"Hwa-Hwayoung?? you’re my cousin?"

"Hey. I can explain"

"Then go ahead"

"Not here. Follow me. Please Jongup" Jongup followed me to my room in this house. He was sitting in my bed and I was just looking around. I cleared my throat but I still couldn’t talk. "Hwayoung, let’s just play 20 questions. So you just came back so that means you’re not the schools nerd" I finally face him, I sat down by the window and took a deep breath. 

"Okay. No am not the schools’ nerd"

"That’s your sister? your twin"

"Yea"

"Why isn’t she in school?"

"....."

"Okay. why didn’t you say anything in school?"

"...."

"Where is she"

"....."

"Do you not know how to play 20 questions??"

I just looked out the window and kept my mouth shut.

"You told Zelo your sister was in a peaceful place. Yongguk heard that you well your sister was in the hospital for months......omg that means.... I am oh gosh am so sorry"

"Why are you sorry?"

"Isn’t she dead?"

"you sound like a child trying to guess what he's getting for his birthday"

"am sorry I didn’t mean it like that. Anyways, is she okay?"

"I wish I knew"

"So she’s alive?"

"yes and no"

"what do you mean?"

"She’s not dead but she’s not really alive"

"She’s in the middle? oh you mean she’s in a coma"

"Yea. That’s why she isn’t in school....  And the reason why I didn’t say anything is because only family members know I have a twin, father doesn’t want anyone to know and I am listening to him because I wanted to know how she felt all these years when she was getting bullied by you and your friends. I can handle more pain than her but I know she was really scared. I only have a glimpse of what she might have felt."

"When did you get the glimpse?"

"When Yongguk was choking me. I was scared, I thought he was gonna kill me and I want to live, if only for my sister"

"why doesn’t uncle want anyone to know"

"That I can’t tell you"

"Why not?"

"Because not even I know the whole reason why"

"You do know something but not all of it so tell me. Don’t say you can’t because you can"

"Fine, I WONT tell you"

"Aww come on"

"What else do you want to know?"

"How come Yongnam knows"

"Because we knew each other since we were kids, our parents are friends"

"Okay so why doesn’t Yongguk knows?"

"He doesn’t remember"

"Yea but don’t you thi- OMG ITS YOU!!"

"Huh?? it’s me what?"

"Yongguk told us about his childhood friend and he said your house is where she use to live!!!"

"So?"

"He said he's waiting for her, because he still likes no LOVES her, well you!!! We have to tell him th-"

"NO!!"

"why not?"

"I don’t want him to know"

"Why not?!?!"

"He was the first to hurt her. He promised to take good care of her but because of him she’s in a coma. He told you he 'loves' me but he doesn’t even know what love is...Also I want to be the one to tell him. So promise you won’t say a word?"

"I don’t know"

"Please, I made a promise to Yongnam oppa that I’ll tell him when my sister wakes up or by graduation if she doesn’t wake up"

"Okay I promise" I give him a small smile and start walking out

"WAIT!!"

"Jongup you don’t have to yell I 'm not that far away"

"Sorry, but can I say you’re my cousin"

"Nope"

"Why not?!?!?"

"You told everyone your cousin just came back from being overseas and if you tell them that’s me they'll know I'm not the 'schools’ nerd' and start asking a lot of questions"

"Well I can say she’s your sister or that she’s also your cousin so that makes us second cousins" He was jumping and smiling like a kid

"fine you can say whatever you want but you can’t say that I went overseas"

"Thanks noona now let’s go join the party" 

Jongup and I spent the rest of the night talking about what I did after I left. I wanted to pretend for just tonight that my life isn’t messed up but I had a bad feeling and it wouldn’t go away.

YONGGUKS POV..

