DAYS went by fast.

The promotions for Yeppeuda is actually nearing its end. They're preparing for new choreographies now for their Dream Concert performances. There was this one time Hyerim unnie, their 

choreographer, asked me to check for the boys since she can't come because of conflict of schedule.

I did monitor their dance but not to the point where I can comment or say some snide remarks about it because I do not have the right to do it. I do not dance. When Hoshi (well, their head 

manager told me to start using the members stage names whenever I call them so I can get used to it) asked me what do I think of their dance practice, all I did was a thumbs up and said 

'daebak'.

Some of them laughed at me. If it was Hyerim unnie, she would've said critics she noticed. Whenever they're in the practice room, I try my best to avoid being there as well. I do some other 

tasks instead. Not because I am not interested with their practice but because I hate to see them get reprimanded just because of one mistake. That's how the practice is. I can even say that 

their training was a bit lighter than when they're already idols. But of course, something always leads to a positive outcome. Seventeen is known to have great, knife-like performances thanks 

to the members and to their teachers.

It's Friday once again. KBS day. The boys are heading to the Music Bank but this time, the staff, including me of course, will be walking along with them. Flashes of cameras were all over the 

place as the media waited for Seventeen do their introduction and pose for a short photo time. I was wearing a mask to cover the half of my face.

After the photo op, the head manager called for them to follow him. We all followed him and it was the moment I realized almost all fans of Seventeen have gathered on the both sides of the 

street. I think they also want a photo op.

The manager, Mr. Ahn, looked so serious. I can feel it even behind his mask. He didn't say anything but he made the members stop to pose for the cameras of the fans. I guess some reporters 

grabbed that chance to ask the members some questions. But damn, the cameras are really close to the memebrs' faces. I wonder how they managed to maintain a smiling face despite of it. I 

was a bit farther than other staff. I can't see some members' faces but of course, Mingyu's face is very visible thanks to his height. He's wearing a denim jacket that suits him so well.

It's been a week since that conversation with him happened. I can't say I've totally moved on from that. I honestly want to ask other membes about how Mingyu was when I broke up with him 

but I don't think I have the guts to do it.

I can still remember how he spite me and how intense his eyes were when he told me I was just a mistake in his life.

I'm so damn hurt but not to the point that gets emotionally hurt. I keep it all in me. Last Friday, May 13, was the last day that I have ever cried because of him. We were a couple before and 

did not end the relationship in a decent way but I guess that's it. We don't need any more complications. He's busy with his career and so am I. Closure isn't even needed between us. He's over 

me and I can feel it.

I catch him looking at me sometimes but not the same way that he did when he was still my man. There's just something lacking when he stares at me. He doesn't even smile at me. He's just 

there. He talks to me when he needs to but doesn't when it's not necessary.

What hurts me the most is knowing he is being the friendly, smiling Mingyu when he's with other people. It's as if nothing has changed in him. I was wrong when I thought that he already 

changed and matured. He still tells jokes, spoils the younger members, teases his hyungs, respects the sunbaes and the staff, and most especially, smiles adoringly to their fans. The way he acts 

in front of the camera isn't staged at all. He is being Kim Mingyu.

But when it comes to me, he's just so cold.

Seungcheol thanked the fans for coming and supporting them and then we all went inside the building of KBS.

We were in the waiting room waiting for the stage person to call Seventeen for their performance when Mr. Han, the CEO of Pledis, went inside.

I was surprised to actually see him here because he doesn't often go with the staff. I heard he is the serious type of boss.

The members automatically gathered and greeted him formally.

Mr. Ahn went to Mr. Han and whispered something. Then his eyes drifted to mine. I immediately got nervous. Uhm, does he know me? I can remember him being my brother's boss three 

years back but I can't remember any interaction with the CEO, like ever.

"Ms. Han, you're the new junior manager?"

I blinked twice before nodding my head.

"Yes, sir. I am Soojin Han. Nice to finally meet you."

He was as if scrutinizing me along with Mr. Ahn who was beside him.

What? What is he thinking about? Does he want to fire me? Maybe because I caused too much trouble with the team lately. Oh goodness, am I going to lose my job?

"Sungjin made a stupid decision for rejecting my offer of making you a trainee under Pledis years ago."

My forehead automatically creased. What is he talking about? I never heard Pledis management wanting me to be one of their trainees before. Wait, did my brother Sungjin kept this as a 

secret from me?

"Anyway, I heard Sungjin is working in another company. Is he doing fine?" The Pledis boss asked me.

"Y-yes, he's doing fine." I'm trying to keep my words limited because the members can hear me. I don't want any of them to ask me about my family now. It's the most personal thing in my life 

to be talked about.

"Alright, tell him if he loses his job in SM, he could always work under Pledis." Mr. Han laughed. I didn't expect to see him laugh like that given his serious, bossy aura.

But wait, he mentioned SM? Shoot, now everyone knows Sungjin oppa is working in SM Entertainment.

Moments later, Mr. Han and other bosses went out of the waiting room leaving me with the members. As the newest manager, I was assigned to always look after Seventeen especially when 

the staff are needed for other tasks. I guess it's one of the perks of being the newest one in the team.

"Omo, noona! You didn't tell me Sungjin hyung is working for SM now?" Seungkwan asked me with surprised expression on his face.

I am so worried now that they know where my brother works, they might ask me more questions I am so afraid to answer.

