Hyukjae’s POV

 

 

 

I walked back and forth in my room while holding my phone, thinking so hard whether if I should call my baby or not.

“but I guess he’s still in a bad mood” I mumbled to myself, remembering the scene this afternoon.

Shoot. If only at that time my mom didn’t call me and tell me to go home, this little matter probably already solved!

Sighed.

He said he’s not perfect?

“what the hell… Does he never look at the mirror and see how perfect he is??” I groaned, feeling frustrated at how could a perfect figure said he’s not perfect.

“I really don’t understand what he’s thinking!” I shouted at purin, my lovely cat, who sat innocently on my bed while looking at me with its round big pure eyes.

I sighed and couldn’t help but remembering the day when hae came to my room and met purin.

I chuckled at the thought and squatted in front of purin. “how could he be so afraid of you?” I smiled looking at purin while remembering how cute hae’s expression was when he’s scared,

“you two are suuuuuuuper cute! Gosh purin you make me miss my baby hae so much!” I lifted purin and hugged it so tight, and immediately regretted it because it was too tight making purin scratched my hand before ran away while crying. I groaned.

“purin!” I cried and dropped my body on the floor.

 

“pabo” I heard amber’s voice from the door, “what did you do to purin??”

I pouted, “I didn’t do anything”

“tch whatever. Oppa better get up now, dinner is almost ready” amber walked to me and started to pull my arm, making me groaned,

“amber, answer me” I said, ignoring her struggle trying to pull me,

“what??” she dropped my arm,

“don’t you think hae is perfect?” I asked seriously,

“what???? Of course he’s the most perfect human being ive ever met! I even mistook him as an angel remember?? I still thought that maybe he’s not human, maybe he—“

“alright alright alright” I picked her up to make her stop rambling and brought her outside my room.

 

 

See?????????? he’s perfect!!

 

 

 

