Donghae’s POV

 

 

 

Its already at night.

I pouted looking at nemo and dropped my body on my fluffy bed.

Uurrrgh hyukkie you dummy!!

 

After we were done with our lunch we talked with mom in the living room, making me couldn’t ask about what he meant by I wont go to school tomorrow. and when mom went out to go to her friend’s house, hyukkie kept yawning and his eyes were red, looking so tired.

 

 

 

- Flashback -

 

“hyukkie, what do you mean--“

*hyukkie yawned*

“…by I—“

*hyukkie rubbed his eyes cutely while pouting*

“…won’t go to—“

*hyukkie blinked his eyes trying to stay awake*

“...”

“eh? Im sorry what did you say hae?”

“…I said… you can sleep here on my laps…”

he then beamed happily and slept soundly on my laps in peaceful, and i need to supress my squeal until his mom called his phone.

 

- end of flashback -

 

 

 

uhhhhh… I couldn’t help it!! hyukkie was so cute when he was sleepy!! I feel like hugging him forever. Sobs.

But…

“stupid hyukkie!!” I threw my nemo plushie, pouting,

he wouldn’t answer me when I asked him about tomorrow when he was going to go home! He just said, “don’t go to school tomorrow, okay?”

I was whining and said I want to go, and that he hadn’t told me about the person who tried to hurt me. But he wouldn’t buy it.

He was pleading with his super delicate puppy eyes, begging me to not going to school and he would tell me everything tomorrow, so I ended up nodded my head while pouting.

 

I was about to whine to nemo again, when suddenly my phone rang.

 

Incoming call

Hyukkie

 

I gasped in excitement and quickly took my phone –who just thrown away to the other side of the bed, and cleared my throat nervously before pick up the phone,

 

“hae~” he called cutely,

uhm. No no, not cute.

“hm…” I just hummed, wanted him to know that im still a little bit upset,

I heard he chuckled through the phone, “don’t sulk hae~”

“im not” I said shortly, walking to take nemo plushy on the floor,

“hmm really?”

I sat on the bed again, “hm…”

“what are you doing now?” he asked,

“just finished showering…”

“oh really? But why I still smell something fishy from here?” he said,

I blinked my eyes and was about to smell my arm, when suddenly it hit me.

No no I wont fall into his trick for the second time!!

I pouted and didn’t say anything.

He chuckled, “guess my baby still mad at me”

Yes I am!!

Ufff…

“hey, say something hae”

I didn’t say anything and just stared at nemo plushie,

“ah… am I disturbing you?? Im sorry I didn’t ask first—“

“no!!” I cut him, nearly shouted.

Oh . I cleared my throat, “u—uhm, I meant, no youre not disturbing me…”

I heard hyukkie chuckled again, “im sorry… I promise I’ll come by your house after school tomorrow, and I’ll tell you everything…” he said softly,

Suddenly I felt bad…

He just wanted me to be saved…

I sighed and hugged nemo plushie as if it was hyukkie, “okay…” I mumbled,

He paused for a while, “do you want something? I can bring chocolate ice cream tomorrow if you want”

I shook my head unconsciously, “no… just… just come here as soon as school finished…” I buried my face on nemo plushie,

“…hae”

“hmm?”

“have I told you how adorable you are?”

I chuckled and blushed, “as long as I remember… today you’ve said it… uhm… seven times…?”

“oh, I did??”

I chuckled again, couldn’t stand his cheesiness, “hyukkie you idiot”

“but you love this idiot~”

I blushed, “n—no I don’t” I said, joking.

“what?”

“I said I don’t” I said without thinking, too busy with my blushing cheeks.

“…”

“…”

“…”

"hyuk…?”

“…”

uh-oh

“hyukkie i—I was just joking” I said panicky, putting nemo aside,

“ah… o—okay…”

“…”

awkward silence.

Oh no
“i—im sorry i was just joking….”

