warning: it will be some mature scene. but relax, it isn't content, (i don't write some / scene....yet. lmao) it's just 'mature' okay? so I've warned you. lol. enjoy!

the mock tests finally done. and you were getting headache by them. you didn't have your confident for the last two tests. 

you sighed and slumped your body on the chair in cafetaria. five pair of eyes eyed you. and one pair of eye just took a glimpse and choosed to shift his eyes back to his phone again.

"come on yoora. it was just a mock tests. 'mock'. they were mocking you." Soojung said to you as playing with her fingernail before she blowed it.

"I didn't say anything though, smart-." you simply said. there, your sarcastic remark again. Jongin didn't hide his smirk, even his eyes still glued on his phone.

and you cocked you eyebrow. and you believed he knew that it was pointed to him. but he just remained silent.

Soojung rolled her eyes and decided to not answering you.

"your face and body language tell it all, babe.you are upset by the tests." Sehun giggled, he actually examined you from the first time you got that place. 

"beside, you know that even if you aren't confident, the result would be a lot better than mine." Chanyeol said. he took the water bottle and gulped it down in oneshot. you snorted.

you let the moment slipped away and choosed to fill your empty stomach with some of snacks.

Sehun was sitting beside you with his arm around your shoulder. you didn't mind it though. Tao gave him disgusted look as sehun was more all the way clingy to you. 

"where's hyojin..em..baekhyun?" you asked him out of the blue. Soojung glanced at you, you just remember that he was the closest one with her beside Sehun and yourself. and there was a bit awkward if you ask your boyfriend.

Baekhyun stared at you amused. "and why the hell do you think I know the answer?dammit." Baekhyun got so grumpy those day. and no one knew the reason. yet.

"and are you ing mad at me or what." you simply retorted back to him with your toneless voice. Baekhyun gasped as he realized. "no no. I didn't mean like that yoora~" he whined in his childishly act and you laughed softly.

"she told me she has something to do before." 

everyone just nodded but you stopped your laugh a bit too early, and caught the soft snort from baekhyun as Sehun said that. and it made you a bit uncomfortable. it was like everyone that was there knew about your bestfriend that love your boyfriend. even after it you realized the reason why baekhyun was suddenly too sensitive about hyojin.

he realized it too.

and it made you creased your eyebrow unconsiously. you were bothered inside.

you closed your eyes slowly when everyone too preoccupied with their chattering. you let out a long-soft breath. not wanting other to concious.

you shifted your eyes towards jongin and the fact he stared at you since before, made you shivered. you locked your eyes with him in silency.     

Jongin's eyes wasn't cold anymore, but still, you didn't catch the softness in his eyes.

you glued your eyes towards his. for three...five.. ten seconds. and it was enough to ache your heart. and the sudden pit formed in his chest.

"Park yoora, let's take some drinks" Soojung called your name, and as you looked at her, she pulled your hand and dragged you a bit a far from your table. they had a quetioning look all over their face. but jongin always stayed calm as ever. he leaned his back and placed his phone in his blazer.

"you aren't going to stare at him like that again." soojung complained, and you sighed. "were you seducing him?"

you made a face and hit her head not too strong. "are you insane?" you hissed.

"Sehun caught that sight, idiot" you remained silent and glanced at Sehun direction. he was still his eyes set on you. you replied his smile weakly. you tapped on the canning juice and it fell from the vending machine. Soojung took it and she gave it to you. and she got another drinks for the rest.

"you know that it's not like that soojung." you said to her as you stared at the drinks on your hand blankly. as if you searched the right words on it.

"I know. but it will brought the misunderstanding for everyone." Soojung was being concern to you. she just too sick with the drama that happened. "and she doesn't help either." She pointed her thumb to the seat where everyone gathered. you saw Ahri walked closer to them and she gave a peck to jongin cheek. he smiled a bit for the first time that day. 

"what were you guys talking with that serious face?" Sehun asked you as you and soojung walked towards them. you hold the drinks before you placed it on the table. "you know, stuff.." you didn't know since when, sehun had more and more quetions those days. 