 

~~~

 

 

 

“hae~ hyukjae is already here~” hae’s mom chirped energetically as usual,

“oh, youre already here” hae’s dad said while my collar shirt,

I grinned, “im here dad~ do you miss me?”

“yah! You—“

“dad!”

hae’s dad shout got cut with hae’s beautiful voice, making my grin grew even wider looking at the flawless figure standing across the room.

“I told you to stop doing that…” hae pouted while walking to us.

hae’s dad released me and cleared his throat, “i—I didn’t do anything, see? I was just checking if his collar is neat”

hae eyed him suspiciously, and I just chuckled at the adorable sight.

 

“have you had your breakfast?” I asked hae who’s wearing his shoes (cutely).

He just nodded and smiled.

Eh? Did he already get rid of his bad mood?

I smiled my best happy smile and helped him to get up, and linked our hands like we always do, “lets go” I pulled him outside, ignoring hae’s dad shouting,“HEY! NO TOUCHY TOUCHY!”

 

“we’re going now, dad~ mom~” I waved to them happily, earning a chuckle from hae.

I stopped waving and looked at hae.

“w—what?” he asked confusedly,

I grinned happily and swung our hands, “nothing, lets go”

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

“what happened?” hae frowned looking at my hand which had scratches on it,

“ah, its purin. I hugged her too tight and she got mad” I chuckled, rubbing my hand.

Hae stared at me looking shocked, like he just witnessed me cheating on him, “w—who’s purin?”

I looked at him confusedly, “huh? You don’t know purin??”

Hae seemed confused, making me smiled looking at his adorable expression,

“my cat, hae~ my cat” i chuckled looking at him formed an ‘o’ with his lips, looking relief, but then he’s panicked.

“y—your cat?? A—are you okay?? Did she—did she try to kill you??” hae scanned my scratched hand panicky and looked at me worriedly.

I stunned for a while, but then I couldn’t help but hug him and laugh loudly at his super adorableness.

“gosh, hae. How can that cute little creature kill me?” I practically squished him in my embraced while laughing, “can you be more adorable?”

he just pouted but then he hugged me tightly, made me surprised.

“what’s wrong?” I blinked my eyes in confusion,

he shook his head and leaned his head on my chest, “thank god you didn’t die…”

and I couldn’t hold my laugh and let it out until we reached the school gate.

 

 

 

~

 

 

“BUNNYYYYYYY!” sungmin squealed from across the hallway while running to our direction before crashed my poor baby into his super tight hug. “I thought you wouldn’t go to school today!!”

kyuhyun walked behind him as calm as usual, smiling looking at the healthy hae. “youre okay?” he asked, earning a grin and a nod from hae,

“yah yah yah!” I tried to pull sungmin from my hae, but he wouldn’t let go, making me groaned in frustration.

Hae giggled cutely and hugged him back, made me somehow had mix feelings of jealousy and happiness, thinking how glad I am that my best friend and my best boyfriend were so close.

“you should’ve rested at home!” sungmin pouted, his loud squeal just now caught students attentions who walked passed by which immediately surrounding us too.

Some who hae knew were asking if he was okay, and some were just pointing from afar probably talking about it was the guy who nearly got hit by a huge bookshelf.

What’s this… hae is getting famous?!?!

Wait wait wait

My head went boiled,

But it fade immediately when I heard the cute voice,

 

“i— I… I’m… o—okay… uh…” hae was panicked, he looked here and there and his hands clutched on his front shirt as he was trying to answer the loud voices surrounding him.

Awww my baby is stuttering, it’s time to rescue him!!

“thank you so much for worrying about me” hae said.

Wait

…

What?

I snapped my head and looked at him in horror,

WAS IT REALLY HIM WHO SAID THAT?

W—WITHOUT STUTTERING?

H—H-- HOW????

“ahhh glad to hear that!” one of the students exclaimed,

“so how’s yoona? Did she say something?”

“yeah, why did she do that to you??”

“did you have a big quarrel with her or something??”

 

they threw another questions again as I still shocked at what did I just hear. The fact that THAT lee donghae is talking without stuttering to people he doesn’t close with.

“u—uh…” his face went panicked by each bombs he was given from the students, and this somehow made me smiled widely.

 

Awww he still hasn’t changed though, and I found it extremely cute.

But hey, im not a bad boyfriend okay. Even though it was a cute sight but I could clearly see a super scared expression coming from him. He’s my fragile hae after all, which I loved the most about him.

So I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and pulled him closer, “sorry guys, put your questions for later. He cant be surrounded by annoying people like you all and can only be near me because im a super kind person and you all are very bad people”

Hae widened his eyes and got panicked, waving his hands as a sign of disapproval, “no no no—

“yah! Who’s annoying!”

“lee hyukjae you better not corrupted this poor dude!”