I heard him chuckled, somehow I felt like it was bitter, “it’s okay, it’s just… I don’t know why, my heart felt… hurt… a little…”

I got panicked, “hyuk-- hyukkie im sorry I didn’t mean it… i really was just joking…”

“I know” he chuckled,

and it went silence again,

“h—hyukkie…?”

“…”

“hyukkie…??”

“ah… yes hae?”

I felt stabbed in my heart hearing his cracked voice,

“I—Im sorry i didn’t--”

he chuckled again, “why do you keep saying sorry? Im sorry too I was thinking about something” he said as soft as he could, but I knew something was wrong,

… stupid donghae!

What did you just do?!

“its already late, you should sleep now, hae” he said, still with his soft gentle voice,

I don’t want to…

Hyukkie may still feel hurt…

But… he needs to sleep too… he must be really tired…

“sleep now okay?” he said sweetly,

“o—okay…”

“good night hae”

“good night hyukkie…”

“see you… I love you…”

and he hung up without waiting for my reply.

 

 

 

~~~

 

 

 

 

“hae baby where are you going?? I thought hyukjae said you wont go to school today?” mom asked panicky, looking at me who just finished eating cereal, already with my uniform,

“no mom, I already feel okay now, I can go to school” I smiled at her and put the bowl in the sink,

“no no honey, youre not going anywhere, I need to make sure youre okay” mom said while checking my temperature on my forehead and neck,

“mom im okay, I already told hyukkie I’ll go to school today” I lied,

she seemed confused,

I quickly took my bag and walked outside.

I inhaled deeply, and exhaled hard.

No way I’ll let hyukkie misunderstood with my words yesterday! I need to fix this.

And about the person who wanted to hurt me… im still afraid, my hands trembled just by the thought of it, but…

But hyukkie will protect me. And im a man. I need to face this.

I tightened my fist on my bag and made a fist with my other hand, making a fighting gesture.

“fighting donghae!!”

I skipped happily,

 

and I regretted being too excited that I slipped on the front door.

 

 

~

 

 

…

I never thought walking alone would be this difficult.

I already had bruises on my right knee, and elbow. Now I wont let anything happen again! Be a man, donghae! You’re strong! You’re—

“ouch!”

I bumped onto the school gate.

 

…

 

nemo why is it so hard??????????????????????????? I cried inside while palming my forehead.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

“what are you doing, donghae?”

I gasped when I heard someone’s voice from behind me. I turned my head nervously to the person,

“why are you walking like that?” leeteuk hyung smiled sweetly.

Ahhh its him! I sighed in relief. But then I blushed madly when I realized he just saw me walking like a retard just now.

He chuckled and walked to me, “why were you walking like a robot?”

“uh…” I scratched my nape in embarrassment, my face flushed red, “i—I’m afraid if I will fall again, so…”

he tilted his head in confusion,

“...so I took step by step carefully…” I continued, hiding my blushing face looking at the floor,

leeteuk hyuk brusted out laughing, “wait… that—that was what you called ‘carefully’??” he tried to say between his laugh, “gosh you’re so cute!”

I pouted deeply, feeling more embarrassed than ever. Is it that stupid…?

...It is tho…

“but I hurt my knee and elbow already… I don’t want to fall again…” I pouted more,

leeteuk hyung wiped his little tear from the corner of his eyes and let out a chuckle, “come on~ it wont be that bad! Walking is easy! Besides, there’s no obstacles here in the corridor, the floor is flat~”

I still pouted,

“let’s go!” leeteuk hyung walked beside me, “where were you going actually? Weren’t you should be at the class to prepare for the graduation pa—donghae!”

“ouch…” I rubbed my right ankle,

“oh my gosh what happened?? Did you trip over something?” leeteuk hyung squatted down and scanned the surrounding, but he found nothing.

...

“ah” leeteuk gasped, “don’t tell me you… really…”

I pouted, mumbling “walking is easy…”

Then leeteuk hyung laughed in amusement.

 

 

~

 

 

“sorry sorry sorry” leeteuk hyung giggled, “I didn’t know youre this clumsy”

I bent down my head, “im sorry…” I muttered,

Leeteuk hyung seemed panicked, “no no no, actually it’s cute” he chuckled, earned a weird look from me.