"Oh ahri, you are here, I'm sorry, I didn't bring the drink for you." Soojung's words tell that she was sorry, but the way she said it, wasn't. "it's okay, soojung." Ahri smiled at her and she rolled her eyes hearing that. 

Ahri felt your prescense and she unknowingly moved her body closer to jongin. and you just lifted your eyebrows slightly. amused, before you snorted silently.

"just now, I asked yoora to go the club tonight and she said that she doesn't want to. do you believe that?!" soojung opened her drink and you snorted. 

"why? do you have another plan?" Tao asked you and sehun interested as well.

you gulped the drink before you answered him,"library, I need some study time." and your lower lips, wiped the lingered taste with your tongue.

"your study things is just like flip the page and flip again and again, and you don't even read them, genius." Chanyeol sarcasticly said.

everyone disgusted by the word 'study'. and you slightly laughed and shrugged.

"do you want me to study with you?" Sehun asked you, then it mean he didn't really want to. you were sure he want to be with his friends, because if he really wanted it, he  wouldn't ask your permission. 

"no?" you smirked and he chuckled. and with that, you bid your goodbye to them and Sehun kissed your head before you stood up and left them. you heard they teased Sehun behind, about how he was more brave to show your relationship and so. and it was when you felt those burden feeling again. it was more and more heavy day by day. and truth to be told, you didn't like that feeling.

after that, some of them went out and called the others.

some just stayed, and some choosed to go home.

and actually, you just wanted to be alone.

Jongin stopped in the middle of his dance practice. he dropped his body on the sit position. his hair was damped and some of his sweat streamed on his face. He was narrowing his eyes as it made its way to his eyes.

He breathed heavily and took the bottle beside him. He gulped his drink and took his ipod on the table. 

he checked his phone and he scoffed looking at his phone screen. 

5 massage and 7 missed calls. Ahri. Ahri. Ahri. Chanyeol. Sehun.

the boys abosolutely urged him to go to the club. and ahri, well..she just wanted him to reply her text.

jongin didn't even read them and he walked out from the room. as he walked in the corridor, he stopped as he remembered that you reasoned to others that you would study. 

he wanted to make sure that you were really there or not as you said to sehun before. was it your excuse? he didn't know why he even care. perhaps, he really wanted to find nobody in library. he really wanted you weren't there, and found that you were just lying to Sehun. 

The sight from before was still fresh in his head, how you bore your cold and blank eyes on his and how sehun linked his arm on your waist or when he kissed you on the head.

he laughed.

what was that? you wanted to show-off that you can life without him? or Sehun wanted him to see that the girl was belong to him?

dude, please, I was her boyfriend before. I've done those kind of things with her before you. more than just linking my hand on her waist.

He scoffed at his tought.

He checked his wristwatch and he changed his direction toward the library.

in the other hand, you put your pen as you felt your phone vibrated. you let out a deep breath and d your phone inside your Blazer. you tapped the screen and there was a text from sehun.

are you still there? it's late already. 

you wandered your eyes around the room. many student were still there, obviously, it was their last term and they only focused in study and study. 

yeah. it's okay. don't worry. how about you? 

you stood up and walked toward the bookshelves. you dragged your finger tried to find the book you need.

"digestive, disgestive" you mumbled to yourself as you read the book title one by one.

and your phone vibrated again.

I'm still at the club. and hyojin got drunk. I'll sent her to her home, you don't mind right? make sure you'll go home safely babe. 

you narrowed your eyebrows. hyojin?

She didn't show her nose to you today and how could she was in the club already? and she didn't even try to call you or something.

"this brat." you decided to not reply his text as you thought sehun probably knew you wouldn't mind about it at all. but you just felt that hyojin, perhaps, keep the distant with you? she was acting so weird. 

you exhaled deeply and started to walked around to find the book again. 