“we’re only worried!”

thousands shouts surrounded us which only made hae even more panicked.

I chuckled, “just kidding, he just cant stand with a lot of people surrounding him, hearing loud voices made him scared. He haven’t got used to people giving attention to him yet, and he’s not that good in talking with people. So please treat him kindly” I ended with my best smile, earning some squeals from the girls and ‘ooo’ from the guys.

“sorry donghae, we didn’t mean to scare you” one of the guys said,

donghae smiled  his shy smile and muttered, “it’s okay, thank you”

which somehow I knew it made those annoying students’ hearts who saw that melted in an instant.

“okay! Now now move~ we need to go to—“

“whoah! What’s with the crowd?!” my sentence got cut by a jerk’s voice I knew, who else besides that jung yunho. He swam through the crowd.

“ohh~! donghae you came to school! I thought you would take a rest at home for some times” he beamed while patting hae’s head, “Yah hyukjae, why you let him go to school?!”

I slapped his hand which was on hae’s head, “he wont listen anyway even if I prevented him. He would sneakily go to school again like he did yesterday”

Hae bit his lower lip while smiling sheepishly, and I didn’t know if I imagined things but I heard some long gasped from girls and guys.

“oh right, I forgot how stubborn this little guy is” he patted hae’s head again, earning another slap from me.

Yunho flicked his tongue in annoyance, “you brat”

“okay okay everyone! Class’ meeting is going to start soon, so let us go back to our classrooms” sungmin said happily while linking his arm with hae’s, before dragging him inside the class.

“yah yah! Sungm—“

and my words got cut again by sudden cheers from my classmates upon seeing hae came to school.

I sighed and shook my head at the fact that hae really is becoming famous. UFFFF… no good no good!

…But seeing my close friends really care for him made me smiled at the sight.

 

I was admiring hae’s (slightly) panic yet shy state being surrounded by our classmates from afar. I think he’s starting to feel comfortable with our classmates, and i didn’t feel bothered at all, I know my classmates are all trustworthy. So I couldn’t help but smiling to myself.

But hae’s sudden change of expression caught my guard. He looked more panicked, and it seemed like his eyes were searching for something despite of him still listening to seungri’s nonsense talk.

I frowned looking at how he bit his lower lip, and his hands clutched the end of his shirt. And his eyes—

…u—oh

I knew they’re starting to get a little teary!

I quickly went to the crowd, and as soon as hae saw me, his watery eyes brightened immediately. And somehow he looked like he was really relieved.

Ahh…

So that is it…

He was panicked because I was out of his sight?

I tried really hard to hold back my grin. I sat next to him and try to not holding his hand like I usually did in purpose. I thought he wouldn’t like it since there are a lot of people, I just want to make him comfortable right now.

“then you know, when you already went home yesterday, all of the teachers came to our class, and—“

seungri was telling hae about what happened yesterday happily, and I was listening also when suddenly I felt a tug on my shirt.

I looked at the hand, who belonged to none other than my baby’s, clutching on my shirt not too tightly. He was still listening to seungri’s story with a little smile on his face.

I smiled widely, and quietly enjoyed his presence close to me.

 

 

 

“hyukjae? Is hyukjae here?”

I turned around to see nana, our manager from dance club peeking from the class’ door.

“nana?” I frowned. I knew something might happened because it was so rare for her to come all the way to my class, so I stood up and walked to her, leaving the crowd, making hae’s hand dropped. “Whats up?”

“ah there you are! Jaewon oppa called you to talk about the club” she said, making me pouted immediately, because I now knew what the problem is,

“I already told him I don’t want to be the leader to replace him”

she shrugged, “say it to him by yourself then. Let’s go”

I sighed, “wait a sec” I muttered before walked back to the crowd where hae was. He was looking at me confusedly.

 I patted his head, “I must go for a while, our club leader will graduate soon so there are some things we need to talk about”

Hae smiled softly, “okay”

I looked at him for some seconds, feeling so sad I need to be separated from him.

“yah you will only go for a while no need to make a sad scene like that!” yunho shouted,

“shut up and just go back to your own class!” I shouted back while covering hae’s ears, preventing him from getting scared,

hae giggled and pulled my hands, “she’s waiting, tell me when youre done” he smiled so so so so softly, which never fail making my heart melt.

I pecked his head and bid him goodbye for the last time before walked outside the class, leaving him with his blushing face and some teases from my classmates.

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