He’s accompanying me now to the library, and as we arrived in the front door, his phone suddenly rang. someone told him to go back to his class for a class meeting, since he still had something to do for the graduation.

he was worried at first to leave me alone, but i said "no im really okay! i'll be fine" repeatedly until he gave up,

"fine... but seriously, be caferful okay? i dont want to see hyukjae becomes a worried monster" he said worriedly,

i chuckled and nodded my head while thanked him with my happy grin, making him chuckled and poked my cheek before went away.

 

I took some deep air and exhaled it hardly, before pushed the library door.

“hyung~” someone chirped,

I gasped looking at the cute guy sitting alone in the corner of the empty library. I quickly walked – as careful as I could - to him.

“taemin!”

taemin grinned cutely while waving his hand. “I saw you coming!”

“eh?” I tilted my head while pulling a chair in front of him for me to sit. “did you saw me?”

he smiled, “from here” he lifted his card.

I widened my eyes looking at the two cards in taemin’s hands. It had some mysterious graphics but I could see a door on one of the card, and a ‘D’ letter on the other card.

I gaped my mouth opened.

“you—you really—you really can do magic?!?!?!” I asked panicky.

OH MY GOSH

Taemin laughed hearing my outburst, “it’s not magic hyung! It’s tarot! I really like playing with tarots~ even tho it’s not 100% right” he giggled,

I couldn't stop looking at him in awe.

“so what can I help you??” he asked, staring at me with his never-ending-smile.

“ah!” I clapped my hand, how could I forget?? I sat on the seat in front of him, “could you do me a favor..?”

“sure~”

“well…” I cleared my throat, “ye—yesterday there was an accident and—“

“someone tried to hurt you by pushing a bookshelf behind you” he completed my sentence, making me gasped in shock.

“y—you—“ I stared at him in horror, did he use his magic again or something?!?!

taemin chuckled, “hyung, that accident already spread around school. Teachers were so angry”

I widened my eyes, “what…”

“yesterday was a chaos you know, I heard it from my friends who were in our class at that time, they said the sound was really loud, and hyukjae hyung was trying so hard to make the chaos cut down”

what…

“I heard hyukjae hyung already caught the two guys who pushed the bookshelf and reported to the teachers yesterday, so maybe the guys will be dropped out”

my mouth gaped open. Couldn’t even utter a single word.

“but these two guys said they were just did what they ordered from someone” taemin continued.

“so—someone??” my head went dizzy at the sudden informations.

“yea… but we don’t know yet who is this someone. But from what I get, I guess these two people really like this someone, or more like obsessed. Because they said they didn’t get paid or anything”

I held my head and stared at the desk, hands a little shaky.

I really couldn’t think.

I really had no idea who this person might be.

“hyung…” taemin called softly, making me lifted my head slowly due to the dizziness. “don’t worry, everything will be fine”

he smiled a little and took out one of his cards, “remember when I showed you this card?”

“ah!” I gasped looking at the familiar card,

“remember what I said?” he smiled tenderly, “something will happen, but—“

“…happiness will always surround us” I completed.

I let a chuckle and wiped my unnoticeable tears on my eyes. “thank you taemin…”

Taemin smiled cutely at me, but then suddenly I remembered what I came here for and unconsciously slammed the desk and stood up, made him jumped in shock.

“taemin!! I forgot!! I came here to ask you who this person might be!” I said panicky, “I searched for you since yesterday, that’s why I came here!”

taemin seemed shocked. He looked at my excited yet panic eyes, but then he smiled sadly,

“im sorry hyung… but… I cant do that kind of things…”

“eh…?”

“im not a mind reader or some kind of amazing guys like that… I only played with my tarots which are barely 50% true. It just some luck that I get when I really did guess correctly. But—“

“but you did guess correctly lots of time!” I cut him, looking at him in sadness.

“hyung, I mean… I can’t accuse people doing something bad when im not 100% or even 50% sure, can i…?” he smiled weakly,

he's… right…

I dropped my head low, feeling all weak so suddenly.

