With Yourself

GAME

 

Eun Mi stays in her room while watching EXO’s showcase in China, videos given by Mr. Park. Mr. Park offer to pay for the plane ticket for Sparkle and Moon Gyu to China but Eun Mi kindly refused the offer as she knows the members shouldn’t be getting any distraction from their practice. It’s already midnight and Eun Mi needs to sleep early for her morning class tomorrow. She lay in bed and involuntarily tears starts to fall again. She is happy for EXO, but sometimes she would be reminded to her brother in the army who could have stand on the same stage with EXO, she misses him and she miss seeing him on stage.

 

Wiping off the tears from her eyes, she smiles as she remembers the first time she enters the company. She was 13 years old at that time, and she still can’t believe that it had been almost eight years since she enters the company. Jun Myeon enters the company a year later, accompanying her through her journey as a trainee in the company. They had been friends even before Eun Mi enters the company, explaining the close relationship between them. Kyu Wan always sees them as twins because of their closeness, and he sees Jun Myeon as his own brother. Both Jun Myeon and Eun Mi had watch people come and go, enter and leaving the company, distancing themselves from being close with anyone, scared that they will leave them but there are people who they easily becomes close with just by looking at their passion. Jun Myeon was quite a scarier senior compared to Eun Mi but he’s not always there compared to Eun Mi. Even though both of them love studying but Jun Myeon is involved with school activities more than Eun Mi. Eun Mi likes to talk based on fact, so does Jun Myeon but Eun Mi have this talent in manipulating her words so that people would lose when they talk to her and believe her though she twisted things around, and that is also why she is considered as a good actress compared to Jun Myeon.

 

Shifting her body to force herself to sleep, she is reminded to the friendship between Jong In, Sehun, Moon Gyu and Jongyun. The first to enter the company between the four of them was Moon Gyu, followed by Jong In, they were really famous because they were young, cute and talented. They get close to Kyu Wan almost instantly, thus making them close to Eun Mi and Jun Myeon as well. The first to gain the public attention was actually Moon Gyu when he appeared in CSJH MV as the younger Kim Ki Bum. A few months after that Jongyun enter the company and the last one to enter was Sehun. They get close right away because of their age. Jongyun had never been a shy girl, that’s why they like having her around, because she was a lot like them, noisy and chaotic. They fight every single day, never call each other cute, pretty, handsome or cool, but when anyone messes with one of them, the others will chase the person who messes with them until they find them. The boys are particularly very protective over Jongyun, but never show it in front of her, they’ll do anything for her if she ask them to. Jongyun protect the boys too, in her own way. She would be the first one to cry when she hear they got hurt, the first one to cry when she hears about them getting into trouble and the first one to cry when she sees them sad. They denied the ‘love’ they have for each other but they know that their denial means nothing.

 

Between EXO and Sparkle, their relationships are divided according to their group. They didn’t really plan for it to happen, it just naturally happen that way. That’s why Ye Heung is also considered in a group of friend together with Eun Mi and Jun Myeon. They themselves form their own 91’line in the company. Hyori, Hyuna and Chan Yeol are in the 92’line as they are the only 92’line in the company when they enter, and the rest of EXO members join in with them afterwards. Chan Yeol doesn’t really like being the only guy in the group because people for following Hyuna and Hyori around. Hyuna and Hyori are like twins, no one can separate them. The two even have nicknames for each other, Hyori calls Hyuna ‘marshmallow’ while Hyuna calls Hyori ‘chocopie’, and they even make a new nickname for Chan Yeol as he demanded one, and Hyori give him ‘dark chocolate’ as a nickname. He was happy with it until he finally tasted one, it was bitter and he feel as if he loses his sense of taste right then. They own the ‘chocoball’ name before Heechul uses it for his group name. They call themselves chocoball because they are a group of friend and their nicknames are all related to chocolates. After EXO members enter the company and join them, they just use 92’line as their name as they can’t come up with new names that are related to chocolate for the other members.

 

 Eun Mi closes her eyes once again after finish reminding herself of the three closes group in their company. She misses practicing with them, she miss seeing them, and joking around with them. She’s happy for their debut but she just misses them. She’s too used to the idea of having Jun Myeon, Kyu Wan and Ye Heung with her that when they’re not, it feels like she loses one reason for her to smile. She wonders if Hyori and Hyuna feel the same about Chan Yeol or is it just her being emotional about everything again?

