Christmas final (Dawn POV)

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-Dawn POV-

i didn't feel like walking anymore so I got on a taxi. After telling the taxi driver where I wanted to go, I laid back on to the seat. I stared out at the still very awake city. It was already almost 10 but the holiday spirit was still pretty high. I watched as little kids ran happily around with little Santa hats. 

-flashback-

I was staring into a glass red ornament. I watched as my face became wider and slimmer. It was fun. Suddenly I lifted into the air.

"are having a nice Christmas?" My dad asked as he held me in his arms.

i wrapped my little arms around him and nodded. He kissed my two cheeks and I laughed. Then my daddy started leaning towards the right. We both looked down to see little Kendrick pulling on my dad's sleeve.

He was pouting cutely. "DADDY I WANNA GO UP!!" He cutely shouted.

i tighten my wrap around my day's neck. "NO! MY DADDY!"

we kept bickering and my dad just laughed at us. Kendrick started crying but I still didn't let go. My mom came in with baby Anne in her arms.

"Now Now it's Christmas. Stop fighting. Dawn be a good big sister and come down so Kendrick can have a turn in day's arms ok"

i cuddled in his hold. I shook my head. "My daddy!"

My parents laughed as Kendrick continued to cry.

-back-

"Miss we have arrived." I felt him lightly shake me. I bowed in apology. I was too absorbed in my thoughts. I paid him the amount and got out. 

I looked up and noticed that Exo k's lights were still on so they were probably still partying. I let out a sigh and went inside. 

I went inside the elevator and looked at the floor buttons. I wanted to press "5" but stopped myself and pressed "6" . There's no point in going back. I'm an enemy to them now. Everything that was built in the past little more than a week was now all falling to the ground.  

I took my keys out and unlocked the door to my apartment. The lights came on after I entered. Even though there was light, I felt darkness surrounding me. I felt even more lonely. 

I shook my head. I can't be thinking like this. I can't stop here.

I put my stuff down and dropped on the couch, exhausted. Christmas has never seemed this tiring.

I closed my eyes and just sat there. I let the stillness of the atmosphere comfort me. After about 10 minutes of just lying there, I open my eyes. I look at my stuff. The scrapbook. I completely forgot about it.

I take it into my hands. I just stare at it. For some reason, I could feel rage and sadness overwhelm me. I tighten my grip on it.

Because of them, I'm suffering. Because of my foolishness, I let myself befriend them. Because of them, I have to experience this pain agan. The same pain I started with and told myself to stay away from.

Out of outrage, I threw the scrapbook. It hit the window and ended up falling near the christmas tree. AISH I NEED A BUBBLE BATH! I got up and stomped my way into the bathroom to prepare myself a bubble bath. Maybe that will help make me happier.

-1 hour later-

I had gotten out of the bubble bath and changed into my pajamas. I still didn't feel any better though. I went into my kitchen to make myself hot chocolate. After finished making it, I took it with me to sit on the couch. I the TV in hopes of having it distract me. I flipped through the channels, finding nothing interesting in the end. Frustrated, I threw the remote on the other side of the couch and slammed my cup of hot chocolate on the table. I wailed my arms and legs around like a baby crying.

Once I calmed down a little, I turned towards the Christmas tree. As I looked at it, I noticed something sticking out from the scrapbook. Curiously, I crawled off the couch to the scrapbook. Carefully, I took it out. There were 12 cards.

I opened the first one on the pile.

"Dear Dawn,

    -buing buing- haha Merry Christmas! This is our first Christmas together. I hope we will have a lot of fun. When Baekhyun told us that you were coming, we were all excited. I mean like sure we have been getting closer but we were all unsure if you would come with us. It really me want Christmas to come even sooner. I hope we can all stay friends forever and ever. OH WE SHOULD PRACTICE SOME MARTIAL ARTS TOGETHER ONE DAY!!  - romantic,kung fu panda Tao

I laughed at his cute attempt to draw a panda. I opened the next one.

"Hi Dawn!

    Merry Christmas! I am, like everyone else, very excited to be able to spend Christmas with you for the first time. I still remember that day when I found you crying. I still remember how fragile you felt in my arms. I hope that I will never find you in such a state again. It really does break my heart and probably everyone else's to see you like that. I hope we can stay like this forever and ever. - Lay

DANG! HE DRAWS INCREDIBLE. How in the world does he draw such a realistic of a unicorn? so jealous....next

"Dawn.

