So my lovelys, sorry to keep you waiting but school is tough. And to make up for my absense, a super long chapter where many things happen. Yay!

Also, the chapters from now on will go much faster, that way I'll actually be able to finish the story, Yay 2!

And yay 30th chapter!

So enjoy, comment and subscribe!... Not necessarily in that order!

 

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Everybody stared at Siwon while Nayoung playfully slapped him on the arm. “I’ve decided that I will date Nayoung-shi.” Siwon boasted.

 

“You decided?” Kikwang squeaked. “What about omma?”

 

“Of course she said yes!” Siwon replied as if that was an obvious answer.

 

“It’s not official yet though.” Nayoung added. “We’re just testing the waters before we decide if we actually want to dive in or not.” She smiled looking at Siwon, who warmly smiled back at her.

 

“Are you sure about this?” Yoseob suddenly asked, quite serious.

 

Nayoung did not know how to reply to this, because she wasn’t sure. Just when she was about to say something, the nurse walked in with a wheelchair.

 

“Nayoung-shi?” The nurse spoke while looking at her file, “The doctor said you can leave now since you’ve been pretty stable since the morning.”

 

“Awesome! Where do I sign?” Nayoung asked as she was handed a clipboard.

 

“At the bottom, where it says patient.” She looked up and saw Siwon and Beast and froze for a while. “Omo! What are you doing here?”

 

The boys chuckled before Doojoon replied. “She’s our manager, we’re here to pick her up.”

 

The nurse turned to look at Nayoung. “Omo, really? You’re so lucky!!”

 

“They call me mommy...” Nayoung sarcastically replied as she was reading over her discharge forms.

 

“Wait, why? You’re so young!”

 

“They’re blind bats, that’s why. They may look good but they are so stupid! Can’t even cook for themselves!” Nayoung replied as she handed back the clipboard. “Crap! It’s 12:00, Yoseob we gotta run.” She was about to get off when the nurse stopped her.

 

“What are you doing!? You’re in no shape to be walking around, or to be working for that matter! Let me help you get on this wheelchair.”

 

“Um, no. I’m not in that bad of a shape.” Yoseob scoffed when she said that earning a glare from Nayoung. She defiantly got off the bed and stood up, even though the pain was mind-numbing.

 

“There, she is much better than we all feared. Thank God!” Siwon said as he stood up beside Nayoung.

 

“Nayoung-shi, that’s really not good for you...” The nurse mumbled as she could see Nayoung shaking slightly.

 

“If she was, she would’ve moved by now.” Yoseob angrily said as he walked right up to Nayoung. “She’s too proud to admit the pain’s killing her right now.” He looked right into her eyes as she glared back at him.

 

“Come on, I know her. She would say something if it hurt her.” Siwon tried to convince others, but even the nurse knew at this point that Nayoung could tolerate pain.

 

“Omma, seriously, just sit down on the wheelchair...” Dongwoon pleaded watching her face turn red from trying stand still.

 

“I’m fine, Dongwoon-ah, if Gwangho moved then I could walk and get to his schedule on time.” She kept glaring at him when Yoseob suddenly picked her up and dropped her on the wheelchair.

 

“Yah! You can’t just treat her like that!” Siwon yelled at Yoseob.

 

“So you’d rather watch her be in pain?” Yoseob snapped back. “And you, no words from you.” He snapped at Nayoung as she was about to open . “I know you’ll end up at my schedule one way or another, so the love birds are coming along too. They will hold you down since I can’t tie you down physically. Understand?”

 

“Fine...” She mumbled defiantly as Yoseob pushed her out of the room.

 

Siwon stood back and watched as everyone left the room, feeling absolutely humiliated by Yoseob. Angered, he picked up his phone and called someone. “Hyung, find me Yoseob’s weakness.”

 

 

January 31^st, 2016

 

It has been more than two weeks since NaWon couple had been dating. Nayoung was really happy as Siwon was the perfect boyfriend, from sending her cute messages to secretly hugging her in public. They hadn’t kissed yet, because even though everything felt perfect, it felt too perfect. Nayoung’s usually skeptical of things, but she forgets everything when she’s with Siwon.

 

Yoseob was the same, he didn’t like Nayoung dating Siwon, but he hid his feelings considering Nayoung’s feelings. He has tried hinting to her that he’s bad for her, but she wouldn’t listen. He gave up after a while and believed that she was truly happy with Siwon.

 

They were at a concert where many idols were performing, Beast and Super Junior included. While Nayoung was happily getting the boys ready for their performance, suddenly the Super Junior manager showed up at their dressing room.

 

“Nayoung-ah? Siwon sent you a note.” He smiled sheepishly as he handed her the note, since he knew they were dating. “Wonder what he wants from you...”

 

The boys cheered as Nayoung went to get the note, still dressed like a boy.