"where the hell is the ing book." you cursed under your breath after 5 minutes roaming the room and still couldn't find it.

"cursing can't make this book popped in front of you magically, park yoora" You turned your head and saw Jongin leaning his shoulder against the bookshelves. one of his hand was in his pocket, and the other hand holding the book. it caught your attention, it written 'the disgestivus system' as the cover title. you looked up to him again and only found his expression-less face.

you sighed. "so i see you are talking to me now. finally." you walked toward him, as you sarcasticaly said to him. keep your eyes at the book on his hand. "what are you doing here,kai?"

kai. she called me kai again.

"I can't?" he answered or asked you could say, arrogantly. you reached the book. and soon, the book was on your hand. you walked heading toward your previous seat. Jongin was tailing behind you, waiting for your reply.

"club, your practice room, anywhere but here kai" you took a seat and placed the book on the table. you refused to look at him and started to open the book and pulled it closer to you. everyone's staring and you admited it, you were uncomfartable with your boyfriend's bestfriend that unfortunately everyone knew that both of you used to be together.

"I was in my practice room before went here. and I just wanna make sure about something" Jongin casually replied you. half smiled.

and you tried to make yourself as calm as ever. you choosed to focused on the book instead. you'd the serious face as you flipped the page and noted something on your text book.

You ignored him as you wished he would just leave you there and didn't disturb you anymore. 

but well, he didn't utter a word for the last ten minutes. 

you sighed before you harshly closed your book and  lifted your head to look right at his eyes. "stop staring like that kai. and why the heck are you still here? " you hissed impatiently. "and oh, if you waiting for my answer, believe me I won't lie to him" you were already felt really tired today, and this guy was getting your nerves. he just unknowingly appeared and sat in front of you. 

Jongin just remained silent, he creased his eyebrows. He still had his eyes on you. examined you for the first time after that day. she stared at you eyes that looked a bit red due your lack of sleep. and your pale skin, he dragged his eyes towards your cheek, it was like there were no blood on your cheek.

you waited for him to respond you but no, nothing came out from his lips.

you placed your palm on your tample as you lowered your head a bit.

"you drove your car?" jongin finally spoke, and you shook your head uninterseted and clicked your tongue.

with your answer, Jongin took your things, grabbed your hand and pulled you. you gasped by the sudden contact and peoples stared at you and most of them were girls, giving you the dirty look. you were too shocked by his act and before you were back to your sense, you were already dragging by hime towards the parking lot.

He opened the passenger door and pushed you a bit before he jogged and entered the car as well.

"kai you are unbelievable. everyone was watching!" you turned your body, waiting for his explaination.he ignored you and only God knew how many times he did that on you.

"I know." 

" you kai"

"and you know that I'd love to" 

you were speechless and ended up just gave him your deathly glare as He fastened your seatbelt before he did that to himself. 

and you just gave up as you saw him didn't say anything again before you straightened your position and leaned your body to the backrest harshly.

"I can't believe that you are the same person I've dated back then. fake ." you planed to save that words in your mind for the couple of times whenever he did something inappropriate to you. but now he pissed you off and slipped it from your mouth.

He snorted as he keep his eyes on the road, shrugged off another pit in his stomach by the time he heard everything you said. it wasn't when you cursed, nor when you wanted to make him leave. the feeling was there when you seemed to hate the relationship you's shared with him.

"I'm the opposite of everyhing you've ever dreamed of, yoora. and I'm sorry for that." he said with the light smirk still plastered on his face. 

there. the sudden pang hit you right in the place where the cut was still opened. you inhaled the very deep breath as you stared at him by the corner of your eyes.