I stretched my arms, feeling tired for sitting for too long. Aaargh… having a meeting for almost 2 hours isn’t that easy.

The discussion between me and jaewon hyung ended up with a meeting with the whole members, since I strongly refused to be the next leader, jaewon hyung finally could only sighed and decided to select another member by doing some kind of elections.

 

“why you strongly refused to be the leader hyung? I thought you would be a good leader too” minho asked, lying his body against the floor. The other students were scattered around the floor also, while some already went out.

“I cant, our club has too many projects, and I need to focus on my study for my college next year.” I said while taking my phone out of my pocket, “and since I really want to be in the same college as hae, I really want to work hard”

minho chuckled, “I already can tell you can enter to any university you want hyung. I saw your grades you know, youre on the 1^st aren’t you”

“well… anticipation needed” I pouted while typing on my phone, texting my baby to tell him I already finished.

“what if you two go to different universities?”

I stopped typing for a second, then type again. “it wont happen” I muttered.

“I said, ‘if’…” minho stared at me who was still typing,

I pouted and frowned deeply, “I don’t want to imagine it…”

Minho chuckled, “hyung, it’s not like you will let him go even if youre in a different college right?”

“of course not!” I pouted even more, “but it would be really great if we can be together again in the college…”

“right, what major donghae hyung will take anyway? Will he take business too?”

“ah that… I still don’t know… he hasn’t told me anything about it. He said he didn’t want to tell me yet since he’s still confused also”

“hmm is that so… well, whatever it is, you must support him okay?”

“of course I will, what kind of boyfriend I am if I don’t support him? Well if he wants to be an astronaut it would be a different case. Being in a different planet with him is unacceptable okay”

minho laughed at my words, “hyung, you really…”

“ssshh he texted back!” I sushed him, and concentrated on my phone.

Minho chuckled looking at my sudden bright face reading hae’s reply,

 

‘we’re going to theassembly hall to do the decorations for the graduation. Where are you now? Are you coming along, hyukkie?’

 

I was going to reply ‘yes’, but then nana’s sudden call made me pouted. we still need to move our equipments to the storage room, and it would take some times.

 

 ‘I still need to move our stuffs for a while, I’ll catch up with you and the others later :) do well and careful hae~’

 

I put my phone back inside my pocket before began to pick our stuffs.

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

“I still think you can be our good leader, hyukjae” nana said with a box in her hands, walking beside me.

“well… you know how I  really enjoy dancing right? It would be a lie if I said I didn’t want to be the leader, but really… to me as long as I still can dance it would be enough” I said while carrying 3 boxes,

nana smiled, “I see… it’s because you’ll be on your last year right… but will you take dance club again in the college?”

“of course~ I hope my university will have one” I beamed,

“yeah” she smiled, “ah… hey that looks heavy, put one here” she said, motioning me to put one of the boxes in my hands on top of her box,

“no, I can handle it, don’t worry” I said, but she didn’t agree,

“just put it! we need to be even, carrying 2 boxes” she said,

“no, girls shouldn’t carry heavy stuffs” I said casually,

she pouted, “then just give me the smaller one”

I chuckled, “okay then” I let her took the smaller box, “thanks” I smiled, making her smiled back,

“no problem” she replied while continued walking through the hallway, when suddenly I felt my shirt being pulled softly from behind,

i turned my head and surprised when I saw it was hae.

He looked… troubled.

“hae? Aren’t you supposed to be in the assembly hall with sungmin and kyu?” I asked, a little bit frustrated since I couldn’t hug him or anything due to the boxes in my hands,

“I went… to the toilet for a while…” he said softly, his hand still holding my shirt,

I scanned his face and without a second look I already noticed his sad face.

What happened?? Did someone hurt him??

I was about to ask, when nana spoke, “hyukjae, I guess we better put these boxes first”

hae released my shirt slowly. He gave me his usual soft smile, “careful with those boxes…”

I smiled widely, “I’ll be back!” I said, once again feeling frustrated I couldn’t pat his head, before walked away.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

after I put the boxes in the storage room, I immediately bid goodbye to nana, since we’re in the different class and her class’ job is to manage for the class meeting, while mine is to decorate for the third year’s graduation.

 

I grinned widely thinking I’ll be able to be close to hae again.

What? 2 and a half hours of separation is near too much for me, okay!

 