 

“Oi, stop it!” Nayoung said as she took the note, blushing. “Don’t make me punch you in the face.”

 

“So violent! Anyways I gotta go find Kyuhyun’s PSP, he lost it apparently.” The manager said as he walked out.

 

“What does it say?” Hyunseung asked eagerly. “I need to know what kind of romantic note I can send to Sapphy.”

 

“Ask Junhyung, he’s the romantic one here.” Nayoung smirked at Junhyung as she opened her note, who pretended not to hear.

 

“Tell us!! Tell us!!” Dongwoon and Kikwang chanted as Nayoung read her note.

 

“Fine! Huh... That’s weird. He wants me to meet him backstage near the storage area...” Nayoung read out a little confused.

 

“Ooh, someone wants some y time!” Doojoon teased.

 

“Hihihihi, maybe you’ll finally get your first kiss!” Yoseob grinned like an idiot, but felt uneasy about the whole proposition. Since he always felt suspicious of Siwon, he decided to let it go this time around.

 

“Shut up! I guess I’ll go now...” Nayoung walked out, happy to be able to meet her boyfriend even when they are both so busy.

 

After she left, the boys all turned to face each other. “Let’s follow them!” Junhyung suggested.

 

“Duh we’re doing that. But do record it?” Doojoon asked.

 

“Of course! We need to blackmail her in the future when she’s about to punish us.” Dongwoon retorted.

 

“But omma might not like it...” Kikwang said.

 

“That’s the whole point of a blackmail idiot. Now let’s get going before we lose her.” Yoseob said, unknowingly feeling relieved that she won’t be alone with him.

 

“Let’s go!” Hyunseung cheered as all of them stood up. Just as they were about to go out, their stylist walked in.

 

“Yoseob-ah, the sponsors just sent in your outfit. We need you right now to get dressed.”

 

“Right now? Can’t it wait?” Yoseob whined.

 

“No. Right now or else you’re not performing.” She sternly said.

 

“Fine, guys I gotta go.” He waved at them and followed the stylist out, while the boys went in the opposite direction.

 

“Where’s noona?” Junhyung asked.

 

“There!” Hyunseung pointed at a hooded figure walking down the crowded hallway. Even though it could have been anyone, the boys knew it was her just from the way she walked.

 

They followed her from a distance until they saw her turn a corner, where they stopped to peak from the edge of the wall. Nayoung was standing in front of Siwon, playing with her fingers and smiling shyly.

 

“Nayoung-ah...” Siwon said, the boys were far away from them, but they could hear NaWon nonetheless.

 

“Ye?” She asked as she looked up into his eyes.

 

“...Let’s break up...” He said.

 

The colours drained from her face, unable to comprehend what just happened here. “...What?”

 

“Let’s break it off, this is not going anywhere.” he calmly stated.

 

“What? This doesn’t make sense, even this morning everything was normal...” Nayoung replied, sounding a little desperate.

 

“I’m sorry...”

 

“Wait... If you were going to break it off so easily, why did you beg me to be your girlfriend?” She had calmed down once again.

 

“The truth is, when I saw you at the show, you were gorgeous. But when I saw you again... You were... this.” He said, eyeing her up and down.

 

The boys had frozen in their spots, not daring to even breath. They did not know what to do at this point, so they just stood there.

 

“This?” Nayoung asked, crossing her arms over her chest.

 

“Don’t you even look at the mirror? You look like something the cat dragged in! You don’t even look like a woman.”

 

“Oh?” Nayoung took off her glasses, wiping them with the sleeves of her hoody. “Then why did you ask me out after that?”

 

“It... it was a bet I made with my friends. When they saw me ogling you on TV, they bet me, and I can’t lose a bet.” He said as if it’s not a big deal.

 

“A bet?” She put her glasses back on, her heart shattering into pieces. She looked down to the ground before speaking. “Then you never liked me?”

 

“Well, you were nice and cute at some times...” He said scratching the back of his head. “But whenever I tried approaching you, you always pushed me away. We dated for more than two weeks and we never kissed. What the hell is that? Anyhow, I’m sorry I had to break it to you like this, but I found someone else... I still hope we can be friends.” He stuck his hand out for her to shake, but she didn’t move. After an awkward moment, he left.

 

Siwon smirked when he saw the Beast boys just standing there. He walked by them, his hands in his pockets, and cockily said “Hello boys” as he walked past them. He hadn’t noticed that Yoseob wasn’t there.

 

*Flashback*

 

“Yoseob’s weakness?” The voice over the phone said, “Everyone knows his weakness, it’s his old girlfriend, er, whatever her name was and their new manager. If you want to piss off any of the Beast boys that woman manager’s your target. Why do you wanna know, anyways?”

 

“Oh nothing, just this little thing I was planning. Thanks.” Siwon hung up the phone quickly before walking out of the hospital.

