried to his room and left me behind.

I motionlessly stood there. I tried to find a reason why would he leave. I knew that he had been thinking of it a couple of times, Junmyeon had plans on expelling him, I had that plans just some time ago, but not for real. I didn't want him to leave. He was also doing just well, so I couldn't get why would he suddenly decided to leave. 

I sighed and then took the way to students' dorms. I wasn't going to leave him just like that. I was going to make him explain thing's to me before leaving. He isn't leaving, if he doesn't have at least three good reasons for it!! 

I imagined Junmyeon when Baekhyun asked him for premission to cange schools. Junmyeon was supid on times. Accepting Baekhyun's wish without a good explanation was just stupid... It was true that had Junmyeon wanted to throw him out once before, but I had been clear, that I hadn't wanted that. 

I felt more than proud as I knew where Baekhyun's room was. I had forgot it once, but now I knew exactly where it was. 

Once I was in front of his room, I leaned on the door and slowly knocked. I listened for any movements inside the room, but it was silent.

"Baekhyun?" I called, but didn't get the response. I knocked again. For a moment I thought nobody was inside, but then heard something from behind, like someone closed a wardrobe. 

I didn't wait anymore. I pressed on the latch, and opened the door. I found Bakehyun packing his clothes, while muttering something very quietly. He didn't look at me, but he knew I was there. 

"Baekhyun, you aren't leaving!" I said and closed the door behind me.

"Watch me doing it!" he replied. 

Baekhyun's room was the same size as mine, but more packed, because he had a roommate. There were two pieces of the same furniture and left just a bit of free place. 

"You aren't!" I repeated myself. 

"Yes, I am," He shot me a mad look. "Just like you will leave my room right now!" he pointed to the exit, but I didn't even think about listening or even obeying his orders. I had authority and he didn't. 

"No. I won't let you go, until you explain everything. Why the sudden change? You should have a reasonable excuse for it!" I stepped closer, crossing my arms and waiting for his answer.

"I have reasonable excuse, but it is none of your business."

I got serious mad now. I walked to him and he backed away from me, hitting the wall beind his back. I hit the wall with both of my hands and trapped him between them. 

"None of my business? You really think I do not care, Byun?" I looked at him seriously. 

"I am changing schools, okay? A lot of people do it, so why not me?! I am sorry you had to spend so much time on me, sir—" he said. 

"Don't you 'sir' me!"

He narrowed his eyes. "You called me Byun!" he reminded me.

"Baekhyun, then," I said annoyed by his actions. 

"I can call you whatever I want!" 

"Right now I am here as Chanyeol. I am sure your friends would like you to stay. Do they know about it?" I asked.

I noticed that the look in his eyes darkened. It was obvious he didn't mention anything to anybody. Not even his friends. He just decided to pack his stuff without asking for other's opinion. He really had to have a real good reason for leaving his friends like that, but I still didn't know it. "You didn't tell them anything, did you?" 

"I still can stay in contact with them after I leave," he told me, pushing my hand away, so he was free from me again. 

"I am sure they won't let you leave with that changing school thing, like I won't let you. You were strong until now, keep that up, and don't give up!" I said with rough voice.

Bakehyun hesitated on it. "Look, si- Chanyeol," he corrected himself before saying 'sir' again. "I can't stay here. If I do, things will go down, and it won't be good for me. I am not safe here anymore! I was before, but not anymore. Yes, I made a sudden decision, but it is the best for me!" 

"Safe?" I raised my eyebrows. "You don't feel safe here? What is the problem? I thought I was the only one making you hate this place and I guess I am not doing that anymore..." 

"This is not about you!" 

"But I feel like it is!" I told him. 

Baekhyun shook his head, pressing his lips tightly together.

"Baekhyun, listen here. If you don't feel safe here, fight for yourself. You can't berak again, I thought I taught you this already.... Stay strong!" I said and on that silence fell again.

Baekhyun tought about my words. "I can't fight this time. I am not going to win. I am broken, if you can't see that! I've been through things you can't even imagine! It's too much for me, and it will beat me to death oneday," he said and backed away.

I knew what was he talking about. He probably didn't want me to know any of that so I decided not to mention it. I would make things only worse with mentioning it. Drugs, anxiety, depression and murders really weren't something good to mention. 

"Baekhyun," I spoke up after a few moments of silence. "You had the strength to win against me multiple times. You were strong, when I told you to be, and you didn't give up. Don't do that now, after that long time!" I said it like an order.

"No. I said no and it will stay like this. I am not doing any of this anymore," Baekhyun showed me his back and focused on packing again.

I sighed on his acting. I stepped closer to him, with my hands seized to his shoulders and turned him, so he was facing me again. Baekhyun tried to snap me away, but I held him on the place.