"guess sehun is the one, then?" he chuckled darkly and turned the wheel with his right hand, and placed his left elbow on the window while driving before he resting his head on his fist. mentally warned himself to not turned his head at the girl beside him. even for just checked her respond.

the rest of the ride was only silency. he didn't talk, you didn't talk, and the music player was off.

you zipped your lips by the last of his words. you would had another war of words and it would hurt you in the end. you decided to say nothing.

you almost forgot about everything when you where with him. you still tensed from the previous conversation with him, yet, the traffic made it worse. made it longer.

half an hour later, you reached your house. but choosed to stay a bit longer, felt that something was off. he dragged you for reason right? he didn't do that just for arguing about how jerk he could be.

he didn't even clicked the button to unlock the door.

you stared to your gate before finally sighed and took off your seatbelt "please, unlock the car door kai."

"stay." he grabbed your arm as he bored his eyes on yours. when he saw you leaned your back, he released your arm. 

"About Ahri.." he left his word hanging in the air with that just two words, hoping that you guessed right what he wanted to talk about. with that just two words and you felt something flipped in your stomach.

"I get it kai." you said before lifted up your gaze to him "for not saying anything at all when your innocent girlfriend poured the drink on me purposely in front of everyone in cafetaria. then you even pretended like nothing happened, you are too biased and what now, you are sorry. i get it. it's okay. everything's okay. " you emphasized some words as the sarcastic remark and gave him an intense stare.

"what did you expect from me to do? risking my relationship and defended for you?" he furrowed his eyebrows. eyed you.

"I didn't say that!"

"then what?! what did you want me to do?" he breathed out after he shouted to equal your voice level. and he felt something repressed his respiratory tract.

the truth was you didn't need him to defend for you, but at least, you hoped he would say something to her that time. she wasn't the only one culprit here. the things that made Ahri did that wasn't only because of 'you'. but for what you did to her man as well. 

"Oh God, how depressing. and dammit kai, you were acting oblivious back then when She was, clearly. very clearly being a childish to me in front of you."

You knew you were starting to get his nerves as well as you saw him gritted his teeth.

"it doesn't mean you can talk about her like that,yoora. she is still my girlfriend." he seemed furious, but he managed himself to not burst his anger when you badmouthing his girl directly.

you snorted in disbelief. 

"and now you are mad kai. this is why I choosed to not have a talk with you. it's tiring. and we only shouted in eachother face in the end!" 

you heard the sudden ringtone from your phone and you read the caller id, and gulped before you finally tapped the green icon and rubbed it aside with your thumb.

Jongin still in his position with body turned to you but he leaned after that and sighed. he seemed not satisfied with everything. 

"hello." you softened your voice a bit. you gazed at jongin. irritated.

"hello, yoora, are you home already? I'm near your house and-" no, you didn't want to make him saw you with jongin together.

"I'm in the library rightnow, Sehun. I've told you right?" Jongin shot his eyes on you as he heard Sehun's name being mentioned. 

"then should I go to school instead?" you felt the burden as you'd to lie to him.you remained silent for second and stared at jongin. 'hang up' he mouthed. but you ignored him. Jongin growled at your behaviour and he couldn't control it anymore.

"It's no need Sehun, I-" he grabbed your phone and threw it to the backseat even before you completed your words to Sehun.

"what the are you doing right now?! " you screamed in depressed as you tried to reach your phone and made another call to sehun. but, ended up he gripped your arm.

"I told you to hang up. you aren't in the right position to answer him." Jongin retorted. God, how could you let this person alive.

"It was okay until you threw my phone and let the call was being cut. Oh dear God, you have no idea how glad I am to have Sehun that won't do stupid act like you and your girlfriend did . and yes, Sehun is the opposite of you. you are just being a jerk, , arrogant bastard-"

Jongin didn't have a clue, but some parts of his body was throbbing, his head, his chest. it wasn't jealousy, it  for surewasn't envy. It was the anger that built up in him. and his eyes was darkening rapidly.

"woah woah. hold it there. you were kissing with this bastard less than a week ago, and this mess happened because of it." 

you'd expected jongin would bring this matter. you thought you were ready to answer him back, but guess, you reached your limit. 

you opened your mouth began to talk again but he didnt give you a chance.

"and heck, we both know we were enjoying it. so this guy you called bastard was better in kissing you than your sehun right?" he pointed at himself as he described it, placing his forefinger on his chest. 