 

All of them are rivals to each other, but with the mind-set that the only rival they have are with themselves, they didn’t feel tense being around each other, they don’t feel they need to beat each other to debut. That mind-set was planted by Kyu Wan on them. He said that if they keep on fighting with each other just to win over the other person; they ended up not enjoying themselves during the whole training process, that’s why they need to compete with themselves to win, and not to compete with others. She closes her eyes once again, to fall asleep, wishing that tomorrow when she wakes up, she still have the burning desire to beat herself once again, to challenge herself once again. 

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shahaya202 #1
Chapter 65: I don't know but ur story seems so real..
i don't know where those ideas came from but i was just simply amazed by your writing skills...
i really simple SIMPLY AMAZING & AMUSING!
anon_02
#2
This fanfic is so nice.
You are a great author for creating such a fanfic.
It let me feel what the character feel and imagine things.
Actually while reading those times that they recall their hardships, I always tears up. I don't know why. It just makes me feel that I'm one of them, that I've been with them since the start, and I've been with them crying together.
I'm jealous of the friendship they have but I don't like to be like them. Being an idol is very hard. You can't be with the most important people to you everytime.
I just want to be like this with my friends all the time. I wanna be with them always. I wanna feel this friendship they have with them everyday.
I'm a bit sad for this amazing, heartwarming fanfic has come to an end. Though I still wanna read it like forever, i know how hard it is to be an amazing author like you.
Good job author for creating a great job.
freak7sma
#3
OKAY IT'S LEE JONGYUN'S TURN TO COMMENT NOW.
First of all, HMSTA's happy pills finished already ;__; it ended, legitly ended.
Idk why you found the last chapter is a happy ending OTL I cried so much you wasted my tears i hate you ;__;
But at least we get to know that HyunTao and JongHan were happy till the end, the rest also (though less and less interactions with K hehe)
Hyori finally opened up to Chanyeol.
Kyungsoo finally realized that Baekhyun likes Minyoong as well and began to feel considerate towards him.
The changes in each couple - they changed to a better side :')
No not Eunfan idc but wuuu just like Mir said, I'm making a virtual ending, which Eunfan got married and the other SPARKLE members came with their own partner, getting surprised to see Eunmi marrying Kris as all of them knew they broke up before.

I'M A GENIUS OMG LMAO LOL NO K I'M NOT A GOOD WRITER EXCUSE MOI-

But yela yela I know the main theme of this fanfic is D R E A M. Each one of us finally get to reach for our dreams, after going through moments of hard times.

How to construct sentences now Idk... 63 chapters - that's long but why it feels so short to me? To think back, it's been about... 3 months had passed since the first chapter was published?
We spent so much time together, though we 'meet' on a virtual world, we srsly look so close to one another. My irl friends are jealous to see how close I am to each one of you.

HMSTA SISTERS HWAITING
I LOVE YOU :)
And keep running forward to reach for your dream; don't ever give up. No matter how hard it is, no matter how hard you cry, face it. Because success didn't come to you in an easy way :)

OTL what am I babbling about kbye ;____;
FlorrieJ #4
This fanfic has ended...Alright~~~
Why did it ended this way?!I'm crying so it's not a happy ending...lol /gotstabbed/
Dear Kungfu Panda Tao...I can be cute too you know...I can do aegyo...Don't think you're the only one that can do such actions...LOL /pretendstobemad/
and Dear~~~I LOVE YOU~<3<3<3<3<3 I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH~~~
Cheese is still the same so cheesy...I can't understands this gigantic cheese...Hahahaha
Jongdae chingu is getting real cute like seriously...Haha Jongdae ah~~~you're epic in this fanfic with all your lines xD lmao

We, HMSTA sisters, demands for a sequel...Hahahaha
It'll be even better if the sequel is in 5 shots...Each chapter for one couple...
Man...I'm brilliant...Genius here...LOL /shameless/
Thank you writer-nim for the constant love...I LOVE YOU TOO~~~HEHEHE
parkminyoong
#5
chapter 63.

confession. i kenot. i'm sorry i keep laughing while reading through. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
marry_kim
#6
bucket, where are you?? //cries// T_______________T
parkminyoong
#7
dear shiema unnie,
i'll read this right after i finished my work ^^.
will post more comment later ^^

//gotstabbed//
freak7sma
#8
WAIT FOR ME TO STOP CRYING AND I WILL FINALLY COMMENT ON EVERY CHAPTER I MISSED.
parkminyoong
#9
tho jongdae's part is just lil , but he's sure the cutest thing ㅋㅋ


cant get over the light dance XDD

p/s: its really going to end? ㅠㅠ
freak7sma
#10
refused to comment this till the final chapter is out ;__; let me cry legit tears for now because i'm losing my happy pills ;___;