I opened the door of the assembly hall with a big smile on my face. Everyone was working on their own jobs so seriously that they didn’t notice I opened the door, which was good so I could find my hae without any disturbance. But I couldn’t seem to find his figure.

I frowned and started to look around, until I spotted kyuhyun who’s helping kangin setting a big lamp.

Ahh my evil brat!! Now that I see him made me realized we haven’t hung out for a while.  I ran to him and tackled his neck from behind,

“HEYHO!” I shouted, earning a sudden smack on my stomach.

“oh it’s you” he looked at me who’s now lying lifelessly.

“do you… want me… to die…?” I struggled on the floor, my soul was nearly flew away but thankfully I got a grip of it.

“I thought you were with donghae?” kyu pulled my arm to stand up, I frowned at his words,

“what? Wasn’t he supposed to be here helping you guys decorating?”

“he did, but a while ago jaejoong ordered one of us to search for you since youre the only one in our class who understands lighting stages, then donghae said he would find you”

“telljaejoongillbebacksoon” I said as fast as I could and ran out from the hall, leaving kyuhyun behind,

“…what?”

 

 

 

 

 

There was a crowd in front of the principal’s room, and my radar as soon as I saw hae’s hair within the crowd.

Ehehe

I guess I just found my new ability.

I smiled in glee looking at hae who’s peeking at one of the room with some other students. It only needed 3 minutes for me to find him~

I swam through the crowd and quietly stood behind him, before sneakily slipped my hand around his waists, making him gasped in surprised when I hold him tight,

“being astalker now? Don’t make me jealous standing in the middle of the crowd like this” I said, smiling seeing his shocked yet blushed face,

he put his index finger in front of his lips panicky, motioning me to keep quiet. I looked at him questioningly and peeked on the glass door,

“they seem will make her drop out for sure” one of the students whispered,

I looked at her confusedly, and asked, “who?”

The girl seemed surprised that I actually talked to her, she looked a little bit nervous with tints on her cheeks, “its… its yoona. She got called by the principal today to come to school to decide what punishment they should give…”

“ohh” I made an o shape with my lips, thinking this thing finally settled down. I knew this would happen.

Hae pushed my arms a little and tried to turn around to face me, “hyukkie what to do…?” he looked panic.

“huh? What do you mean ‘what to do’?” I asked back, my arms still securely wrapped around him. And with this crowd, I doubt anyone could see my hands.

“yoona is goingto be expelled” he clutched my front shirt,

“yeah, that’s the only decision from the start” I said casually, but hae didn’t seem to agree with me,

“hyukkie we need to help her!” he said, making me widened my eyes in shock,

“w—what do you mean by help??” confusion took over me, why would we need to help her?? She deserves it for her lesson.

“they’re still having a meeting now, and I saw yoona was crying silently inside! We still can persuade the teachers!”

“whoa whoa calm down first hae” I took his hand and dragged him out of the crowd, he frowned deeply,

“look, I know what you mean hae. You mean well and that’s very kind of you, but…” I sighed, “she deserves that”

“what??” he frowned even deeper, “she already apologized, hyukkie, she knew she was wrong!”

“hae she was trying to hurt you” I tried to say as calm as I could,

“I know, but she already apologized and she wont do that again”

“how do you knowshe wont do that again?”

“…what?”

“what if she do that again? Or even worse?”

he was hesitating but he showed another persistent eyes, “she wont do that”

I fisted my hands to calm myself down. Why he protects her so much? I just don’t want anyone hurts him again.

“I wont help her” I said sternly, making him widened his eyes,

“w—why?? Hyukkie we need to help her! She wasn’t the one who push the bookshelf!”

I inhaled some air, “she poured water on the class’ floor making you fell and nearly got your head hit the desk”

He was taken aback by my words, but he still persistent, “but— but it was in the past and now she—“

“she was trying to hurt you” I cut him,

“but hyukkie she’s changed a—“

“she ordered those guys to hurt you, locking you inside the storage room and pushed you”

“b—but…” he bit his lower lip, “I... I’ll still help her”

I clenched my fists, “no, you wont”

“yes I will… If—if you don’t want to come with me, then I’ll do it by myself”

“hae—“

“I can do whatever I want…” he said with a deep frown.

“she was trying to kill you dammit!” I shouted, my head and heart were boiling in anger. I couldn’t hold it any longer, why cant he understand?!

Hae was shocked at my sudden outburst, he clenched the end of his shirt with his already trembling hands, “w—why are you sh—shouting at me?! s—she wasn’t trying to kill me! she wont—she wont do that anymore!“ he shouted back at me, made me taken aback,

“how would you know she wont do that again? You never know how mean a person can be” I couldn’t compose my calmness anymore.

“I can—I can protect myself!“