"Jongin!" you shouted his real name in anger and it made him stop.finally.

it was okay for him when you cursed him for what he did, but to compare him with sehun? he didn't like it even a bit.

you placed your palm on your forehead, you couldn't believe he would do that to you. what did you do wrong? why did make a fuss over it? 

Jongin was panting as his breath shortened.

"damn!" he hit the stering-wheel in anger. both of your and jongin energy was drained. you brushed your hairs with your fingers after you composed yourself

"are you done talking?" you whispered and gazed him. you waited for him for gave you an answer but after minute he was still in the same state. 

"I don't why you make an issue of it. aren't we the same then?" It was absolutely an issue right? but you pretend that it was nothing. you had to. You didn't want him to pity you or whatever it was that made you look miserable in front of him. "why did you make an issue about I kissed you? you used to kiss me before you dumped me, and back then," you swallowed a bit hard "you did that when you loved her." 

Jongin pulled his head and leaned backwards as he wiped his face with his palms.

you stared again at your house, the lamps inside your house was off. you were wondering if nobody was home. 

you dragged your eyes to your wristwatch. 8 PM. they shold be at home in that time.

you took a breath and eyed him. he looked like in a deep thought.  his eyes was closed. and his breath was more normal than before. his side view used to be your favorite. his jawline was the prefect creature that no one could be handle.

"jongin." you called him. but it turned out too soft for your liking. after you realized that your heart weakened again. you mentally cursed youself because of it. 

Jongin felt his lung burned a little, and he wondered why, but he disgustingly liked it. but he just shrugged it off, perhaps, bacuse he rerely heard people called him by than name. 

"it was different." he said in his deep voice. he opened his eyes this time, eye staring at his car-ceiling.

"it wasn't, jongin" you darely asnwered him back, and it caught his attention. 

"so, you mean you love him." it sounded like a statement rather than a quetion, he bore his eyes into you.

you scoffed, "you expect me to love some else then?" you sighed again for the nth time. arguing, lying, denying, and defending for yourself at the same time with him was the most tiring thing you ever did.

"jongin you're confusing me."

jongin furrowed his eyebrows. he didn't mean to lead the coversation to another kind of sickening conversation.  he deepened his gaze. "no, you're the one who confusing me, yoora. it's you."

you felt as if every time he looks into your eyes, he was searching, understanding, connecting with the you inside of you.

he was expacting you to answer him with the same deepth. But you toyed with your emotion and it ended up making both of you and and him in placed lively confusion. he was still searching, and you would always hide.

"kiss me." jongin said after the long pause you had. you looked at him in disbelief as if he said something nonesense.

"what?" you startled by his sudden order as you narrowed your eyes. jongin clasped his seatbelt and looked calm as he had a time to roll his sleeve up to his elbow before he landed his eyes on your.

"you heard me." you heard him, yes. clearly. but it wasn't what you mean. you asked him as if he blurted out some of joke that would pissed you more. "if it's the same then kiss me."

you gripped your skirt tightly but you kept you face as stright as you could. Jongin was playing with your feeling,wasn't he? he did a greet job. he put you in the most danger place, always. 

you let out an bitter chuckle before piercing your eyes into his cold-dark eyes. he dared you inside his head, and you got the point. and you wouldn't let him win.

you leaned your face closer to him and stopped right on his ear. "you do think I'm just the introvert pure yoora that everyone know. but I'm not, jongin. not anymore." 

she talked to him made some chills throughout his body. she didn't even said it in the seductive manner. although she said in her cold and toneless voice, he was wondering why it shivered him.

she pulled her body and stared blankly, and she saw the bothered look on his face. you made a move and you tilted your head, equaling your lips and his lips in the same level. you closed your eyes you didn't waste a time to put your lip on his and placed your hands on his shoulders.

