I put my back against the wall and just stared at the other wall. I turned quickly as I saw movement and it was hard not to notice four heads pop back inside the door they had been peeking out of. Oh. Great. Not only had I just ed the almighty leader out, but the rest of the guys had seen it. I put my head in my hands and just tried to take a few deep breaths. I heard footsteps, multiple sets, coming from the practice room, but couldn't bring myself to remove my hands. I heard some stop in front of me, but the rest kept moving.  I felt a hand on my shoulder and a voice that I would recognize anywhere. "Nikky-noona?"

No no no no no. There was no way Daesung had just heard me cursing at his hyung. That did not just happen, right? I guess I was shaking my head without realizing it, because the next thing I knew I felt a hand on the top of my head, stopping the motion. I heard a low, also very recognizable, voice say something in Korean before the hand left my shoulder. Footsteps moved away from me, back the way they came, and were followed by the sound of a door closing. Well, at least I only had one person to deal with now.

"Nikky-ya, it is okay," the voice said quietly, but I didn't really register what it was saying. At that moment I was going over the conversation in my head again and again. I kept hearing myself calling him those horrible things. I knew I had a reason to be that angry, but I no longer had that anger inside of me. Now, the only feelings I had were shame and regret. I felt that horrible pressure in my chest that told me I was going to start crying, and I bit my lip to try and stop it. I managed to keep my breathing calm, but my mind was in turmoil. Suddenly, the hand that had been on my head was gone. My hands were pulled away from my face and a finger was put under my chin, lifting it up until I was forced to look and meet the eyes of the man in front of me.

"Nikky," T.O.P. said with a tiny bit of force in his voice. I admit, that right there was enough to snap me out of my thoughts. Not only the tone in which he said my name, but also the fact that he only said my name, no honorifics at all. I took a deep breath as I tried to keep myself calm, but I knew that my face was betraying me. "Do not worry," he looked at me and concern lined his face. I wanted to look away, but his finger was still holding my chin in place. "He did not mean it." I knew what he meant, but honestly that just made me think of the conversation again, and it brought tears to my eyes. I blinked rapidly and tried to look away, but he wouldn't let me. Instead, he reached up with his free hand and used his thumb to wipe away the tear that had started streaming down my cheek. That one gesture alone almost broke me. I looked up at him, to say what, I don't know, but he moved away as we heard a door open.

I quickly turned my back on the door as I reached up and wiped my face. "Nikky-ssi?" I heard one of the managers say my name.

I sniffled once before turning, making sure to put a smile on my face first. "Yes?"

"Ah..." The manager seemed to think a moment before he pointed at Top and spoke in Korean. It took a moment of conversation before I was able to hear the translation.

"Could you get ankle... ankle wrap?" I could tell that he was having a hard time translating the phrase, but I thought I had an idea.

"A soft brace? So she can still dance?"

"Yes."

I nodded both at him and the manager and smiled. "Sure, I can go get one right now. There is a corner store right near here." The manager smiled at me and went back into the practice room. "I'll be back soon," I said as I turned to go back into the practice room and grab my purse.

"Wait," I heard the deep voice say behind me.

I just took a deep breath and turned out as I walked. "I'm fine now, Top-ssi, I promise." I could tell by the look on his face that he didn't believe me, so I gave him a smile. "Sorry. For, well," I waved my hand a little, unable to find the words, "you know." Before he could say anything else, I reached the practice room door. While grabbing my purse and hurrying out, pretending not to notice the way certain eyes followed me, I realized that going to get this brace would give me the time I needed to think. I had an enormous apology to give, and I knew it would take some time and practice before I could give it without being emotional.

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Luckily, the trip to and from the store turned out to be the perfect amount of time I needed to sort out my thoughts. You see, I have a temper, it's true, but keeping it in check is usually pretty easy. There is only one thing that makes me lose it completely, and that is seeing someone being mean to someone I care about. I had been really upset with GD for being so mean to the girl that fell, but then he was mean to Seungri as well. And even now I know that someone had needed to tell him to stop. More than likely it should have been Taeyang or Top, someone he would listen to, but I just couldn't help myself at the time. As soon as that anger was gone though, my guilt had started up. See, that is another one of my faults besides my temper. I feel guilty very, very easily. Guilt tripping me? One of the easiest things in the world. In fact, most people don't even have to try guilt tripping me, I guilt trip myself. So Nikky minus anger equaled guilt. Hence the crying.

