"Tired of just holding my feelings in"

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"I will take you on," he grabs my collar harshly. I grip onto his hand on my collar. "I deserved to be happy". My lips quiver, not able to even say a word. But, my throat croaks.

"So does everyone else," tears start to fall. It hurts to fight somebody I care about. "We all just want to be happy". I lower my head, my body slightly shakes. My hands twitching, aching to punch him. I just can't hurt him though. I can't hurt him. He just drops me on the floor. I land on my palms and knees, avoiding his gaze. He scoffs at me, walking away. If this is a competition, I have to win. The clock ticking fills the silence he created. I close my eyes, breathing lightly. Everything will be okay. 

The flowers in the hospital's garden brings me into a calm state. "Beautiful . . .  . . .". Then a song plays inside of my head. I start to hum to myself, mumbling the lyrics under my breath. "I'm sitting alone on the sofa . . .where you used to be . . . .I can't sleep a bit . . .". The singing gets louder. "I try closing my eyes and covering my ears. But the memories come back to me. Will my heart stop if I hold my breath?" I pause for a quick second. "Only my longing for you comes back . . . . .I'M ALONE THE ON THE SOFAAAAA!"

"STOP SINGING IN THE DAMN GARDEN!!!" Old man Kim screams out from the window, causing me to just stay quiet. I end up chuckling to myself. That song reminds of when I was waiting for Jimin. Then a light bulb appears in my head, maybe I can get out of this damn hospital!

"No," Seokjin crushes all my hope I had. I pout at him, giving him my big ol' puppy eyes. "Jungkook, you have an infection and your head is going to explode".

"HOW DARE YOU THINK THAT?!" I cross my arms, furrowing my eyebrows. "I'm strong!" I flex my arm, not gonna lie . . .I have a great body. Seokjin whacks my arm. "I swear, you may look okay externally. But internally, you have a huge infection inside your muscle tissues. Here". Then he ing pokes me in the head right where my wound is at. I groan in pain, massaging my head. "WHAT THE SEOKJIN?!"

He puts on a smug smirk, shrugging. "I'm just trying to physically telling you the truth. So, a no is a no".

"But Seokjinnn!" I stomp on my feet like a grumpy little toddler, whining. "I want to see Jimin!". "SHUT UP!".

My plan does not work obviously so I just sit there, contenplating my life choices. "Mahhhh. I swear. Seokjin's is strict mother".

"Talking ?" Taehyung's head hangs above my face, I scream in horror. I back away from him, eyeing him up and down.

"Stop scaring me," I slouch my shoudlers, throwing my hands up. "I'm not talking !"

"So  . . .can I assist you on your es-ca-pe," God. He even pronounce escape in his own weird way.

"Yeah. Just get me out of here," He pulls me up to stand. "How . . .are we going to  . . . .even escape?"

Why did I even trust Taehyung in the first place? The fact that I'm wearing a long haired brown wig. And Nini's . . . clothes . . . .god damn it. But the real problem is how do people even think I'm a girl?! I'm in long summer dress that's white.. And wearing a really puffy jacket over it and a cap with the wig. Taehyung is currently dragging my arm, sliding through the corridor. Literally. He's using to his sandals and pretending to 'figure skate' with it. I spot Seokjin chatting up with his nurses. Nope!! 

Taehyung abruptly stops and waves hi. What the hell, Taehyung?! I hide my face with my cap, lowering my head.

"Hey Taehyung!" He gives Taehyung a bro-hug. Then he stops to look at me. I awkwardly lower my head even more. "Who's the girl?"

"Ahhh!" Taehyung slings his arm around me. "My older cousin, Junghwa!" I nudge his sides, he flinches. "She's just chilling near the cafe and I've decide to have fun walking around here".

"Taehyung, this place is residental. You shouldn't be loitering around here anymore," Seokjin sighs and face palms, I try to avoid as much talk as possible. "So, Junghwa? You are really tall. Are you perhaps a model?".

"She is a disability model," Taehyung pulls me behind him. "She's deaf and oh !" Taehyung pulls me and runs off. He starts laughing hysterically, Seokjin calls out for us but the farther we go . . . .his voice disappears.

We arrive near a train station, I start to strip off my clothes while waiting for our train. People gives me dirty looks, I  then smile like I'm so not taking this dress off and is literally half . I put on my regular clothes and breathe in then out. "AHHHH!! I feel good!!" Then this lady cover her kid's ears and drag him away while he was laughing at me. 

"Let's