With Yourself
GAME
Eun Mi stays in her room while watching EXO’s showcase in China, videos given by Mr. Park. Mr. Park offer to pay for the plane ticket for Sparkle and Moon Gyu to China but Eun Mi kindly refused the offer as she knows the members shouldn’t be getting any distraction from their practice. It’s already midnight and Eun Mi needs to sleep early for her morning class tomorrow. She lay in bed and involuntarily tears starts to fall again. She is happy for EXO, but sometimes she would be reminded to her brother in the army who could have stand on the same stage with EXO, she misses him and she miss seeing him on stage.
Wiping off the tears from her eyes, she smiles as she remembers the first time she enters the company. She was 13 years old at that time, and she still can’t believe that it had been almost eight years since she enters the company. Jun Myeon enters the company a year later, accompanying her through her journey as a trainee in the company. They had been friends even before Eun Mi enters the company, explaining the close relationship between them. Kyu Wan always sees them as twins because of their closeness, and he sees Jun Myeon as his own brother. Both Jun Myeon and Eun Mi had watch people come and go, enter and leaving the company, distancing themselves from being close with anyone, scared that they will leave them but there are people who they easily becomes close with just by looking at their passion. Jun Myeon was quite a scarier senior compared to Eun Mi but he’s not always there compared to Eun Mi. Even though both of them love studying but Jun Myeon is involved with school activities more than Eun Mi. Eun Mi likes to talk based on fact, so does Jun Myeon but Eun Mi have this talent in manipulating her words so that people would lose when they talk to her and believe her though she twisted things around, and that is also why she is considered as a good actress compared to Jun Myeon.
Shifting her body to force herself to sleep, she is reminded to the friendship between Jong In, Sehun, Moon Gyu and Jongyun. The first to enter the company between the four of them was Moon Gyu, followed by Jong In, they were really famous because they were young, cute and talented. They get close to Kyu Wan almost instantly, thus making them close to Eun Mi and Jun Myeon as well. The first to gain the public attention was actually Moon Gyu when he appeared in CSJH MV as the younger Kim Ki Bum. A few months after that Jongyun enter the company and the last one to enter was Sehun. They get close right away because of their age. Jongyun had never been a shy girl, that’s why they like having her around, because she was a lot like them, noisy and chaotic. They fight every single day, never call each other cute, pretty, handsome or cool, but when anyone messes with one of them, the others will chase the person who messes with them until they find them. The boys are particularly very protective over Jongyun, but never show it in front of her, they’ll do anything for her if she ask them to. Jongyun protect the boys too, in her own way. She would be the first one to cry when she hear they got hurt, the first one to cry when she hears about them getting into trouble and the first one to cry when she sees them sad. They denied the ‘love’ they have for each other but they know that their denial means nothing.
Between EXO and Sparkle, their relationships are divided according to their group. They didn’t really plan for it to happen, it just naturally happen that way. That’s why Ye Heung is also considered in a group of friend together with Eun Mi and Jun Myeon. They themselves form their own 91’line in the company. Hyori, Hyuna and Chan Yeol are in the 92’line as they are the only 92’line in the company when they enter, and the rest of EXO members join in with them afterwards. Chan Yeol doesn’t really like being the only guy in the group because people for following Hyuna and Hyori around. Hyuna and Hyori are like twins, no one can separate them. The two even have nicknames for each other, Hyori calls Hyuna ‘marshmallow’ while Hyuna calls Hyori ‘chocopie’, and they even make a new nickname for Chan Yeol as he demanded one, and Hyori give him ‘dark chocolate’ as a nickname. He was happy with it until he finally tasted one, it was bitter and he feel as if he loses his sense of taste right then. They own the ‘chocoball’ name before Heechul uses it for his group name. They call themselves chocoball because they are a group of friend and their nicknames are all related to chocolates. After EXO members enter the company and join them, they just use 92’line as their name as they can’t come up with new names that are related to chocolate for the other members.
Eun Mi closes her eyes once again after finish reminding herself of the three closes group in their company. She misses practicing with them, she miss seeing them, and joking around with them. She’s happy for their debut but she just misses them. She’s too used to the idea of having Jun Myeon, Kyu Wan and Ye Heung with her that when they’re not, it feels like she loses one reason for her to smile. She wonders if Hyori and Hyuna feel the same about Chan Yeol or is it just her being emotional about everything again?
All of them are rivals to each other, but with the mind-set that the only rival they have are with themselves, they didn’t feel tense being around each other, they don’t feel they need to beat each other to debut. That mind-set was planted by Kyu Wan on them. He said that if they keep on fighting with each other just to win over the other person; they ended up not enjoying themselves during the whole training process, that’s why they need to compete with themselves to win, and not to compete with others. She closes her eyes once again, to fall asleep, wishing that tomorrow when she wakes up, she still have the burning desire to beat herself once again, to challenge herself once again.
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