 

“No one makes me look bad....” Siwon thought to himself. “You’ll pay for this, Yang Yoseob.”

 

*End flashback*

 

“Hmph, part one’s done. Part two will just be the cherry on top.” Siwon thought to himself as he happily joined s.

 

Nayoung slowly started walking back out, towards the boys. She slowly looked up and saw them standing there, frozen.

 

She smiled weakly, “I’m fine... Let’s get you on stage before it’s too late.” Se softly spoke as she continued walking.

 

“Omma...” Dongwoon called, worried to see her so gloomy.

 

“What?” She turned to look at them, seeing them worried she smiled widely. “I told you I’m fine! I was gonna dump him anyways when I would leave Korea, but he beat me to the chase.”

 

“You’re leaving?” Hyunseung asked, everyone was shocked by this new found fact.

 

“Duh! I’m an exchange student, remember? The only reason I work for you idiots is because I have no place to stay. Now let’s get going!” She smacked a couple of them playfully before she started walking towards the stage.

 

When they were halfway there, their stylist came running, looking panicked. “Is Yoseob with you?” She asked, huffing to take a breath from all the running around.

 

“No... Why?” Nayoung asked.

 

“, he’s missing. This girl from the coffee shop came by to deliver coffee to everyone, so I took mine and went out for a smoke. When I came back Yoseob was gone. I called him since he still didn’t have the bracelet that he’s supposed to wear tonight, but he didn’t pick up. So I looked for him everywhere and can’t find him!!!” She said in breath while flinging the bracelet around.

 

“Here, give it to me.” Nayoung said as she grabbed the bracelet from the stylist. “Guys, go back to your dressing room and look for him there. If it’s Jieun...” She trailed off, but the boys knew.

 

They all ran in different directions to look for Yoseob, momentarily forgetting about the incident from before. Nayoung suddenly thought of something, an ran to the fire exit. The staircase was outside the building, and only place where no one was allowed.

 

As Nayoung had suspected, Yoseob was sitting in the staircase, with his head in his palms. She quickly called and told Doojoon where he was, and told him to bring the others to get Yoseob. She slowly walked up the stairs to him, stopping a few stairs below him. She sat down, gently taking one of his hands and putting the bracelet on. “You okay?” She softly asked.

 

Yoseob glared at Nayoung with bloodshot eyes, before taking his hand away from her. “Go away.” He said as he looked away from her.

 

“Don’t be like that.” Nayoung moved up a stair and held his hand again. “I know what you’re going through, and how crappy you feel seeing Jieun again.”

 

Yoseob roughly pulled his hand away as he stood up, surprising Nayoung. She stood up after him and instinctively took a step back. “NO YOU DON’T KNOW!!” He yelled at her. “You have no bloody idea what it’s like to be dumped by the person you thought was your everything, the person you KNEW was your everything. You don’t know what it’s like when that same person you’re fighting to forget comes back to your life, wanting to go back where she ing threw you away like a used tissue paper... You don’t know...” He turned away and looked outside.

 

The rest of the Beast members had come when he started yelling but none of them said anything. They only watched as Yoseob cried his heart out while Nayoung cried silently.

 

“Well, I guess I don’t know... But your personal matters don’t give you the right to bail out of the performance!” Yoseob turned to look at Nayoung, who was glaring at him now. “Don’t you remember all the years of hard work? You weren’t the only one suffering, your members suffered with you! Are you going to let one girl come and destroy what all of us have worked so hard to gain? What you sacrificed your life to gain?” Nayoung fumed.

 

Yoseob kept looking at her for a while, his mind blank of anything. After a while he slowly pushed past her and the members, and headed towards the stage. They all followed him, and reached the stage right as their names were to be announced. They all took their positions, and the music started to play.

 

Yoseob mechanically followed the music, dancing to it without paying attention to the song. He suddenly froze in his place, when Junhyung started rapping.

 

[JH] Ha Let me talk about ma

Chagabkye dorasun dwitmoseubae shiganee jamshi mumchoon deut hae

Hayagye dwaebuhrin muhritsokae nuhl jabaya dwae ahni nuhl bonaeya dwae

Oh nuhl eetgo sahldun nuhl eetji mothae woolduhn na

Dwel daero dwaeraji nahdo nahl jahl molla

 

[JH] Ha Let me talk about ma

At your cold back turned away from me, its like time just froze for a second

In my white, blank mind, I need to hold on to you, no I need to send you away

Oh Living on forgetting you, Crying because I couldn't forget you

They say I should just leave it to be, I'm not too sure myself

 

Dongwoon tapped him on the shoulder, and Yoseob continued dancing, but kept missing beats or forgetting steps. “What should I do? Take her back or send her away?” He thought, when Doojoon started singing.

