​"I trusted you and yet you hurted me"

  -----     He's not here. I thought he would think of me and maybe I was too blind to see that he actually cares. I'm so stupid. I knew that I shouldn't put all of my trust in him. He's . . .so shallow like everyone else is. The rain soaks my hair as I look up and inhale deeply. I wasn't sure if tears are streaming down my face but the rain keeps falling. I close my eyes tightly. I want to believe he's a good person. This was only one time that he just ignored me, is it? I rub my face and my throat choke a bit as I feel like my heart just shattered again. The wounds are opening up again. The rain stops all of a sudden, as I look up. Taehyung and Nini were standing as they have sheepish grins on their faces. I forgot that I actually have friends now. I couldn't help but hide my face as I sob. Nini crouches down as she pats my back as Taehyung holds the umbrella. My lips quiver as a cold went down my spine.    

"Poor Jungkook. . .," she still is patting my head, soothing me with warm words. "You're a good person to wait for a person like this . . .". Nini lifts up my face as she puts her forehead on mine. Maybe she experienced this before. Taehyung crouches down as well, putting his arms around both me and Nini. My eyes wrinkle all of a sudden, maybe I was actually smiling with all my teeth showing for the first time. We all get up as I realize how soak I am from head to toe. Great, now I have to go hurry up and take a hot shower.

 

We all walk to my apartment, I head to the porch as Taehyung and Nini wave at me. I look back and smile, raising my hand to wave slightly. They both frantically wave back as they walk down the neighbourhood, linking arms and laughing. I went inside my apartment, my shoulders slump. My apartment is pretty small. I have one tiny kitchen, one bathroom, and one living room. No washer machine or dryer. My bed is in the living room, with light blue sheets and a huge fluffy blanket. I take off my shirt and pants, heading towards the shower. (A/N : Imagine Jungkookie shirtless!!! *nosebleed*)

 

In the shower, I couldn't help myself but be in deep thought. Is Jimin worthy of my time or not? I never fell in love in my life or felt any type of emotions. The only emotion I feel most of the time is anger, sadness, and lonliness. My dad left when I around kindergarden. I couldn't help but cry myself to sleep when my parents argue.

 

I seen it. With my own eyes. My father and another woman kissing at his workplace where I wanted to drop off his lunch. I kept my mouth shut and regret it. I hear my mother cry to herself and hold it in when she's around me or my brother. She tends to overwork her