Cliche number 4: the Love triangle..well kind of...not really, but still. Joy loves me, I love Jennie, and Jennie loves someone else.

Joy’s confession caught me off guard, but I can’t say that I didn’t see it coming. When I got back home, I forced Lisa and Jisoo up to talk but Jennie overheard. Luckily or unluckily she didn’t figure it out.

She slammed her door shut, and I felt my heartbreak even more.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered, as I let my tears fall. My biggest fear has finally come true. I’ve lost her.

The next day, my eyes were all swollen and I refused to leave my room. Jisoo and Lisa tried to get me to go out but I wouldn’t budge. Even Joy couldn’t get me to leave.

As time passed, the end of the semester was coming. Joy and I decided to just stay friends. Jennie and I still haven’t made up. If anything she’s gotten better at avoiding me. But even still, I would try to find ways to catch a glimpse of her.

Like today, I lucked out. I was heading to the library and a familiar brunette was sitting in her usual spot. Her glasses perched on her nose, hair in a messy bun, her things sprawled out all over the table because she doesn’t want strangers sitting with her. I chuckled. Always so adorable. I made my way closer, and noticed that she was falling asleep. Her head cutely propped up on her right arm then falling down only for her to briefly wake up. I watched this cycle for a bit, I knew she was gonna eventually really fall asleep. I was right, I saw her right hand fall and I quickly placed my hand on her forehead before she hit her head. I somehow managed to turn the scarf I had on into a makeshift pillow. Gently, I laid her head on it. I was gonna walk away, but I decided to stay. I sat with her, my chin resting on my hand while I watched her sleep. She looked peaceful, the sun was shining through the window and it made her look even more breathtaking. I couldn’t help myself from taking a photo.

“I miss you.” I softly whispered, tucking a stray hair behind her ear.

“I’m sorry that I can’t tell you this secret that I’ve been keeping from you.”

“Although I kind of regret it now...but the thing is Jen...if you knew the truth, I still would have lost you..maybe even Nayeon too. And I can’t risk that. So, I guess I’ll take this instead. Maybe we can makeup one day.” I explained, as if she can hear me, but she’s in deep sleep plus she has her Airpods in. With one last sigh, I carefully got up. I packed her things neatly, since I’m sure she’ll be sleeping until the library closes. I placed my cardigan over her shoulder, I was about to walk away, but I stopped. For some reason a burst of confidence surged through me, so I gently walked back. I bent down and placed a gentle kiss on her head.

When I got back to the dorm Lisa, Jisoo, and Joy were all there. They all had a weird look on their face.

“What’s going on?” I asked them, but then they shoved a giant packet in my hand with wide smiles.

“NO WAY?!” I exclaimed reading the letter and feeling myself get all excited!

“I GOT ACCEPTED FOR THE STUDY ABROAD?!” and we all started jumping up and down like children.

“You did! Your going to Seoul National University for a whole semester!” Lisa exclaimed.

“I can’t believe it...I..wow.” I was over the moon.

“We do! We knew you’ll get it. The letter says that you have to leave right after finals...that’s next week..” Joy sounded sad, Jisoo, and Lisa also lost their energy.

“Guys, it’s only for one smester, I’ll be back by summer.” I assured them.

“I guess it's just going to be weird without you around...We’ll miss you.” Lisa was tearing up and I pulled them into a tight group hug.

“I promise that I’ll comeback.”

“You better.” Joy threatened me.

“Okay okay, let’s all celebrate! I’ll text Jen and Nayeon to come join us.” Jisoo switched the mood, but then I remembered...I didn’t tell Jennie about this.

“Actually...Chu...I..”

“OMG YOU DIDN’T TELL HER?!” The three of them exclaimed.

“I wanted to and I tried but I applied after our fight and I didn’t think I was gonna get it..and..and yeah…” I trailed off, fiddling with my thumbs.

“Oh Chipmunk ...I don’t know what to do with you two anymore. It’s been weeks and we all haven’t hung out together since. It’s almost Christmas break and yet you two are still having this cold war.” Jisoo was shaking her head.

“I tried talking to her, many times… but she’s just so stubborn.” I huffed.

“Okay well, what are you going to do? The university is sending you off in 7 days!”

“I don’t know…”

“Do you really not know? Or are you just scared to do it because you know what’ll happen.” Joy asked with her eyebrow raised. Sometimes I hate how perceptive my friends are.

“I know that the only way to fix this is to tell her everything, but that’ll only make more problems. I mean let’s say I tell her, how do you think she’ll react? How will Nayeon react? I don’t want to put either of them in a hard sport, and I don’t want us to be awkward. Plus, I’m leaving anyways, maybe this is a good time for me to really heal and move on from her. Maybe us having this cold war is a blessing in disguise.”