(English translation)

My reflection in the mirror
Is so empty, as if there’s nothing there
I walk alone on the street
But this empty street feels so empty
Da ra dat dat dat dat dat dat
Baby don’t worry
After waking up from the dream that was you
This morning of reality feels so empty
As I face the morning, I realize once again
What wakes me up is not you but an alarm bell
Why is this damn bed so big?
In my vast desert of a heart, only a cold wind blows
I’m an empty shell, a coward without you
People around me look at me with pity
It kills me, no what a day
Before starting my day, without thinking I saw…
My reflection in the mirror
(There’s no smile on my face)
Is so empty, as if there’s nothing there
I walk alone on the street
But this empty street feels so empty
(It’s quiet just like my heart)
Da ra dat dat dat dat dat dat
Baby don’t worry
After waking up from the dream that was you
This morning of reality feels so empty
(My heart feels so empty)
It’s over, my love
Where are you?
Now we are just a memory
I was happy, don’t forget me, let’s meet again
Good days and sad days
Hard days and happy days
Now it becomes memories of the past
The me and you of the past are now over
It’s like I came back to reality
My reason to live is gone, my head is complicated
When I open my eyes in the morning, my heart feels empty
I feel the emptiness, just like I did before I met you
My reflection in the mirror
(There’s no smile on my face)
Is so empty, as if there’s nothing there
I walk alone on the street
But this empty street feels so empty
(It’s quiet just like my heart)
Da ra dat dat dat dat dat dat
Baby don’t worry
After waking up from the dream that was you
This morning of reality feels so empty
(My heart feels so empty)
It’s over, my love
Where are you?
Now we are just a memory
I was happy, don’t forget me, let’s meet again
You still flicker before me when I close my eyes
But I’ll feel less and less as time goes by
I don’t regret it, I’m just a bit sad
I don’t miss you, I just long for you
I’m more and more afraid because I’m not like myself before
(There’s no smile on my face)
I’m scared to see myself getting weaker
(It’s quiet just like my heart)
Without you, even the air around me is heavy
(Da ra da ra ra ra ra dat)
After waking up from the dream that was you
This morning of reality
It’s over (it’s over)
My love, where are you? (Where are you?)
Now we are
Just a memory, I was happy (I was happy)
Don’t forget me (don’t forget me)
Let’s meet again

I open my eyes and I see I’m in a park, but it looks familiar.

 

 

"Oppa you’re here, I miss you" A girl with a white sundress and short hair runs and hugs me.

 

I just stand there not being able to move. Finally, I remember this is the park I met my gongju and her sister. I push her away and walk to the pond at the back of the park. I look at my reflection and notice I’m wearing a white shirt and white pants, I turn to look at the girl and see her looking at the ground, her hands covering her face. "O-oppa you don’t remember me? Haha I told you you'll be the one to forget me" Her shoulders were shaking then it started to rain but the sun was still out. Again I couldn’t move, I just watched as she slowly walked away. When she was a few feet away I started running to her and back hugged her.

 

"Gongju I could never forget about you, I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise but I’ll look after her for now on" I turned her around to see her face but when I did her face was blurry.

 

"Oppa you don’t remember me. I’m right in front of you but you can’t see my face, and about your promise you broke it the worst way. I’m not going to forgive you for that oppa"

 

"I... What do you mean I broke it the worst way?"

 

"You hurt her oppa and now I can only see her not feel her."

 

"I’m sorry, I’ll take care of you now. I won’t hurt you" She started laughing but her laugh was sad and the rain got heavier. 

 

 

"I hope so oppa because I need you, I’m losing my friend and I need you to hold me, to tell me everything will be okay" She lightly pushed me away and started walking away from me "Be nice oppa and you might find me sooner than I’m planning" she started running away, I ran after her but it felt like I wasn’t even mooning, she started to fade away and soon the sun was gone "GONGJU!!!! GONGJU COME BACK!!!!! GONGJUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

 

 "GONGJU!!" I woke up with sweat running down my face. "it was just a dream but what does it mean?" I look at my bedside table and grab a photo. It’s all four of us in the park. Gongju looks so happy, her smile was reaching her eyes. "I'll be nice so I can see you soon gongju. I still haven’t forgotten you, just your name haha" I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep.

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