Jongin started and pull back his body out of the shock, but not strong enough to make you stopped the kiss. called you , called you . just called you by the nasty name as long as it would make you look stronger in front of him, you wouldn't mind.

you were not even a in the first place, the kisses wouldn't broke you right?

he replied your kiss as you sneaked your arm around his neck. you opened your mouth and with your tongue. and he gladly opened his mouth. and that was the first time you were being dominant. he dragged his hand to your neck, and pushed your nape to make the kiss deeper. with slow pace of both of your and jongin's breathing, your tongues dueled, with quick lunges and retreats.

"enough to prove it?" you pulled your body and you wiped your lips with your sleeves. 

He stared at your face, it was a bet red by the heat you shared with him.

"it's not enough." Jongin grabbed your arm, made a way to claimed your lips again

before placed his arm around your waist and lifted you up and moved you on his lap after he made enough room for you and him, not even parted the kiss.

you playing running at first, but after seconds, you kissed him with a hunger that started deep in subconscious mind,travelled down to the pit of your stomach and back up your spine with a shudder. soft noises came out from your throat as he brushed your back with his hands. Jongin groaned at the familiar sensation, and he even craving for it.

He pulled back just for stared at your dark orbs, and it reflected his. the sight of you panting didn't help him. he kissed your neck in instant and it softly.

oh my God. you whimpered by his act.

Jongin crashed his lips to you once again,with such intensity that you could hardly stifle the gasp. the feeling was too much for, you wanted to push him away but he didn't let you. you felt the sudden heartache from your chest.

you didn't know who thought up the term 'heartache' but they must not have been too bad off of it was only their heart. Everything was burning from the inside and stabbing from the outside. his scent was still the same, and you thought you were drunk. 

The sudden flash of car light startled both of you, and with that jongin pulled the kiss and he placed you to the passanger seat. you covered your eyes from the light that started to hurt your eyes.

"who is that?" jongin asked you as he mirrored you to cover his eyes.

you narrowed your eyes to have a better view of the car and the sound of the horn made you realized that it was your parent's.

"my parents." you let out a deep breath as the car light was being turned off. you could see your parent a bit tensed by the view in front of them.

"do you think I'm in trouble now?" Jongin mockingly asked you and you snorted. 

"no." you took your bag and scoffed, "but I hope so." you added before wore your blazer. jongin smirked before he went out from his car and opened your car-door. and you step out from his car as well.

he bowed to your parents for the polite-ness. your dad nodded even his face writtened the uneasy feeling. you let out another scoff before walked away without gave jongin a word. but you stopped and turned towards jongin.

"Jongin." jongin shifted his gaze, waiting for you to continue "It would be the last. and I hope it was enough"

Jongin remained silent and glued his eyes on you, watching you walked away and entered your house. The car following behind you, and he bowed a little to your parents before he turned back to his car and entered it.

He was drown in his own silency, trying to figure out the unfamiliar feeling inside him. it was the mixature of anger, confusion, fear, uncertain, ambivalent. and it wasn't his first time he tried to understand it, and it wasn't his first time too he failed.

he stared for the last time to the room on the 2nd floor, the light was tuned on and he could

saw you from there. he sighed, "what are you doing kim jongin?" he said to himself in whisper. 

he began to fastened his seatbelt, but only caught something on his backseat. he reached out his hands to take it. and realized it was yours. 

he clicked his tongue. he doubted he could retun that to you now. and he just placed it on his dashboard before fastened his seatbealt and drove away from your house.

the phone was flashed for seconds before it went black again. but jongin missed the sight of her phone screen.

Oh Sehun

Call ended (24 minutes 58 seconds).

A/N: Don't kill me T^T

It has been a while guys. please forgive me and don't hate me. 

I swear my laptop was stolen away by someone T^T and I need times to make an update because my files was in that laptop. that's why.

and I don't remember what should I write so everytime I writed for this ff I've to erase-type-erase-type rapidly.

and this is the veryyyy long chapter I give to you. and sorry for the grammatycal error/typos.I didn't do edit. as I told you English isn't my first language, so yeah.

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