 

[DJ] Eeejuhbollae niga doramyunsuh nahn dashin jahbji ahneulae

([DW] Niga han bunmahn han bunmahn dashi ddo) Saengkakhae dahlran mahrae

Duhneun gomin ahn halrae eejae nuhreul buhrilae

 

[DJ] I want to forget, if you turn away from me I don't want to hold on to you again

([DW] over and over again) Words from you telling me to think about this

I don't want to ponder over that anymore, now I want to throw you away

 

“I should throw her away, she hurt me and I can’t ever forgive her for that.”

 

[KK] Gajima nareul dduhnakajin ma myuht buhneul saengkakhae bwado

Naega nuhreul eetkireneun himdeul guht gata. Eejeul su ubseul guht gata

 

[KK] Don't go, don't leave me, thinking many times over again

I think it will be hard for me to forget, I don't think I can forget you

 

“No, I love her... right?”

 

It was Yoseob’s turn to sing, and even though he was having trouble concentrating on the dance, he sang his heart out.

 

(I can't take my breath breath breath) [YS] Shiganee garsurok jumjum jinagarsurok oh nahn duh

(I can't hold my breath breath breath) [YS] Garsurok nahneun duh jakoomahn nae soomee mahkhyuh wa nae soomee yeah

 

(I can't take my breath breath breath) [YS] As time passes by, as more time passes by oh no longer

(I can't hold my breath breath breath) [YS] As more time trickles by, my breath starts to suffocate me, My breath Yeah

 

Nayoung saw him from the sidelines, and saw him having trouble dancing. She thought he would be able to focus himself, but he couldn’t. “You love her that much eh?” She thought as she ran to front of the stage. She jumped up and down and waved her hands until Yoseob saw her.

 

[ALL] breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

 

[ALL] breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

 

“What is she doing?” Yoseob thought as she signalled him to follow her. He watched her as she perfectly mirrored his steps for Soom. Without bothering to think, he just followed, finally dancing perfectly to the song.

 

[DW] Jiwoebohllae ni jarin eejae ubsuh doraohl gohtdo ubsuh

([DJ] Niga naegye duh naegye ohmyun) Nahn duh muhruhjeo gahl guhya

Eejae johm bikyuhjoolae nahneun nuhreul buhrillae

 

[DW] I want to erase, there is no longer a space for you, no place for you to return

([DJ] If you come closer to me) I think I will go further away from you

Can you move out of the way now? I want to throw you away

 

 

“No, this is it. I won’t played by her no more.” He thought as he started to dance by himself, without looking at Nayoung.

 

[HS] Haji ma dorasuhryuh hajin ma ahmoori sengkakhae bwado

Jungmahl nuhreul jiwookin himdeul guht gata jungmal michil guht gata

 

[HS] Stop, don't try to turn back, thinking many times over again

I think it will be really bad to erase you, I will really go crazy

 

While Hyunseung is singing his part, Junhyung quickly spoke to Yoseob while covering his face as par the choreography. “Dude, think before speaking man, noona just got dumped before meeting. And harsh. You owe her an apology, big time.”

 

Yoseob looked at Nayoung, who smiled and showed him a thumbs before walking away.

 

“Weirdo? She... Why? Don’t leave me! I need you... I think I’ll really go crazy...” He thought as a tear escaped his eye, camouflaged by sweat.

 

(I can't take my breath breath breath) [YS] Shiganee garsurok jumjum jinagarsurok oh nahn duh

(I can't hold my breath breath breath) [YS] Garsurok nahneun duh jakoomahn nae soomee mahkhyuh wa nae soomee yeah

 

(I can't take my breath breath breath) [YS] As time passes by, as more time passes by oh no longer

(I can't hold my breath breath breath) [YS] As more time trickles by, my breath starts to suffocate me, My breath Yeah

 

“Why would you do this? Why would you come to help me when you needed help? How could you be so unselfish? ....Why couldn’t I understand you?”

 

[ALL] breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

 

[YS] I don't know~ I don't know yeah~

 

[ALL] breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

breathe in breathe out ha ha

 

“Why do I need you so much? Even when I’m thinking of Jieun, I think of what you’ll say... Why do i depend on you so much?”

 

[YS] I don't know~ I don't know yeah~

 

[JH] Yes or No bichi jamdeun bahm booree gguhjin bang ungkyuhbuhrin nuhae daehan sengkakee

Pooliji ahnah dodaechae mwol tahthaeya jogeuminama weero dwelka

Gibuhtduhn sarangee jwaeilka dwel daero dweraji huh nado nahl jahl molla

 

[JH] Yes or No The dark night, the room with lights turned off, my tangled up thoughts of you

Doesn't untangle, What do I blame to make myself feel a little bit better?

Was this deep love a sin? They say I should just leave it to be, huh, I'm not too sure myself

 

“...Do I love you?”