• 아, 좆같네! (Ah, jotgatne. Ah, feels  up!) exclaimed Ji Yong in tearing his hair. What am I supposed to do now?

• 형 (hyeong) began timidly Seungri, maybe you should go after her and explain everything to her I can send another SOS if you want.

• I don't think she wants to listen to me for the moment commented Ji Yong, his head between his ams. I'll wait until she calms down and maybe... just maybe she will hear me out and forgive me.
• So... you want to make it up to her? asked Taeyang

• Ji Yong-ah began Taeyang, not too sure of what he had to say, do you realize what this means?

​Taeyang wanted to break the news gently to Ji Yong, making him realize by himself that Anna had become very important in his life and that he needed her. He looked at his friend bitting his nails, lost in tought, trying to find an answer to his question. His efforts were reduced to nothing when Seungri said. 

• What can't you understand? 형, 너 사랑에 빠졌어 (hyeong, neo saranghae pajyeosseo. You've fallen in love).​

• 사... 사... 사랑? (Sarang. Love). But what are you talking about? 사랑? (sarang?) This is not at all what I feel for her! What I...
• You think about her all the time? You want to protect her? You want to murder anyone who look at her? You want to make her happy? 형 (hyeong) you're madly in love with her stated Daesung.

• When she's there, you glow, you laugh all the time, you talk all the time and you wrote at least three songs in less than 24 hours! You do things you've never done before. You sleep with her clinging to you! You don't sleep with people, hell you don't sleep at all! he continued. Kiko has never managed to hummpfp...

​The rest of his sentence was drowned by Taeyang and Seungri hands who had flew to his mouth to stop him from mentioning Ji Yong ex.

• Run after her advised Taeyang. I'm sure Top 형 (hyeong) managed to calm her down.

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• If you're here to tell me that Ji Yong's sorry, I do not want to hear anything!

I crossed my arms and looked Top with a determined air. I was not going to let myself soften, not this time.

• No, I'm here to ask you how you're doing after everything you went trought. I have no intention of talking about Ji Yong ... unless you want to of course.

• I don't want to. His name should no longer be spoken in this house. He became 'he-who-must-not-be-named' as Voldemort!
• Ah, so you know Harry Potter? You're not a total nerd as I imagined.​

• Taecyeon 오빠(oppa) has always been there for me. In any situation, I could count on him. He'salso the one who had decided that he had to call Ji Yong because he din't thought that he could get me out of my state of shock.
• I understand was what answered the handsome rapper. And what are we eating?

​Taecyeon looked at me, undecided. I had found him in discussion with the doorman who refused to let him in despite his protests. There were lots of shopping bags in hand and he wanted to cook for me. Wong Bin was also on his way to my house. We rode the elevator together to my apartment where I explained what had happened at YG. I swore loudly how every relationship was over between me and any member of Big Bang when Top rang at my door.

•  Uh ... 김치 찌개 (Kimchi jiggae. Kimchi stew). I do a wicked 김치 찌개 ( kimchi jiggae) announced Taecyeon.

Top nodded and sank into an armchair in my living room.

• By the way he remarked, distracted, our first opus comes out tomorrow. Ji Yong was able to write it because of you... it's crazy how your sofa is comfortable. Is it a sofa bed? I'm looking for one since...
•  Seung Hyun 오빠 (oppa) I interrupted him. What do you mean by Ji Yong wrote your opus because of me?
•  Oh ! I had completely forgotten that we should not talk about Ji Yong. Sorry!

• Ji Yong became Voldemort commented Top for Taecyeon, still sprawled on my couch. He's "he-who-must-not-be-named".

I was dying to know but it was out of question to ask. I had to erase Ji Yong of my life.

• But I want to know! Complained Taecyeon. Do not cite his name 선배( seonbae) and tell me everyrhing.

• Ji Yong felt like a wreck, a 찌질해(jjijilhae. Pathetic loser) with everything that happened to him. He even had a depression... but our friend  here present, has magically succeded where everyone have failed. She has cheered him up and he regained trust in himself... so much that he wrote a song about how he felt. He made us all write our own part about a situation where we felt like losers. It is certain that this opus will help all those who hear this song to overcome their challenges. If Big Bang feels like losers, the entire universe may fell like a loser and it will not be the end of the world.  

He had done this? He told in song how I had helped him but he could not even be there for me when I needed him? 이게 말이 돼? (Ige mari dwae? Does that make any sense?)

• What is the name of the opus?
• It's not obvious? Top asked, lying down again on the sofa. The title is Loser.

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솔직히 세상과 난 어울린 적 없어!  (Soljikhi sesang gwa nan eoullin jeok eobseo. Honestly, I’ve never fit in this world)

홀로였던 내겐 사랑 따윈 벌써 (hollo yeossdeon naege sarang ttawin beolsseo. I was always alone I’ve forgotten about love)

잊혀 진지 오래 저 시간 속에 (itheo jinji orae jeo sigan soke. It’s been a long time since)

더 이상은 못 듣겠어 희망찬 사랑 노래 (deo isangeun mot deudgesseo huimangchan sarang norae. I can’t listen to hopeful love songs anymore)

너나 나나 그저 길들여진 대로 (neo na na na geujeo gil deulyeojin daero. You and me both)

각본 속에 놀아나는 슬픈 삐에로 (gakbon soke nol ananeun seulpeun ppiero. Were just sad clowns, tamed and scripted).

난 멀리 와버렸어 I’m coming home (Nan molri wabeoryesseo. I’ve come too far)

이제 다시 돌아갈래 어릴 적 제자리로 (ije dasi dolagallae eoril jeok jejariro. I wanna go back to when I was young.)

Saying that the opus was a hit was an understatement. It propelled Big Bang on the front of the stage like never before. Articles came out by the thousands, both nationally and internationally. Yet I continued to avoid Ji Yong. I knew that he wanted to talk to me. I had found his part of the song in my mailbox. And  whenever I listened to his song, I wanted to drop everything and run to him to hold him.

The video did not make things easier. The country seemed as taken into a frenzy and was only listening this stupid song: all radio stations, all TV stations, cafes, even the hospital's waiting room. Big Bang was everywhere! The situation worsen with the release of their second opus: Bae Bae. If Loser was a succes, there were no words for Bae Bae. 

• Ah, Anna-ssi! I always forget that you live across Ji Yong! It's been a while since I saw you.