“im sorry taemin…” I whispered,

taemin smiled and took out his cards, “but hyung”, he did something with his cards, making me widened my eyes at how fast he was, “sometimes when im lucky, I can do this kind of thing with 70% accuracy”

“huh??” I was still amazed at how he moved the cards, which then left only one card on the desk.

“like… this someone is coming over here right now” taemin showed his card.

 

 

I gasped in shock when suddenly someone slammed the door opened.

I widened my eyes and froze looking who it was.

No…

way…

 

“je—Jessica…?”

Jessica was panting heavily in the library’s door. Looking exhausted while looking at me,

I turned my head to look at taemin, but he was just frowning looking at her.

Jessica slowly walked to me while tried to catch her breath, “lee dongh--“

 

 

Jessica’s word got cut with another sudden bang from the door, made me jumped a little.

Uh… why people like to slam the door?? i couldn never get used to it...

I pouted a little, but then it got vanished when I saw yoona stood in front of the door.

i widened my eyes and quickly looked at taemin, only to see his confused state just like mine.

“lee donghae…” yoona called me with her soft voice, I could clearly see worriedness on her face,

I scooted closer to taemin in fear, “t—taemin… which—which one…?” I stuttered while still looking at the two girls in horror,

“i—I don’t know hyung…” taemin stuttered back.

 

“dongh—“ yoona was about to call me, but then suddenly the door flung open again,

and my heart stopped immediately at the perfect figure who was widened his eyes looking at me,

hy-- hyukkie??

And there were sungmin, yunho, luna and seohyun also...

I was about to beam in happiness, but hyukkie’s voice shut me even before I said anything,

“hae…? What are you doing here?” hyukkie frowned and walked to me, he looked worried and stern at the same time making me suddenly scared, “didn’t I tell you not to go to school?”

I took a step back with my shaky legs and hid behind taemin, “i… I'm sorry…”,

“what are you guys doing here?” sungmin asked Jessica and yoona who were shocked seeing them suddenly came,

“i—I heard leeteuk oppa said something to kangin about donghae in the library, so i… I wanted to check if he’s okay…” yoona said, her eyes were a bit watery and I don’t know why but I could clearly saw worriedness in her, making me felt warm yet confused,

“and you?” hyukkie asked Jessica coldly, made me worried,

“I saw him walking to the school building from class” Jessica said while looking at me, “so I just wanted to make sure…”

“make sure of what” hyukkie asked, voice was colder than ever,

Jessica seemed kinda scared, “if… if he’s okay…”

“are you for real?” hyukkie walked to her, his gaze looked so stern making me panicked, “kyuhyun is checking who the culprit is, he’s going to make those two bastards speak of who’s this ”

Jessica widened her eyes, “wait, what?! It’s not me!”

Hyukkie lifted his brows, “panic?”

“no!” Jessica shouted, “that’s because youre accusing me!”

I don’t know why but I felt hurt looking at her, somehow I could see pain in her eyes.

Hyukkie was about to say something again but I cut him immediately,

“she wouldn't do that”

everyone turned their eyes on me,

I felt nervous of those eyes, but... “Jessica… wont do that kind of thing…” I fisted my shaky hands,

“hae?”

“im sure of it!” I said while trying to look stern at hyukkie, and I could see jessica’s eyes got watery,

 

but yoona’s tears fell even before jessica’s, made me shocked at the sudden outburst she made,

“im sorry!” she cried, “it's not her fault! its-- its mine but i--im really sorry I-- i swear I didn’t mean it!”

I widened my eyes looking at her cry, her legs were shaky that she slowly bended on her knees, crying so bad making me worried. everyone was confused, but i walked to her by instinct because I really couldn’t stand seeing someone cry…

“y—yoona… wha-- what’s wrong?” I asked worriedly, patting her shoulder with my trembling hand, but it only made her cry even more,

and I nearly got a heart attack when suddenly she hugged me. So. Tight.

“im sorry, lee donghae im sorry…” she cried on my shoulder, making me panicked and beyond confused.

“wait, what?! Hey!” hyukkie was about to shout something,

but then someone opened the door.

 