“protect yourself you say? You would’ve died back there if I wasn’t there!” I shouted louder. I was too angry I couldn’t even think. “you should’ve known yourself she deserves this so she can reflect on her action! She was. tryin. to. freakin. kill you lee donghae!”

I knew hae was too shock he couldn’t even blinked his eyes, he froze completely with his watery eyes, but I couldn’t stop it.

He bit his lower lip and turned back facing me. I knew he was in the urge of crying since his body was trembling nonstop. My heart clenched, but what to do, I’m really upset and sad he couldn’t understand what I mean.

He mumbled with his trembling voice, “then… i—im going to talk to the p—principle by my—myself…“

He started to take a step. His each and every step made me furious, frustrated, and heartbroken.

“do you know how it feels?! How it feels like when you see the person you wanted to protect the most nearly got hit by a huge bookshelf?! When someone tried to hurt him but you couldn’t do anything but just protect him?! I would do anything to protect you dammit! Why cant you understand?!” I shouted desperately, making him stopped from his track. I don’t even care with people’s stares.

“I don’t care and I don’t mind if I didn’t get enough sleep! As long as youre safe, as long as you don’t get hurt, im okay! I know it’s my fault that they hurt you, that’s why I want to protect you! It’s all because of me… it’s all my fault, so I need to pay for this…”

I felt something wet on my right cheek. But I couldn’t be more careless.

“why cant you understand?!”

my head was spinning and I couldn’t think clearly. It hurts so much to see him walking away from me, and without me realized the vision in front of me started to get blurry and I felt hot water dripping on my cheeks.

“” I breathed out as I realized there was a single tear came from my eye, I covered my eyes with my hand and looked down, feeling ashamed that I actually shed a tear in front of him.

 

I wanted to say im sorry, and that he can do whatever he wants, but my lips wouldn’t let me do that, Im too afraid of the consequences.  I wiped my eyes and sighed, but then I heard hard sobs very near.

I lifted my head and welcomed by hae’s figure who was already standing right in front of me, crying so hard with his hands grabbed on my front shirt. His tears were falling so bad.

“im—im sorry…” that’s the only thing he said and my heart melted in a second.

 

I stared at his crying face and I could clearly feel his trembling hand on my shirt. I  smiled weakly and patted his head, before I brought his head to my chest and let him cry.

 His cry was so hard that he clenched my shirt very tightly. I kissed his head and brought him closer, securing him in my arms. I feel relieved… every time I hold him I feel calm… thank god he didn’t go…

“thank you for understanding me” I whispered and tightened the hug, and I could feel his fists tightened even more too.

 

And that’s when I realized we just made a drama scene in front of everyone.

I cursed silently.

“oh my god that was so sad” one of the girls muttered while wiping her tears,

“gosh i never knew hyukjae oppa already had a lover, but that scene was so touching oh my heart…”

“im heartbroken but happy at the same time looking at them together, it’s weird…”

 “…, im jealous” one of the guys curse.

And I could just glared at them for interrupting the good atmosphere.

 

 

A minute later, suddenly the principal room’s door opened, revealing our principal and some teachers. They walked through the crowd and we could see yoona followed between them.

Yoona’s eyes were all red, but she had a soft smile pestered on her face. She walked to my direction and stood in front of me and hae –who’s still crying.

“I heard you two from the room… are you two planning to make me jealous?” yoona said while chuckling softly,

donghae’s cry started to soften, but he still didn’t turn back to look at yoona who was talking. Yoona’s smile widened, ”just kidding, I was really touched. You couldn’t imagine how bad i cried back there hearing your words, donghae…”

donghae’s grips on my shirt tightened, but he still didn’t look at her. “your pure kindness is killing me slowly, donghae… I feel like I wanna kill myself for trying to hurt you…” she looked down and bowed to us, making us shocked, “I know my words wont be enough, but I truly am sorry…”

I could see tears were dripping to the floor, she was crying, “thank you so much for trying to help me… it really breaks my heart… but I feel really warm inside…”

She straightened her body again and wiped her tears, before smiling again, “but… I choose to quit. I want to move from this school and start a new life… I want to be a person like you”

Her words were so heartwarming. I smile when I felt donghae was trembling in my arms, I knew he was crying again, and I patted his head.

“don’t cry pabo” yoona chuckled with tears in her eyes. She wiped her tears again and smiled at me, “I need to go now. Lets meet again some day, if you want”

