It's still 6:30 in the morning  but Youngbae is already at the Han River, waiting for someone........  he received a call from CL and asked him to meet her. Though he's still hurting, he couldn't say no to her. And maybe they both need to talk to clear all the things that are making him confuse...

     Everything happened so fast... He already planned everything for her, for both of them... But he never thought that their love story will end the way he never thought would be...

     .... "Next time, don't think too much, you'll just get a headache..."....

     A familiar voice snapped Youngbae out from his thoughts. He lifted his gaze and met the pair of eyes of the the girl who crushed his whole world and broke his heart, smiling at him....

     CL quietly settled herself beside him and heaved a deep sigh. She slowly turn her head to face him with warm but sad eyes...

     Youngbae suddenly shifted his gaze back to the river, afraid that he might break down in front of her... sitting with the girl who just broke his heart makes his heart ache with so much pain... "what do you want to talk about this early?" he asked, but instead of getting an answer from her, he felt a cold thing on his hand. When he looked down, he saw a small plastic bag...he frowned... "what's this?"...

     "Medicine, for your hangover..." CL answered... "I know your drunk last night..."

     Youngbae looked at her questioningly... "who told you?"

     ....."hmmm...  Just someone..."....

    A smile slowly crept onto his lips. Even though she's with someone already, she's still worried for him and he knows that she will be forever concern to him no matter what... "Thank you... but what do you want to talk about?"

    ...."because you drowned yourself in alcohol last night?" CL answered sarcastically... "and because you left  my event last night without saying goodbye..."...

     Youngbae chuckled while shaking his head... "I just fell asleep when you called, do you know that?"

    CL raised an eyebrow... "really?...  then I should be happy since I succeed in ruining your sleep..." she tried to sound lively.

     Youngbae knows she's trying to lift up his mood and somehow he has a feeling that she knew already  the failed proposal for her... "Why are you here? you just got engaged last night, you should be in your fiancee..." he asked straightforwardly...

     CL met his gaze and it makes her sad seeing his pain through his eyes and it hurts her because she knew she's the one who caused that pain to him...  she looked away from his stare and sighed... " We just had a simple dinner last night then he went back to Japan..."....

     Then silence filled the two... Youngbae kept a steady gaze on her, as he waits for her to speak. He knows she has something to say...

     "Bae..."CL called out without looking at him... "will I still be able to receive the gift you're going to give me?" she asked with sadness on her voice...

    Youngbae flinched at her question.... though he quite expected that question from her , it's still like a torture to him...  " I can give it you anytime...."he answered with a heavy heart... "but the question is, are you going to accept it?"

     But CL fell silent at his question. She's a brave person, she knows how to handle every situation, but the situation between her and Youngbae is making her a coward... She doesn't want to hurt the man she once loved, but he's already hurting and she knows she will hurt him more...  She looked at him straight in the eye, with so much pain on her eyes as she remember their past...  "I waited for you to fight for me, do you know that?"she asked

     Youngbae frowned in confusion... "Chae..."

     ... "3 years ago, when I left for New York I'm really in a deep pain because of Dara unnie's death and because of you..."CL started trying to hold back the tears on her eyes... " I ended our relationship because I have trust in you... and because I believed in your love for me... But I guess I trusted you too much..."

     "what do you mean...?" Youngbae asked...

     CL gave him a sad smile...  "with all the things that happened 3 years ago, I chose to escape from the pain..." she said... " If I stay, we will just hurt each other... we both need space that time, especially me. But I left because I trust that you will fight for me, that for once you will show me that I am more important than your bestfriend... just for once Bae..." her voice cracking as she continued... " So I waited for you but you never came..."

     Tears escaped from Youngbae's eyes as he listened and understand every single words she said. Aside from pain,  regret is eating him alive. He realized that he caused the pain himself. The one to blame is he himself. He made her wait for nothing and hurt her....... he immediately wipe the tears on his face... "I wanted to follow you that time but..."

     "Your bestfriend needed you the most, Am I right?..."CL cut him off while staring intently at him...

     "I'm sorry..."He looked at her apologetically. If only he could turn back time, he will fix everything but it's already too late...

     CL shifted her gaze back at the river and continued... "I can never win against him..."

     ... "I'm sorry for always choosing Jiyong than you..." Youngbae's voice started to crack as his eyes started to moist... " but  I really want to follow you, but there are things that are stopping me to win you back.  And when  I already have the courage to face you again, you're already starting your career in New York and I thought I will just be a nuisance to your success, so I waited... I waited until you succeed..."

     .... "And when I succeed, you still never came..."CL softly said...

     "is it too late now to ask you to be mine again?" Youngbae asked hoping that he still have the chance to correct the mistake he had done to her...

     ....."do you remember when I told you that everything happens for a reason?"CL asked instead of answering his question... " maybe I suffered so much from pain so that I could find where my happiness is... the pain led me to where I am right now..."

     Then, that little hope is now gone... "your feelings for me changed that fast, huh?"... He asked, hurt was registered all over his face

     "Did I?"CL asked back... "I think I didn't. At that time, I just want to move on and start a new life. I can't start the next chapter of my life if I keep re-reading the last one..." She paused and bravely met his eyes... " this may hurt you but I'm glad I found the "good" in our goodbye...."...

     Youngbae swallowed hard while staring at her brokenly... His breathing was almost unbearable because of too much pain... It feels like someone just stabbed him after hearing those words from her  "Why? because you found your happiness? did you also forget everything about us" he asked in a broken voice

     CL nodded..."Yes... but our memories will forever remain in my heart... " she answered truthfully... "I learned that things change, people change but it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories......"

     Youngbae looked away, wiping the tears on his face...  he heaved a deep sigh to calm himself... he can't let himself break down in front of her...  "you're not comforting me with your words..."he said, trying to end their conversation... "staying in New York really made you a true woman now..."

     ..."life teaches you the art of letting go in every event. When you have learnt to let go, you will be joyful and as you start being joyful, more will be given to you..."CL sincerely told him. Though it hurts to see him in pain, it's better to tell him the truth so that he could move on...

     "Are you saying that I have to let you go so I could find my happiness...? "Youngbae asked.. "what if I don't?"

     CL smiled a little... "you should..." she softly said... "I know you've been lonely these past years, but Bae... you deserve to be happy..."...

     Youngbae stared at her for a moment, trying to read her mind if she's telling the truth... "Is it really over between us?" he suddenly asked, trying his last luck,  but he knew he will get the same answer from her...

      ..."I love Mino... I'm sorry Bae..."... CL told him the truth.  She don't want to give him any hopes that they could be together again... She just don't want to be unfair to him...

     LOVE...  he used to be the love of her life, the man in her life... but that was before...  he thought he could never lose her in anyway, but he got it all wrong... "Ah... Chincha... why are you hurting me like this..."

     CL smiled before resting her head on his shoulder... "Bae..."....

     ...."hmm?"...

    ...... "Promise me you'll be happy..." CL's voice came in as firm but a little shaken. Tears slid from her eyes because she's hurting for him...  she's sorry for him because she feels that it's all her fault. She should have been true to him when Mino came to her life... It broke her heart seeing him in sorrow...

     "I can't promise you that..."Youngbae told her...

    CL held his hand tightly... "I know it's hard, but one day, you will meet the right girl for you, and when that time comes don't hesitate to show her how much you love her..."....

    Youngbae bit his lip to hold back the tears that's threatening to fall...  "Chaerin-ah..."

     "hmmm?"...

      ... "you know how much I love you right? "He softly asked...

     Hearing his broken voice makes her worry, but everything she said is for his own good and happiness...  She's ending things that should ende