In Heaven.

Chapter Eighteen; In Heaven.

Minwoo grabbed the fountain pen by his side. 
He couldn't afford the tears to fall anymore. 
He would go through anything to be with you again.
Anything at all if it gives him a chance to hold your hands again.
 

He forced the tears back in and with the pen he hold, he started to write a letter addressed to you.

I don't know what to do anymore.
I can't see myself doing anything if it's not you by my side. It's so stupid.
I used to think, I could do everything on my on, I need not rely on you. 
Slap me, I'm wrong.

I don't understand why of all the things you could do to make me realize my mistake of neglecting you, you left me here. 
I want to be with you, love. 
Bring me where you are. 

I'm sorry.
I can write that line a thousand, a million times but it won't not make your voice get out of my ear, it won't make me forget how soft you skin felt against mine.
It won't make me forget you.
Neither would it bring you back to me.

I thought that just by saying that I love you, it would be enough. 
You would understand the sincere feelings I only have for you.
I should have known that love isn't just based on trust.
It's attention and time spent together. 

I'm sorry, baby.

I can say that a million times again, can't I? 
But you'll still be as hurt as the last time you breathed.
I'm sorry for not appreciating you enough, for putting everything else before you.
I thought you'd be there forever.
I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.
Please, just come back to me. 

I just need to you here with me so I can show you how well I can love you. 
I haven't love you enough, love. It's not a chance I ask for.
I just want to be with you.
If I you can't come to where I am, I will go to where you are. 
Because I love you. I love you so much.
Please, of all things, it's just that you need to believe in. 

Minwoo. 

He let his teardrop fall and hit the paper, slowly erasing his name. 
He folded the piece of writing into a smaller piece and slid it in his pocket. 

He got up from where he was and went out into the streets, with no where in mind. 
There he was, Minwoo, the guy who just got promoted at work was walking aimlessly in the streets.
Everyone thought of him as a successful young man. 
People had hopes high on him. 

But he knew it himself, he could go nowhere if you werent by his side. 
Without hope and love, he took the elevator up to the highest floor of the building he managed to get to. 

" I'm coming with you, love. "

He whispered to the wind in hopes that maybe you, who's in heaven, might hear him. 
He pushed himself over the edge and he felt the wind slice the slightest bit of life of his out.