"no...this can't be happening...no..no!" Amber said in despair walking back and forth infront of the emergency room...she was trembling real hard and didn't know what to do anymore...untill she just sat there helplessly on the floor...hugging her knees but then again grabbing her hair in frustration...she wasn't able to stop and cried her heart out... "Am..." a soft and gentle voice called her but she did not bother look at her... those slim arms enveloped her caressing her back to comfort her...but she couldn't feel any better...she's beyond guilt...blaming all to herself.. "he's--- he's gonna---be okay...right?" she said between her sobs almost in a whisper. "yes Amber...he'll be okay...hush now..." Krystal said trying to console her she was also hurt when Jhonghyun pushed her aside when she was about to get hit by a car earlier but she couldn't care less of what Amber's going throught at that moment... "I can't forgive myself if something happens to hyung...I...definitely can't" Amber said... "I...uhh I'm sorry Amber" Krystal said and Amber looked at her...she couldn't read what Amber was thinking as those pair of eyes looking at her have nothing but fear...pain...guilt and it builds up the fear of totally loosing her stronger...and she can't lose Amber..."i---if it wasn't because of me---" she was cut off... "your'e bleeding..." Amber noticed Krystal's arms with many wounds... but for Krystal, it sounded cold.. "no...I'm fine...don't worry.." she answered and then Amber just nodded in response not even bothering of asking her again... Just then the doctor came out of the room... Krystal's POV Amber rushed to the doctor when she saw him...leaving me alone at that corner...clueless of what the two were talking about...then they seemed to be arguing with something and I ran quickly towards them when Amber grabbed the doctor's collar and shouted at him...the doctor looked at me asking for help.. "no!!and you call yourself a doctor?!do something!!.." she was in rage... "Amber let go!..please stop it" I immediately pulled her away and apologized to the doctir..I tried calming her down but it was useless.. "this can't be happening...it's my fault...it's my fault..." she kept on saying.. "Amber it's not your fault...why what did he say?" "Krys you know why don't you just go home!" "but Am---" her expressions changed like she's really pissed.. "just----just leave me alone!!" I was more shocked to move and just looked at her "go!!" she shouted pointing at the door...with heavy steps I took my way...unable to absorb things up...I know I shouldn't leave her but...I think for now this is what she wants... "Soojung?..." just then I heard Jessica unnie's voice ...I called her a while ago and told her I was at the hospital..I looked up on her.. "oh my god!!what happened to you?!" she was shocked checking on my wounds an