"Yup, he's in SM." I told Seungkwan.

"Hmm, but if he is there, then you can easily get a job there too because you have a brother working in SM."

Actually, I trained in SM as a production staff for a few months but I won't asnwer it like that because it'll make the conversation longer.

"I prefer Pledis." I just answered. I don't know what to say anymore now that his questions are making me uncomfortable and that some members are looking at me as if they're interested in 

the topic I have with Seungkwan.

"Well, that's true love." He said.

I looked at him, confused. This talkative Seungkwan is sometimes stepping on the borderline due to him being talkative.

He's obviously talking about Mingyu. But of course not! I didn't go work here just because Mingyu is here.

THE next day, it was Music Core day.

I excused myself for work today because it's my schedule for an enrollment in one university. I applied online a month ago. I'll be studying a short-term course for a better credentials in the 

future. I think it's still better to have at least a certificate to prove that I am capable of being in the media world.

I went to Jaejin's school after to fetch him.

"Noona, I'll be going to MBC on Wednesday with my friends. We're going to watch Show Champion live." My brother told me excitedly.

"And who told you I'll let you go there?" I raised an eyebrow.

His one arm wrapped around my shoulder. I still can't believe this fifteen year old younger brother of mine is already taller than me. I feel so bad for my height.

"Noona, I aced all the exams for this period. I deserve to have a break."

And I had no choice but to say yes.

He's really interested of becoming an idol one day. Sungjin and I do not approve of it. It wouldn't be hard for Jaejin to be a trainee given the fact that his siblings are working in the music 

label. But no. I don't want him to go there. I want him to have a private life. My days with Seventeen as a manager made me realize how hard it is to protect your privacy when you're an idol. 

I don't want that same thing to happen to my brother.

That night, I received a call from Sungjin saying he'll be leaving his apartment now. He said he wants to be with us so he'd be staying in our house. I was happy, of course. I can't wait for us all 

three to be together.

MY one day-off passed and I'm back to work.

Seventeen has a fansigning event in Yeouido today.

Jisoo and Jeonghan both wore a traditional headgear called chaek. It suits them well. They look so good together.

I was assigned to the entrance of the fansigning area to monitor the fans so I was quite far from the members.

This fansign thing is a good way for the fans and idols to interact. I was secretly staring at Mingyu the whole time he talks to the fans. The gifts they give him are cute. I wonder if they keep it 

with them forever. I hope so.

Mingyu is a caring idol. It's not that I'm the other members are not but well, my eyes are fixed on him.

I can still feel my heart beating for him. I still do have feelings for him.

"Look at the video I made for Mingyu and Wonwoo. I ship them so hard!" One fan was talking to her friend. I overhear them talking.

"Minwon couple is so cute! Like they're the cutest thing ever happened in the world!"

I smiled. Minwon? Mingyu and Wonwoo? They're a thing now, huh?

WHEN the day's done and I went home, I checked on the internet which member do they think are the closest ones and I was surprised to see a lot of fans shipping Mingyu and Wonwoo.

"Meanie?"

I just read the title of one video from Youtube. Minwon is also called Meanie couple by the international fans.

"What's that?" I heard a familiar voice behind me.

I was in the living room with my laptop. I looked around and saw Sungjin.

"Omo, you're here!" I hugged him and he hugged me back.

"You're back!" I can't believe it. My older brother is now here.

"How's work?" He asked me.

I pouted.

"You're asking me how my work is before even asking me how I am?"

He pinched my nose.

"Silly, I text you everyday to ask how you are. I want to know how you work in Pledis has been doing? I'm a bit worried, you know."

"And why the hell would you be worried? I'm totally fine!"

"Ah huh, Jaejin told me you've been going home late. Is it really necessary to stay there until midnight or are you just there because Mingyu is ther---"

"No! Of course not! It's part of my job. You must know because we have the same work."

I remembered the last time I talked to Mr. Han.

"Why didn't you tell me Pledis was actually interested to get me as a trainee before?" It's not that I regret the opportunity because if they'd ask me personally, I'd still say no to the offer. I just 

want to know his reason.

"Well, aside from the fact that I don't think you can dance or sing that good,"

"You're so mean!" I cut him off.

"Just kidding, okay? Mingyu knew about the offer for you. Although he didn't directly told me, I know he didn't want you to become an idol. He's selfish to share you to anyone. He doesn't 

want the public eye to focus on you."

Sungjin's answer got me so confused.

"What? What does Mingyu have to do with this? What exactly did he tell you?"

My brother sighed.

"Mingyu said, 'hyung, it's not that I don't find Soojin lacking for being an idol but I don't think it's best for her to be one. I don't want her to feel pressured just because she's a public figure. I'd 

like her to say as what she is right now. I love her for being her', well, that's what Mingyu told me."

I tried so hard not to show any reaction even if deep inside, I'm squealing like a maniac.

He really said that?

"Anyway, Mr. Han from Pledis is curious about you. He said he'd like to hire you again if you're interested." I told Sungjin so he could not interrogate me with my management with 

Seventeen.

"I'll go visit them one of these days. I'll check you there, too. I want to see if you're really working or you're just staring at Mingyu the whole time." Sungjin smirked.

"Stop making Mingyu and I happen because we're over now. I'll prove you wrong once you come to Pledis." I assured him.

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