I saw her staring outside the window when I got back...trying hard to catch my breath cause of running so I could get back as soon as I can...it took a while until she turned her head to me as I stood by the door waiting gor that typical Jung deathglare...she look weak but I was more than happy she's awake...I was expecting her to shout at me of why I just left her like that earlier but a smile curved up her lips...she patted the space beside her and obliged to sit close to her... "where did you go?" though in groggy state, oh how much I missed her voice.. "uhhh---I brought you this" showing her flowers I got...*though I did also ran for a mouthwash* afraid of getting caught...she nodded in response believing my excuse..she smiled taking the flowers from me and turned her gaze back at the open while I went back staring at her.. "it's the first snow.." she said made me realize it was indeed starting to snow outside for I did not notice anything when I came back... "i'm glad i'm seeing it now beside you.." Unable to contain myself anymore I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her in my arms and hugged her all my might... "I'm glad your here---" I whispered near her ears and soon kissed her forehead... "I'm sorry...you have to deal with all this.." she said making me shake my head and assured her I never regret anything.. I was still holding her when she looked up at me and I saw her teary eyed and started crying out holding unto my shirt real tight..she looked so vulnerable, I was so afraid I might hurt her more if I'd move a muscle... "Amber I'm afraid---so afraid..I don't wanna leave you..I don't want to die..." *I am afraid too* I wanted to tell her but I needed to be strong, to act strong for both of us... "no--I would never let that happen..I won't lose you.." laying my face over her head... "besides we promised well get through this right?,so theres no way your gonna----no--you'll be okay.." She then leaned her back on me as I locked my fingers with her as she went back staring at those cotton like ice particles pouring outside... "they said watching the first snow with your someone special would make your relationship last...and you will never be apart" I told her to which she agreed on... "I love you" she answered as I planted kisses over her hair... "I'm sleepy" she then said after yawning... "then come go back to sleep the nights still a long way to go.." I said about to get of