“Fine don’t tell her, but what do you want us to do when she wakes up the next day and realizes you're gone?” Jisoo asked.

“Don’t worry, with how much she’s been avoiding me...I don’t think she’ll even know.” I forced a smile.

“I honestly don’t know anymore Chaeng...but let’s all not be all gloomy. Let’s go out, eat, grab some drinks, celebrate. This is still great news Rosie and I’m sure that you and Jen will fix things...I mean you’ve been friends for so long.” Lisa smiled while patting my shoulders. With a nod, I let the girls drag me out to celebrate.

In a blink of an eye, a week passed. My flight is set to leave tonight, my things are packed. I still haven’t told Jennie. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve tried to tell her. Like on Monday I got up extra early because she has an 8am class so I made her some breakfast and coffee, but she just walked out without a word. Or 2 days ago, I saw her in the library again. I was about to go up to her, but Nayeon was there and they looked like they were having a great time, she was smiling that gummy smile of hers. I didn’t want to be the cause of her mood dropping so I just left.

“In the end you really didn’t tell her.” Lisa came into my room arms crossed, leaning on my wall.

“I tried, you know I did. But she just won’t stop and listen. She just keeps avoiding me like the damn plague.” I groaned in frustration.

“So now what? You leave and all those years of friendship are just thrown out the window? I thought you of all people would care more than this. I mean you literally have been loving her for so long now and I just thought that you would fight for her more.”

“You don’t think I fought? I tried Lisa I did. I tried to get her to talk to me, to listen but nothing. She just would glance at me and walk away like I was air. Like we didn’t spend half our lives together. I know I hurt her, because I hid things from her...but I thought that I could fix it without having to tell her how much I love her, how much I miss her, how much it kills me that I can never ever be the person that makes her feel loved. But my heart is tired Lisa...I’m so tired of being in this one-sided unrequited love. It hurts and no matter how much I try to push the pain away, it comes back. Maybe this distance will help me, maybe it’ll help us. But there’s no point in trying to fix this now when I’m supposed to leave for the airport in half an hour.” I argued, trying to hold back my tears.

“Rosie….okay...go and take all the time you need to heal. But you have to promise me that you’ll come back. You have to.” Lisa hugged me tight.

“I promise.”

My family along with Lisa, Jisoo, and Joy took me to the airport. Jennie was with Nayeon tonight, like she practically lives at her apartment

“Take care of yourself Chaengie.” Joy hugged me tight, her eyes were b with tears.

“Hey no crying, it’s only for a bit I’ll be back before you know it.” I smiled, wiping the stray tear and she chuckled and nodded

“I’m really going to miss you. Remember what you promised me.” Lisa hugged me next, and I nodded my head in her embrace, “I won’t, you know I keep my word.” I whispered.

“Oh Chaeyoung-ah, we’re all going to miss you. Don’t worry about Jen we’ll take care of her. Lisa and I.. we’ll try to explain things to her. Just make sure that you stay safe and keep in contact okay? And if you get scouted over there don’t forget about us.” Jisoo hugged me while swaying our bodies left and right.

“I’ll miss you guys. Don’t worry this semester will fly by.” I assured them and they nodded their heads, “Oh and one more thing, give this to Jen for me. I won’t get a chance to give it to her on Christmas.” I smiled, handing Jisoo a small box.

“Okay.” Jisoo took the box and I said my goodbyes to my family telling them I’ll see them for Christmas since they’ll be flying to Seoul so we can spend it together.

“I love you guys.” I beamed, before grabbing my things and heading for security.

When I got to my gate, the plane was already boarding. My timing was great since it was my boarding group’s turn. When I settled on the plane I checked my messages one last time

DON’T FORGET TO BRING ME SOMETHING BACK - Lisa

MAKE SURE YOU CALL WHEN YOU LAND! - Alice

Don’t get sick and take care of yourself always. Miss you already - Joy

Be careful Pasta and I know you didn’t get to tell Jen about this, but you should still tell her your goodbye even if it’s a text. -Jisoo

I replied to everyone and decided to follow Jisoo’s advice. With a deep breath I sent Jennie a quick text.

I’m sorry. I miss you. Take care always.

After sending her a text, I put my phone in airplane mode and tried to stop myself from thinking about her.

“I’ll really miss you.” I whispered, staring out the plane’s window. Leaving New York City behind.

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A/N: Eff me okay this might be little longer. Part 4 coming soon hopefully..........