Dara

Today is Sunday, and last night I found out that I am pregnant with a stranger. I asked Doctor Lee not to tell anyone about my condition. I told him that I will tell them myself when I'm ready and I am relieved when he agreed.

Doctor Lee told Youngbae that I only eat something that causes my indigestion and he had already given me medicine. I just need to rest and I'll get better after.

I'm thankful that Youngbae didn't doubt any of it, and he sent me home after. I told him to go back to the party when I stepped out of his car in front of my house because I felt much better after Doctor Lee gave me a medicine for my nausea but he's not having it. 

He led me inside and helped me in my room despite my protest and I gasped when he opened my closet.

"What are you doing? I rushed to him when he started opening my drawers.

"Get your pajamas so that you can change."

"I can do it. I'm feeling better now. You don't need to worry about me. Go back, I'm sure Seunghyun and Jiyong are waiting for you. Thank you so much for bringing me home."

"Are you sure you are okay now?" I nodded my head and took my pajama from his hand. 

"Doctor Lee gave me a medicine earlier and it was very effective. My nausea is gone."

"Okay, but I'll leave when you are already tucked in bed. I'm worried you'll faint in the bathroom. Go and wash up. I'll wait for you here."

"I told you I'm  fine now."

"Just go and wash up so that I could go back to the party." I sigh and go inside the bathroom. I didn't meet a guy as stubborn as him but he is a very good man. I hope he'll meet the woman who is meant for him soon.

I stepped out of the bathroom after I'm done and I saw him sitting on the edge of my bed browsing on his phone but quickly put it down when he saw me and pulled the cover off the bed and gestured to me to lay down. I sigh and lay on my bed so that he can go back to the party already. 

"You can go now." I'm in the safety of my bed now." 

"Okay, call me if you feel sick again. I'll  come here as soon as possible."

"Okay, Don't worry. Thank you so much for tonight, and say Sorry for me to Seunghyun."

"Okay, and don't feel sorry because there's nothing to be sorry about.  Now sleep, so that you will feel much better tomorrow.  I'll come and see you tomorrow,  okay?" I took a deep breath but nodded my head.

He smiled then pulled the cover to my chest then stole a kiss on my cheek.

"Bae...

"I'll go now. See you tomorrow. I'll lock the door before I leave. Good night." He hurriedly said and rushed to the door. I slumped my shoulder sadly then focused my eyes on the white ceiling above me.

"I'm pregnant. What should I do now?"

***

It was around eleven in the morning when I woke up, but I lay on my bed, staring at the white ceiling above me. I didn't have a proper sleep last night. I keep thinking about what my life is going to be like now that I am pregnant.

I don't have a family,  I was raised in an orphanage and I don't have a close friend who I could ask for advice for my situation right now. I know Youngbae will help if I ask him but I don't want him to know about my pregnancy. Maybe later, but not at the moment. I'm not ready to tell this to others.

I place my palm on my still flat stomach, and a sad smile forms on my lips. I'm not sad for myself but for my unborn child who won't know who his or her father is. 

My tears rolled down