"Chanyeol! You don't need me here. What use will you have from me here? I am just causing problems, making everything hard for you. You can get your own unit again and get rid of all those punishments. I guess Junmyeon is done with training my unit. Hate me already, and let me leave, for God's sake!" 

He wanted me to hate him? — No, I surely don't hate him. I wasn't going to let him go or hate him. 

Just now I realised, how much I wanted him to stay. I enjoyed our trainings, and I enjoyed the free time we spent together even more. I liked the moments when we were together and wanted him more. I didn't look at the hard times, when Baekhyun broke, cried and got mad at me. I didn't care about the times he made me angry or annoyed. Those bad moments were just telling me to do more for him and help him get stronger. After all I didn't just want to make him stronger. A part of me wanted Baekhyun's presence, just to make me warm, happy, light and calm. Even though Baekhyun disappointed me a lot of times, I felt something that kept our relationship together, and even when I decided to avoid Baekhyun, I couldn't do it for a long time. I needed him. 

I focused on Baekhyun's eyes. They were a bit teary, but he kept tears inside, hiding his pain from me. 

I thought about him on the day we had met. There was something that had been connecting us from the first day. My attention had first fallen on Baekhyun. I hadn't liked like him, because he had dared to speak against me. I had hated him for that and he probably used to hate me. But I noticed that I actually liked when he challenged me like that. He was different from others. From hating each other, we came to supporting each other, even opening to each other, getting closer and wanting each others presence.

"You are wrong," I said directly. "I do need you here. I want you to stay here. I don't want my own unit or get rid of the punishments. If you hadn't come, I would still be the same old major Park. You changed me, made everything better. I would've hated everyone and they would've hated me back. You showed me how to look at people on a different way and I did. I saw that good inside you. I am sure you can stay strong on, and not give up. I will help you and support you anytime you want. Those mistakes you did, have changed us both in all ways. Baekhyun, I can't hate you! After everything we have been through. I..... I...." I couldn't speak on. I cracked, but the need to end what I was saying stayed inside me.

Baekhyun was about to say something, but I was faster. I ended my sentence.

I placed my hand behind Baekhyun's neck, my other hand was still resting on his shoulder. I pulled him closer. My chest touched his. Before doing the next move, I looked at Baekhyun's eyes again. "I won't let you go," I whispered and lowered myself, coming closer to Baekhyun's lips, pressing mine to his.

He didn't back away. He didn't even move, and I was somehow grateful for that. His lips were soft, warm and sweet. They made my mind go crazy. I moved my own lips a bit, to taste him more. The sweetness and feeling of fire passing through my body, making me warm. I felt Baekhyun's hand track up my arm, taking a hold of my left shoulder, while holding my right forearm with the other hand. I loved the contact with Baekhyun, but a sudden worry took over me. He didn't kiss back. His lips didn't move like mine, and I felt how he tensed his hands on my shoulder, he was backing away.

I was afraid, that I had done a mistake. I couldn't do anything, if Baekhyun didn't like it. I couldn't force him into this.

I ended the kiss, realising how very out of breath I was, and missing the feeling of Baekhyun's lips on mine. I looked at him, who had his eyes closed, tensed and holding his tears again. 

"Baekhyun, I'm sorry—" I tried to apologise and backed away a bit, but Baekhyun surprised me. His hands pulled me back to him, so our bodies met again and he locked his hands behind my back. He hugged me and leaned with his head on my chest, sobbing into my shirt. 

"N-No. Don't be-" he told me.

I just smiled and then warped my hands around him. I caressed Baekhyun's back and leaned with my head on his, feeling his soft hair on my cheek. 

I wished the hug never ended. Baekhyun relaxed and calmed down in it. I felt warm and comfortable next to him. I felt happiness growing inside me and I felt the need to make Baekhyun happy too. 

"Baekhyun?" I asked and ended the silence. 

"Mhmm?" Baekhyun nodded, but didn't look up. He kept his head on my chest and moved with my breathing.

"Will you stay here. Will you stay with me?" I asked and on this Baekhyun looked up at me. He wasn't crying anymore, his eyes now calm again and shining in the light. He slowly nodded.

"I don't know..." He said still unsure about it. 

"I need you, Baekhyun," I told him again. "Whatever your reason for leaving was... I swear, I will make you strong enough for anything. I will keep you safe!" 

"You don't need to," he told me. 

"If that would make you sta—" 

"—I will stay," he replied leaning with his head back again. 

I didn't reply. I didn't want to make him answer on my questions anymore and I didn't even need his explanation. 

For a long time I had been ignoring my feelings towards him, beliving it hadn't been, what I actually felt. But right now I was sure, that my feeling were right. I liked Baekhyun, I loved him. And he was all I wanted.