Yoochun's P.O.V.


It's hard for me to look at him being like that. I was in my bed, pretending to read something when I was just observing Jaejoong's behavior. It's really not hard to do when he's in this state. I don't know what happened between him and Minwoo, since he doesn't want to talk about it, but it must have been something serious since I've never seen him be this distressed. He doesn't even notice how he changed so obviously these past couple of weeks and how everybody noticed it. How he got everybody worried.

I haven't seen Minwoo much either. He tries to act like everything is fine, but we all know better it's far from that. I usually run into him in between classes and it seems to me that he's been avoiding me. I know it sounds ridiculous and I might be overreacting, but that's how it makes me feel and that's why it's even more obvious how wrong things between him and Jaejoong are.

I tried to talk to Junjin about it, but as hard as it is to believe, Minwoo doesn't want to talk about it with him either. Hyung just told me that he looks so desperate and lost sometimes that it frightens him. That's not what Minwoo, out of all people, should be like. I'm afraid Jae has been wrong about him from the beginning.

And while I'm secretly watching my best friend floating further and further away from me and the rest of the world I feel so helpless and frustrated for not being able to do anything. I don't know what to do, it's really annoying and it stops me from enjoying my own happiness. Eric understands me and even though he's cheering me up all the time, by the end of the day my thoughts always trail off to Jae and I wonder if he'll find happiness I reached any time soon.

I don't understand how they can both be so stubborn. But I do understand that even though he's my best friend, Jaejoong must have been the one who is wrong - who caused things to go wrong. I thought they were happy together... or at least going there. Jaejoong must have done something. It's not that he's hurt and longing for Minwoo, for his love. On top of that he feels guilty and frustrated with himself. I'm afraid it's just a matter of time when he'll become desperate enough to do something about it... but then again, I'm also waiting for that moment. Hoping Minwoo will understand too.


Hyesung's P.O.V.


"Hyung!" Junsu ran into our room, causing us both to look at him. I noticed Changmin trailing shyly behind him. "I'm gay!" he beamed happily and I couldn't help but raise my eyebrow and smirk at that.

"Really?" Dongwan almost chuckled. "You got us fooled with all the playboy-ish act..." he added sarcastically. Junsu glared at him.

"And you have a boyfriend. Nice..." I nodded, looking at Changmin with pure amusement. The tall boy blushed furiously, biting his lip slightly.

"He does?" Dongwan asked, moving from his spot on his bed and looking behind Junsu. "Minnie!" he grinned and both Junsu and I looked at him.

"Hey hyung." Changmin said, stepping in as well now and standing next to Su.

"Well... I guess you finally got to your senses." Dongwan teased his brother again.

"What's that supposed to mean?" And again, Junsu glared. "I'm gonna tell you to umma."

"Not if I tell her how much money you've been spending lately first." Dongwan stuck his tongue out at him. God, they could be so childish sometimes.

"You wouldn't!" Junsu gasped, but then quickly straightened himself again. "She knows it anyway." He smirked.

"Let's go Changmin..." I said quietly, wrapping my arm around the younger guy and quietly taking him out of the room as Dongwan and Junsu continued their childish argument. "This could take a while... you'll get used to it. Eventually." Changmin laughed.

"You're forgetting Junsu and me... and our endless... interactions." He smirked.

"Ah... true... then you listening to them must be quite boring." I replied as we already went out of the dorm and started walking over to the Heechul's.


Yunho's P.O.V.


I stood in front of Junjin's class, waiting for him, like every day. I smiled looking at my boyfriend getting up and packing his things before he started walking out of the classroom to greet me. As I watched him someone else caught my eye. Jaejoong. Looking so lost. Junjin told me that something was going on between him and Minwoo, how Yoochun was worried about Jae and it did have an effect on me, like it did on all of our friends, I'm sure. But until now I didn't notice just how bad Jaejoong looked. Don't get me wrong, he was as beautiful as ever, he just lost... his glow.

"Jin, can we not go to the Heechul's today?" I asked, looking back at my boyfriend. "I need to talk to Jaejoong." I added, looking back at my ex as he went out of the classroom and simply walked pass us, not even noticing me there. Junjin watched him too and understood what I meant so he just nodded.

"Alright, come over later... we could watch a movie together..." I nodded. "Or you could just tell me how it went... Good luck." He added and I smiled at him before I rushed to catch up with Jaejoong.


Hyesung's P.O.V.


"He remembers it. Can you believe it? He remembers every single detail from that night." Changmin said excitedly and I closed my eyes shaking my head slightly.

"Please don't go through that night with me. I don't need any nasty images of you two together. I grew up with Su... and he'll always be little Su to me, my little dongsaeng." I said quickly, hoping Changmin will stop there.

"Ah but hyung, he's not little at all." Changmin smirked.

"God..." I put my hands over my ears and shook my head again, refusing to hear more.


Jaejoong's P.O.V.