Speaking of crying. Ugh, I could not believe that I had almost started crying in front of Top. So not only will he think that I'm rude, but that I am also emotional (somewhat true) and a crybaby (not true). That was just going to make everything that much more exciting. While I was pretty sure acting like nothing happened would work with Top, or at least I hoped it would work, I needed to form a plan for talking with GD. I knew it would need to involve groveling and a lot of apologies, but I was certain I could come up with something. Maybe.

And by the time I got back, I had. Come up with a plan, that is. Completely calm, plan in mind, I had about 30 minutes to spare till lunch, the perfect time to talk to GD. But instead of braving the practice room? I decided to read my book and hang out with the managers. Yeah, I was still a little terrified of talking to the leader so soon. I wanted to give him a little bit more time before he saw me because that man? A little scary when he is angry.

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I was in the middle of a pretty intense part of Harry Potter- yes I was reading Harry Potter do not judge me- when lunch was announced. And by lunch was announced I mean none other than leader extraordinaire, aka GD, walked in.

"Lunch time," he said. I glanced up to see him smiling at the managers before his eyes fell on me and his face became neutral. Well . The managers filed out and I took a deep breath, steeling myself and trying to stay calm. I knew what I had to do and say, and when GD didn't follow the managers out, I figured now was my chance and he was probably waiting, expecting me to apologize.  I put my book away, keeping my eyes away from the other person in the room until I went to go stand up, at which point I found a hand in my face. I followed the hand upwards to see that GD was standing in front of me, not looking at me, with his hand held out. I took it, but as soon as I was up I moved away and bowed.

"I'm sorry." I paused and looked up from my bow to see GD bowing at me. I hadn't even had a chance to say anything. His voice had sounded out first, saying sorry. So now? Now I was confused. I was the one who had cursed and yelled at him. I was the one who was only here because the boys had somehow figured out a way to give me a chance. I should be the one apologizing to him, not the other way around!

"No, no, I'm sorry, GD," I quickly said, only to have him stand up straight and hold his hand out to me. He started shaking his head, his face serious.

"No, Nikky, I am sorry," he said as he let out a sigh. "I was mean and you were okay to yell at me." At that point his shoulders slumped and he looked at the ground. I couldn't help but feel so horrible at that moment. "Youngbae-ya and I were awake late so I was tired and stressed. I was frustrated and took that out on people." His voice broke a little then and that broke me.

"Jiyong," I said as I stepped closer to him. He looked up at me and I took my chance, closing the distance and giving him a quick hug. He didn't even have time to react, except to become very stiff, before I pulled away again. "I'm sorry that I yelled and said, well," I looked away in embarrassment as I remembered what I had said, "not very nice things. My temper got the better of me and I'm really, really sorry."

"I needed to hear it," I looked up as I heard that. GD's expression was difficult to read, but as he continued, it became clearer. "Seungri tried to be nice when talking to me, but I would not listen." He smiled sadly and shook his head, putting his hands in his pockets. "I needed someone to yell to listen."

"Oh," was the only reply I could think of.

"So," he looked at me and smiled, slightly less sad this time. "I am sorry. Do you forgive me?"

I gave him a small smile. "Only if you forgive me."

He laughed a little as he nodded. "I do." And then he held his arms out towards me, smiling. Wait, did he want, like, a hug? I looked at him questioningly and he laughed before walking the couple steps towards me and giving me a hug. "Ah, Nikky-noona," he said as he gave me a little extra squeeze. "I am going to miss you very, very much." I felt numb and couldn't take a breath, like there was something constricting my chest, but GD didn't seem to notice. He let go and gave me a smile before walking away, but all I could do was stand there. That was right. It was Wednesday. I had three more days, after today, before the guys would be leaving New York and I would be going back home. I heard a voice which caused me to look up. Leader extraordinaire had apparently stopped at the door and was looking back at me. "Coming?"

I finally felt myself take a breath and I forced a smile on my face. I followed him out, but my mind was in just as much turmoil as it had been before. I only had days left with this wonderful group, and then I'd be going home, back to the boring life I had before. Back to my friends and family and job, which would be great, but at the same time... I had come to really care about these boys, and in three days time? I would probably never see them again. This day was just getting better and better.