I could tell her smile was so sincere, so I smiled back at her and said, “take care. And see you soon”, which somehow made her let another tear,

And I could hear she muttered with a smile on her face, “and you still manage to make me fall for you…” before she went away with the teachers.

 

Our principal then walked to us and chuckled, “I never knew I have such great students with golden hearts. Why don’t you two just get married?” he joked,

I grinned widely, “we will send you a vip invitation”

He laughed and said, “I guess I’ll remember you two for the rest of my life”, before went away following the teachers.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

donghae’s eyes were puffy and his nose was red, and to make it even cuter was his hand which never leave my shirt.

He was sitting on the bed in the infirmary, while I sat on the chair in front of him, looking at how cute he was looking down while holding the end of my shirt.  

“you okay?” I asked softly, caressing his cheek, but then I got panicked when he suddenly let out another tear.

“hey hey why are you crying again??” I wiped them panicky,

he didn’t reply anything, but then he lifted his arms open. And really thought I would die right there when hae said, “h-- hug…”

 

 

…

 

 

 

SQUEAAAAALLLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAY TO GO TO KILL YOUR BOYFRIEND LEE DONGHAE

I quickly jumped on him and hugged him so tight before I really loose a grip of my soul.

AAAAAA I really cried inside. My sudden jump just now making him lose balance and made us dropped our bodies on the soft mattress.

“h—heavy…” hae mumbled cutely, but it only made me squished him even more.

 

 

 

Some minutes later, his sob already faded away. a soft smile never leave my face as I laid on the infirmary bed with my hand supported my head, looking at the figure beside me who’s now sleeping calmly. His nose was red and his lips parted cutely.

It must be tiring to cry a lot like that. I sighed softly. But im proud of him, it’s been a while since the last time he cried. Even when he knew someone tried to hurt him, he didn’t cry. It must’ve been really scary for him.

I guess this is a good sign of improvement.

 

But then my smile faded when I realized something.

Wait but…

I frowned, flashbacking every single moment when hae cries since the very first time until now.

…

WAIT. WHY EVERY SINGLE TIME HE CRIES ALWAYS INVOLEVING ME?????

 When he cried because of some girls locked him inside the dance club and I found him. He cried because of the girls didn’t like it when he’s with me, and he cried when he thought I was going to leave the school.

Oh speaking of those girls, it was yoona. I didn’t tell anything to hae since I want him to forget about it…

Anyway, and when we were on a date, he cried because we’re separated. It was basically because of I didn’t hold on to his hands tightly though.

When we were in jeju island, he was sick because we went to the club, and once again it was because of me, I didn’t try to listen of what hae wanted to say and just enjoyed myself dancing.

…

should I die overdose, or die with rope…?

I was thinking of which way should I kill myself, when suddenly i saw hae was looking at me with his red round big teary eyes.

I blinked my eyes in confusion and looked at my watch. Oh shoot! Did I just daydreaming for an hour??

 

“are you… mad at me?”

huh? I lifted my head in surprise hearing hae’s sudden words. He was looking at me sadly.

“what?? Of course not! Why would i??” I said panicky,

“it’s… it’s the first time you… shouted at me like that, so…” his head lowered with every words, and he whispered with a little pout, “…I really am sorry…”

oh shoot. Right.

I shouted at him. SHOOT no wonder he was crying REALLY bad.

Like… this is the longest cry he ever let out…

I looked at him sadly and sighed. Icupped his face with my both hands and caressed his cheeks, trying to erase the tears’ track on his face, “I’m sorry hae… I just love you too much, I don’t want to take even a slight consequence that might hurt you…”

Hae closed his eyes and put his hand over my hand which still stayed on his cheek, “I know… I’m really sorry…”

I smiled and leaned my face closer to his to give him a gentle kiss, it was just a short kiss and I pulled away. Hae blushed so innocently, but his next action wasn’t innocent at all that it shocked the hell out of me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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oh crap it was a hella long chap lol. BUT can you see our babyhae is starting to get stronger in heart ~(๑´⍢`๑)~

well i didnt cut this chapter because i want to make it up with you guys for waiting for so long... for leaving without a track for 6 freaking months TTT____TTT it's because i was moving out and i need time to get use with new environtment and friends and stuffs... /sobs i know you guys hate me, but i miss you guys i miss this story i miss aff i miss everything... i really truly extremely am sorry... ;_;

 

anyway... i hope next chapter will make you guys forgive me :3

SEE YOU, LOVES <3 hope you still remember and love this story <3