It is the end of June, 2013. I am, no sorry, I was one of BigBang's Coordi Noonas. Just for a week though. Then I was just an Administrative Assistant to YG Ent. Well, that as well as Choi Seunghyun's secret girlfriend. But now? Now my life is spiraling out of control.

It all started when YG called the boys, the stylists, managers, assistants, and a few other artists into his office. 2012 had been considered one of YG and BigBang's greatest years, so to kick off 2013, all of the boys had been releasing and promoting their solo activities. Things had been going great until...

But I really shouldn't be complaining. I mean, I still have a job if I want it. And YG has asked me to help out and teach some of the other artists, talk with them and tutor them in English. The other stylists and managers all have other positions as well, while the boys- I can't even mention that right now.

Fast forward 3 months to the end of October, and the only thing holding me together is having Bom, Dara, Minzy, and CL there. As I stare at my phone crying, wondering who I have left now, they're the ones who come over with ice cream and alcohol to comfort me and let me cry. They're the ones who, after another 3 months, start making sure I go out and have fun. Not that I wasn't having fun, but they try and get me to be more like my old self, and eventually it starts working. I'm no longer a shell of my older self, but I doubt I'll ever be able to open my heart that easily ever again.

It is still hard to go to work at YG Ent everyday, what with the boys' pictures on the walls still, their music playing in random places, the memories we had shared jumping out at me everywhere... Just as I get ready to quit, YG has me help with some of the Superstar contestents with their English for an episode. Next thing you know, I've become an English tutor to the stars. Which is how I met them. Mainly how I met him and how he slowly started helping me really, truly live and love once more.

But what am I supposed to do when my heart is pulling one way and my brain is telling me something else? When something resurfaces from the past and threatens to ruin the peace I had finally found?

If you haven't read it yet, you should probably start with the first story in this line: Big Bang's Newest Noona. Trust me, this will make a LOT more sense if you do! 

And graphics credits go to ♫ d i n o ☁ b e a t ♫ GRAPHIC SHOP! I was a bit of a hard customer >.< But shin-oppa worked with me and the graphics are perfect!