“kyu!” sungmin was surprised when he saw his boyfriend with jaejoong and some teachers behind him,

wait, why are the teachers also here??

kyuhyun smiled at sungmin and turned to look at me only to get shocked seeing me being hugged by yoona,

 

“Im Yoona” principal called so calmly it made him looked beyond scary, “come to my office”

I widened my eyes,

What??

Yoona slowly pulled away from me, her eyes were really red and tears still flowing,

“I hated you… so much…” she said softly between her hard sobs, hands gripped on my sleeves,

I blinked my eyes in shock. Hyukkie was about to do something but got stopped by taemin,

“you stole hyukjae from me…”

stabbed.

“but what made me upset the most is the fact that you still get lots of love… not only from hyukjae, but everyone…”

I was lost of words, my heart felt numb.

I could sense hyukkie’s anger from behind me.

“everyone loves you… and it made me sick… so I just wanted to bug you a little…” yoona chuckled bitterly, her tears still flowing and her sobs were still hard,

“at first I only wanted to do it just for fun, but… seeing at how hyukjae protected you so much… it made me… angry” she wiped her tears, trying to stop her sobs,

“i—I know it was childish, but… I couldn’t help it… I love—I love him so much… it hurts” her tears started to flow again,

my heart really hurts.

It’s painful…

I could feel my eyes started to heat, but i held back.

Everyone went silent, they listened carefully.

“so i… without me knowing, my actions started to become too far… I asked my two friends to do those things for me, but…” she lowered her head,

“looking at hyukjae who was really busy protecting you until he couldn’t get enough sleep… it… it made me even beyond angry to see you’re so oblivious about everything” her grip on my sleeves tightened,

I swallowed while trying really hard to hold back my tears. Which failed miserably since it already flew some seconds ago,

“you—“ hyukkie was really angry, taemin and yunho needed to hold him to prevent him doing something to yoona.

 

Yoona tried to continue, “with—without me realized, i… I already said to my friends to h-- hurt you…” she cried more and lifted her head to look at me, “but I swear! I swear to god I never had a plan to kill you! Those—those guys were so angry at me because i—I didn’t give them what they wanted”

“what…?“ I blinked my watery eyes,

“they—they wanted me to s—sleep with them as a trade which of course I refused! I didn’t even know if they like me and we didn’t even have an agreement like that! They said from the beginning they didn’t want anything” she sobbed loudly, “so I said I-- I’ll give them money instead, but they didn’t want it and t—they got angry“

I gaped my mouth opened hearing what she said.

Oh my god…

My tears flew even more and I started to rub her shoulder to calm her down.

“and—and the next thing I knew, was the news of you nearly got hit by a huge bookshelf” she cried even more and hugged me tightly.

“I was so scared… I was really, really scared… if something happened to you, i—I don’t know what will I do… thank god… thank god hyukjae saved you and youre okay… it’s all my fault… im really really sorry…” she sobbed hard on my shoulder,

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply.

 

I know she’s at fault. Her actions were too much and it could harm me, and she made hyukkie in so much trouble, but… she didn’t mean to hurt me like that… Yesterday’s incident wasn’t exactly her fault.

Oh god…

My heart really hurts a lot…

She’s just a girl who falls in love...

just like me...

Even though what she did wasn’t right, but I clearly know how jealousy feels like…

 and not to mention, we love the same person and it made my heart hurts even more.

 

she was still crying loudly on my shoulder, muttering "im really sorry" over and over again.

 

I wiped my tears and smiled softly. I patted her back,

“...you’re forgiven…”

and my words only made her cry got harder.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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“let’s see what punishment you’ll get, I hope it wont be that bad” the principal said before brought yoona outside.

 

Even if she was still crying, but I could see her weak yet soft smile she gave before she whispered “thank you so much” to me.

 

 

 

 

 

because i know... how painful to love this Lee Hyukjae is...