Kai’s P.O.V

After having a quick shower, I zoomed out of my room while running my hand through my hair. But much to my surprise, I only found Dad sitting on his usual seat on the dining table. I rested my body on one of the seat, taking one of the plate. I has never eaten a breakfast on home before, as I always skipped breakfast for a good warm dark coffee. But considering that last night not a single food went inside my mouth, I thought one breakfast won’t hurt. Usually, I had never favoured it with Luhan around. But now that he’s not, I wondered where he might be.

For some time chewing in silence, I finally brave enough to kill the silence. “Dad, where’s Luhan?”

“He excused himself to spend the night with his friend.” Dad answered, still unfazed with his gaze was lock on the food. I swallowed hard, feeling a sudden fullness of fog on my stomach. Did a breakfast with me really had to be that tormenting for him? Did he really hate me that much? Should I just skipped the breakfast once again, like I usually do? I was in the verge of broking. Maybe, no matter how much I try, I would never sufficed such a son like Luhan.

“It’s the first time Luhan acted like that.” He then continued, halting my chaosed mind. I bit my lips to look up to him, expecting some comparative or impose for him to continue. “I was hoping that kind of rebellion comes from you. But now, it’s him.”

“Are you, actually okay with the marriage?”

I kept my eyes on him, my hand stopped with the eating activities. I wasn’t expecting those words to come out of his mouth, I really didn’t. Those words had a flick of worry inside of them, something that I had never heard before. Something that I was too scared to imagine. Something that I really longed to experience.

But I quickly hid my surprise and compose my expression. I could actually use this opportunity to steal some spotlight. “I am fine, I guess. If it were for the company, why not?” I tried to be confident, and I didn’t know if it looked pretentious or artificial.

“Good, then.” He still looked flat with no emotion whatsoever. He stood up then grabbed his belongings on the table. “Don’t forget to attend this night’s meeting.”

“And next time, do have breakfast in home.”

With that, he left. I could feel something inside of me jump.

Was I dreaming or he really did worry and care about me?

*

Okay, maybe attending class just now wasn’t the best thing that I have ever chosen to do. Somehow, when everyone was busy copying notes from the whiteboard, I just dozed off with eyes thrown outside. I knew that since I stepped my feet on the chilly room, I won’t be attentive while attending this class. And somehow, the professor caught me dozing off three times. What an estatic luck, I mourned mentally.

“I really think that you should’ve skipped lesson. It was rare to see the flirty professor was suddenly reprimanding.” Kyungsoo noted with his hand tucked inside of his pocket. Hearing silence that came from his dongsaeng beside him, he looked over his head. Okay, he knew that I was a few centi taller than him, and he hated the fact.

But seeing how preoccupied I was that I didn’t even respond to one of the school’s favorite female’s flirtatious wink, just made Kyungsoo more and more sank in curiosity. What has happenened that this closest dongsaeng now just abandoned a girl? A good one, to note. That wan't healthy and good at all.

“Kai-yah.” He called. My head snapped towards him, but furrow on my eyebrow can not be erased. Truth to be told, I didn’t know what I was thinking so hard in particular. There were too much things going through my mind. For a starter, what Luhan did last night.

I was sure that once Luhan broke his innocent, hard-working, dependable image, I would fly of the the cloud of nine of rainbows and unicorns. I thought I would be super estatic that Dad finally recogned his flaw and see me instead. But now, I couldn’t seem to shake of worriness inside of me. Should I go look for him? Should I call him?

 But I immediately shook off what I was thinking. Why the hell did I sound so concern? He’s a grown man afterall. And even if he was strayed on the floor or fight with strangers, or drinking till he passed out somewhere, I shouldn’t care. He could take care of himself, I noted inside of my mind.

“You’re dozing off again, Kai.” Kyungsoo shook his dongsaeng’s arm. I looked to my side, and I found that Kyungsoo was sincerely worried about me starting to wander away in thoughts. “I noticed that you may have lots in mind. Care to share?”

I wanted to share a lot of things to him. He was the closest hyung that I could depend on. But something, much much bigger was going to happen and I knew it wouldn’t be pretty. Beside, nothing was clear enough that he could tell Kyungsoo about. That’s why, I just lightly shook his head sideways, feeling unsure myself.

“Is it about girls?" Kyungsoo softly questioned.

Talking about girls, some of my thought did include them. Last night after drowned in the thoughts of Haeri and a sprinkle of Baekhyun, I really couldn’t help to sink in a sudden recognition. It was suddenly came to my mind, that I really had to marry one girl between Soojung and Haeri, right?

That thought really made me miserable. Of course I had an unshaken feeling whenever Soojung was around, and I thought I was already addicted to it. But, I still couldn’t pass the feeling or curiosity about Haeri just like