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The rest of the day flew by. I managed to keep a smile on my face, go through all of the routines that I needed to, but it wasn't enough. During lunch I sat with the managers instead of the boys, and I knew from the looks they sent me they were confused. Instead of talking, I just pulled out my book and read while I ate, a great conversation stopper I had learned at work. Afterwards, while we were practicing, I kept getting concerned glances from Top and Daesung, and even Seungri, Taeyang, and GD gave me a funny look once or twice. When there was about 20 minutes left in rehearsal, Hae Jung and Cho Hee arrived, which meant I was saved. As soon as we were done, I hurried over to the other two noonas.

"Hello," I said to both of them, smiling and making sure that there was no way any of the boys could make eye contact with me, just in case.

"Ah, Nikky!" Hae Jung said with a smile before she put her hand through my arm and started leading me out of the room. "We need to talk to you about the schedule, okay?"

"Oh, um, okay," I replied, confused, but extremely relieved. Of course, as soon as we got into the other room, my smiling unnies turned into, well, not smiling unnies.

"Nikky, we heard about the fight." Oh, great. I hung my head, ready for the verbal beat down. "Good job." My head snapped up and I just stared as both unnies smiled again.

"Wait, what?"

Hae Jung came over and patted my shoulder with a smile. "One of our jobs is to keep the boys in line. Act like ummas and noonas to them. Sometimes that means telling them off." I looked between the two unnies as Cho Hee walked over and smiled at me before poking my shoulder.

"You do good. Sometimes boys rude and need yelled at," Cho Hee said. "It was good!"

Hae Jung started laughing and I couldn't help but smile as she said "I would have yelled too, only in front of everyone else." She paused and seemed to think for a moment. "Maybe not so many curse words though."

I blushed at that point. "How did you find out?"

"Manager Kim called, so we called GD," I nodded as she continued. "He didn't pick up, but when he did he explained what happened."

"Oh, okay."

"Taeyang also talked with us. He was with GD and wanted us to not be mad." Ah, well that explained the footsteps that hadn't stopped in front of me.

I smiled as I said "That was nice of him to look out for GD," but Hae Jung just replied with a laugh.

"Not GD, you. He said GD deserved it and not to be mad at you yelling at him." I know my face couldn't contain my shocked expression, which apparently made Cho Hee giggle.

"Oh." Yeah, I was feeling very eloquent at that moment, can't you tell? Talk about my mind being blown. I smiled and blushed, looking down as I thought of how sweet Taeyang was. But suddenly the train that is my thought process jumped tracks. It dawned on me, once again, and I realized I only had 3 days left to hang out with him and the others. I guess my face fell because Hae Jung spoke up then.

"Tonight the boys will be going to a club, and we are going with them," she said, pointing to the three of us. "Tomorrow morning they will get to sleep in and rest before the special concert." I nodded as I pulled my thoughts from the black hole of sadness they were falling into. "So, you can celebrate with the boys if you want tonight," Hae Jung informed me with a smile.

"Celebrate, unnie?"

"Yes, drink!" Cho Hee chimed in. "Not lot, but little." She grinned as she continued. "We will too. Managers cannot tonight," she sent Hae Jung a wicked smile. "They lost."

Hae Jung picked up right away. "We had a bet with the managers. We could tell Jiyong-ah was in a bad mood and knew you would not let him be rude. They said you would let him. Since we won, we get to drink tonight." I looked between the two smiling and proud unnies in front of me and laughed. Well, at least there would be one night where I could hang out and have fun. And I still have three more days with these ladies, the boys, and the mysterious managers. I would just have to make sure to pack in as much fun as I possibly could, and then maybe I could hold off the sadness until I get back to the real world. Hopefully.

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A/N: Omo. I bet you guys forgot about the whole only being a noona for a week thing, huh? Yeah, that is going to make things a little interesting. Also- I've already started the next chapter and I'm trying really, really hard to keep everyone in character. It could be SUCH an amazing chapter, but I have to find ways to make a few things happen the way I want them to, lol. Sorry to keep you guys waiting so long between chapters. Do you forgive me? :(

OH! If you could take a second and let me know what you think so far, I'd love you forever ^_^ And let me know who you want to see Nikky end up with. I've heard a few of you comment on that, but I'm interested now! lol

<3 <3 <3 ~Kiki~