"Jae! Jae!" I heard someone calling me, so I slowly turned around to see Yunho running towards me.

"Finally. I've been calling you for five minutes." I looked at him slightly strangely. No wonder I didn't hear anything, ever since Minwoo... ever since that night I've been deaf and blind for everything around me.

"Sorry." I replied, waiting for him to say what he wanted.

"Can we talk?" he asked, hope written on his face. I shrugged.

"I guess. Heechul's?"

"No, let's go over there." He pointed to the restaurant on the other side of the street. "I assume you haven't eaten anything since this morning." He knew our schedule all too well. Or was it that he just knew me and my eating habits?

The truth was I haven't eaten anything since last night. I lost my appetite completely, I felt nauseous all the time and it was just easier to skip meals. I didn't feel like eating at all... or living. But I was still afraid to admit it.


Hyesung's P.O.V.


"Hello ladies." Heechul grinned as he finally got some time to squeeze in between his customers that were keeping him busy - and the first thing he did, of course, was to squeeze in the booth beside me, pushing me slightly out of the way. I guess he did a lot of that... squeezing.

"I'm not a lady." Changmin protested, I just shrugged, used to Heechul's weird and mainly erted nicknames.

"Oh yes you are." Heechul nodded, smirking in satisfaction. "You're a special kind too. One of my bit.ches."

"Oh god... eww..." Changmin made a face.

"Okay, my bit.ches usually don't say 'eww' but that makes you even more special. I guess." Heechul continued with the teasing. I noticed he especially loved fooling around with Changmin. Maybe because the boy was so innocent... or at least appeared to be. Yet he was quite close with Heechul - the old tramp.

"Okay, stop it." Changmin glared and Heechul turned to me.

"So what's up gossip queen?" he asked curiously with that smug look saying he was particularly hungry for some juicy gay news.

"Ask your bit.ch." I couldn’t help but laugh which earned me one of Changmin's glares. Heechul quickly turned his head back to Minnie, waiting for him to spill the beans.

"I got myself a boyfriend."

"Oh no." A look of horror crossed Heechul's face. "What happened to Junsu?"

"It is Junsu." Changmin flattened his eyes.

"Again, what happened to Junsu?" Heechul repeated, although it was obvious for him to keep a straight face, especially when Changmin reached over to smack him over the head.

"Kidding, kidding, alright?" Heechul laughed, quickly standing up and running away from his friend who stood up too and decided to catch him and make him pay.

I smiled and then sighed. The circle of our miserable love-sick friends is getting smaller. It's a great thing really. But it makes me worse person then I imagined myself to be. It makes me jealous and slightly bitter, forcing me to put on a mask, much like Minwoo. It makes me wonder how much longer will it take for me to remain the last of us. Alone and miserable.


Yunho's P.O.V.


I smiled at the waitress, thanking her as she put another glass of water in front of Jaejoong. I managed to drag him to the restaurant and make him order something. I've been watching him for the past fifteen minutes and now he looked much like he did back in the hallways. Lost and so far away from the rest of us.

The silence filled the air around us and I just let it sink in, hoping it will affect him somehow, but I got completely opposite reaction from what I expected. He acted like I wasn't even there. However, that allowed me to observe him like I didn't have the chance for a long time. That glow wasn't the only thing he lost. He looked much paler and much more tired then usual. Skinnier too. I noticed he didn't even touch the food and it made me wonder if he was starving himself lately. It frightened me - this whole thing was much more serious then I've ever thought it will get.

Finally, I decided to speak.

"Jae... Jae." I repeated slightly louder the second time and he blinked quickly, looking back at me. "Aren't you hungry?"

"Oh... no, I actually ate something during lunch." He forced a smile, looking down at his plate for a moment, then looking away again. I knew he was lying.

"Don't lie to me, I know you skip lunch... and you look like you didn't have breakfast either.” I said worriedly. "Do you eat at all?"

"I do, of course I do." He said quickly, nodding almost frantically and that too scared me. Jaejoong was someone... unrecognizable. "I just... don't feel well lately." He added more weakly.

"What's wrong?" I asked more softly. Me and my questions again.

"What isn't?" he asked back, sighing heavily and I felt my own heart aching simply for seeing him, hearing him talk like this. He looked extremely tired of everything.

"Please talk to me Jae."

He looked down, burying his face away from me and I waited for quite long. I had to be patient, I knew it meant a lot for both of us. He wouldn't say anything if I push him. After a couple of minutes I noticed he wasn't breathing evenly... his shoulders began to shake slightly and he tried to control himself so hard.

"Everything's... falling apart..." he breathed weakly, I barely managed to hear him. I was glad the restaurant was almost empty and we were far away in the secluded part.

"I feel like I'm dying Yunho... it just hurts... too much..." he said in between sobs and I moved to sit next to him instead, putting my hand on his arm. He finally lifted his head to look at me.

"I don't know what to do."