Every eyes are on her when she keeps on circling at the same spot. The practice room was meant to be used separately between boys and girls but because she has the most authority among them, they just watch her as she walks around their practice room. Debut, the word that bothers her the most. They are scared of her, because despite being the nice person they always know of, there are times when she explodes hearing the word, debut.

The door opens, the older male version of her enters and went straight to her, hugging her tightly as she finally break down, sitting on the practice room floor, crying. This always happens whenever there are new news or rumors of new trainee debuting. Her best friend who had been with her since four years ago just have his head down, feeling guilty towards her.

The door opens again and more female trainee enters, hugging her tightly, despite not being able to understand exactly how she feels, they just want to be there for her. If it wasn’t for the restraint of the company, her best friend really wants to hug her tightly just like how he use to do so when they weren’t trainee from the same company.

“I’m sorry! I thought my brother was here, I should leave now. I’m sorry!” She leaves the room, half-disappointed that the person she came to meet, her brother and her best friend couldn’t even calm her down. It hurts to know that despite being best friend, they can’t even be best friend or they will be restricted to even meet each other. She wants him to hug her as he always do, but by doing that, one of them have to leave and she don’t want that to happen. The boys who were training in that room just stand in their place, shock with what just happen.

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It had been exactly a week since she walk in the male practice room. She can hardly see her own brother, and that was the rare time she gets to meet him. What do they get by keeping both of them in for so long? It is her dream, to sings her own songs, that’s why she hold on to it, but sometimes she can’t help but to feel mad or be mad at people who get the chance to debut before her when she had been longer in the company than they are.

“Eun Mi unnie, where are we going to eat today?” Eun Mi looks to her left and smile towards the second oldest in her group, Jung Hyuna. They usually eat at the cafeteria but if they have extra time, they just went out to eat.

“Let’s just eat at the cafeteria. I want to meet the boys to apologize to them. It must have been awkward for them after that day. Junmyeon keep on apologizing to me,” Eun Mi said to Hyuna, while the other girls nod their head, some of them feeling excited because they’ll be able to meet their other friends as well. Eun Mi pack her stuff and change her clothes to a cleaner one. Eun Mi look around the small practice room that she had previously ask to practice with the three other trainee, Jung Hyuna, Lee Jongyun, and Lee Hyori. They are told that another new trainee might be in the new line up for them, and she is a trainee from another company.

Eun Mi walk into the cafeteria together with Hyuna, Jongyun and Hyori. Some of the trainees stand up to bow at her, she bows back and give them her eye-smile. She walk towards the long table that are full with male trainee while Hyuna, Jongyun and Hyori find an empty table for them. Eun Mi walks behind Junmyeon and slap his back hardly that he cries in pain, letting go of the chopstick in his hand while her other hand pat on Jong In’s head. Jong In is really close with Eun Mi, she pampered him a lot, more than Sehun because her brother likes pampering Sehun.

“Wow because you feel guilty towards me, you didn’t even scold me for hitting you that hard! Usually you will hit me back! How are you Junmyeon? And how are you, Jong In?” Jong In just smile towards her, giving back the same eye-smile towards her, while Junmyeon just stand up and stare her intensely. When she smile to him, he just ended up laughing.

“Don’t hit me that hard! It really hurts! Hyung!!” Junmyeon complains to Kyuwan who doesn’t even care about her sister hitting people.

“If it’s some other people, I would scold her, but it’s you Junmyeon, you guys grew up together by hitting each other, how can I say no?” Kyuwan said to Junmyeon.

“Anyway, I want to apologize to all of you for making you guys feel guilty the other days. I was just a bit shock at that time, so I’m sorry. You don’t have to feel guilty towards me, it’s not your fault. So, I’m going to eat with the girls! Bye!” Eun Mi said to the 13 boys and whispers a sorry to Junmyeon and walk happily to her table. The boys attention shifted to Kyuwan, to know if she’s really ok or she just pretends to be ok. He just lift his left hand to give a sign that she’s really ok.

SM Entertainment, the famous company that had legendary idols debuted from their company, starting with H.O.T, Shinhwa, S.E.S, DBSK, CSJH The Grace, Super Junior, Girls’ Generation and SHINee. Some of their trainees are really popular for being well-trained and talented, some didn’t even get the chance to debut, some debuted and become really successful, like Girls’ Generation. They train for a very long time, and were very famous before they debut as well.

It had been a week since Lee Soo Man announces his plan on debuting a new male group, the reason why Eun Mi was so sad the other day, because even after seven years of training, she hasn’t been able to debut yet. She was once a candidate for Girls’ Generation but she was injured and had to rest for two whole months. The only thing she did while resting was writing, as writing is the only thing she does besides her training. She was happy to have her rest, she was also glad she won’t be debuting at that time because she wasn’t ready yet at that time. She was again a candidate for f(x) but for some weird reason, instead of debuting as a 6 girl group, the company decide to debut f(x) as a 5 member girl group and she was kicked out of the group. Right now, Han Eun Mi and Han Kyu Wan are the longest trainee in the company, the company never have plan on letting them leave, thus being among the few trainee with contracts. Some other trainee have contract as well, and the trainees with contracts are usually trainees that are really talented that SM Entertainment will feel wasted if they ever go to other company.