      Merry Christmas. I'm still not too sure how I feel about you but through this time period I guess you are ok. Maybe we can go buy bubble tea together. - Sehun

haha bubble tea. eh..pretty short but whatever it feels sincere at least.

"MERRY CHRISTMAS DAWN DAWN!!

   This our first Christmas! hehe I'M SO HAPPY!! Baekhyun is giving me weird looks. I think I'm scaring him since I'm smiling even more but who cares. I WANNA HUG YOU! I WANNA WRITE MORE BUT BAEKIE WON'T LET ME! He's being a meanie since he wants the pen..well it is his pen....BUT I WANNA WRITE...DAWN DAWN HE'S BEING MEAN TO ME!! HELP!! -scribbles-..-more scribbles- ...-YOUR HAPPY VIRUS CHANYEOL

That was interesting...haha what else can I expect from a letter that is written by him. I smiled.

"Merry Christmas Dawn.

   Don't listen to Chanyeol. I was just trying to get my pen WHICH HE STOLE! so I am completely innocent :) so like I'm sure everyone else did or is gonna say..I can't wait to spend our first Christmas with you. I was pretty nervous when I asked you but so happy that I did. I know you may not think we are close enough but we will later on! Just count on us to be there for you! -Baekhyun

HE DREW BACON! haha he would.

"DAWNNNNNN!!!

   MERRY CHRISTMAS!....I am very happy to be your friend........Luhan turn. :) haha that was Xiumin. He wanted to try writing in Chinese but oh well at least he tried. Xiumin says he wants you to go eat bao with him some day :) We are really happy to be able to finally talk to you. I'm sure this Christmas will be great with you here with us. It will one of the best you will ever have! WE ARE ONE! - Xiumin and Luhan

Haha they drew a deer eating a crying bao. pretty cute...

"Hello there Dawn.

   I'm happy to be able say Merry Christmas to you. I can't wait to say it to you in person too. I just wanted you to know that I may be Exo's guardian but that's not all. I am yours too. If you need me just call me. I'll try my best to be there for you. You are special to me and to everyone else too. Don't ever forget that! -Suho

haha he drew a man with HUGE wings. these guys are amazing at drawing.

"Merry christmas. -Kai

I flip the card around. It's all blank. Wow he obviously doesn't like me much. Well even though I've talked to everyone else, he hasn't replied to any of my texts or greetings. Just because I "supposedly" am not nice to his ex doesn't mean he has to stay away from me. I mean they aren't together or anything. Whatever that jerk.

"Merry Christmas :)

   I am Chen. I am your friend...You like my chinese? I am improving! Soon I'll be able to talk to you completely in Chinese. I will be able to talk to you in chinese by next Christmas or hopefully sooner. Thanks for helping me. WISH ME LUCK! - Chen

Chen sure is hardworking. That must be one of his charms. I couldn't stop smiling.

"Dawn MERRY CHRISTMAS!

  Let's leave our past behind us. Let's never let that hurt us. When we started talking again, I was so happy. I was afraid we would never talk ever again. Let's watch each other become number one together. -Kyungsoo

I was happy to be able to talk to you again D.O.

"Dawn,

Merry Christmas. Let me tell you that everyone is like going crazy after hearing that you would come over to celebrate Christmas. Tao won't stop hugging my arm and talking about how happy he is. I mean like I love him and all but sometimes one's mouth needs to shut up but he's too cute for me to say that. Kyungsoo and Suho are going crazy about whether they had enough food. The Baekyeol couple can't stop jumping up and down. Kai is just sitting there. You guys still haven't befriended yet I guess. Don't worry he'll come around. He just not over Kyung Mi yet. The Hunhan couple and XiuChen couple have went in search of last minute present planning for you. You sure know how to make us all worked up don't you? haha well like everyone else I can't wait to celebrate Christmas with you too. Oh yea Dawn you are like my little sister. I will be your big brother so always come to me if you need help got it? good. haha Merry christmas! -Kris

I took all of the cards and hugged them to my chest. Tears fell slowly.

I couldn't believe it. I just lost them after getting them. I wasn't ready to lose them. I wanted them to be here and tell me that they were still my friends. I wanted to finish celebrating Christmas with them. I miss them. I already miss them. Why? Why can't I let myself lose them? Why can't I tell myself everything is alright? Maybe because I have already fallen for them too hard. Maybe it's because I know that it's not gonna be alright without them. Kyung Mi is still gonna make my life miserable but now I don't have Exo to cheer me up. I'm alone...just like in the beginning of this chapter in life...

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kept procrastinating.. :) the final final part will be on Exo POV. ignore mistakes please

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