'Right so we're going to go in a couple at a time so we don't overwhelm him' said Kris

'Sounds good, hyung' Tao nodded in agreement

You were in a pair with Kai, about to go in first when the nurse stopped you.

'Excuse me, who are you?'

'We're here to se Suho- I mean, Joonmyun.' Kai said, kicking himself for not referring to Suho by his birth name.

'Well I'm afraid you can't.'

'What?' you said

'Is something wrong?' Kris asked, slightly frowning.

'You can't go in there. Joonmyun-ssi is currently with a therapist and they won't be done for another half an hour'

'A therapist?' 

'Yes. Now, please leave this area.'

'No, you have to explain to me what's going on.'

'I'm afraid I can't sir. You're not his guardian.'

'But hyung is our guardian!' Sehun said, 'why can't we just see him?! You said we could yesterday!'

'That was until we realised he needed psychological help'

'What on earth are you talking about?' Chanyeol snapped

'Look, I'm here on behalf of Park Daejun. He looks after all of us but he's busy currently. Go and check your system. You'll see a note about passing confidential notes to Kris Wu.'

As the nurse escorted you all back to the reception to check the computer files, you gently nudged Tao.

'Hey. Where's Lay?'

'We're in the hospital, Haneul...'

'Oh. That's right. Sorry, I forgot'

'Don't worry about it'

'Are we going to be able to see Suho soon?'

You both turned to the reception desk where Kris was standing, arms crossed, foot tapping and eyebrows almost touching.

'I don't think that's a good sign. Hyung's irritated...'

'They're saying we can't see him. Not until tomorrow' Chanyeol said, as he made his way over to you

'Tomorrow?... But-'

It's my birthday

And I want Suho home to celebrate it with me...

You looked to your right and saw that the nurses were busy arguing with an angry and het up Kris. You looked to your left and saw Sehun staring out of the window obliviously. You turned around and noticed the sign for the women's bathroom which was in the direction of Suho's room.

'I'm just gonna use the toilet, okay?' you said to Tao, handing him your jacket

'Sure, we'll probably still be here when you come back but be quick'

You nodded, 'will do'

 

Taking off down the corridor, you turned a right and swept past the bathroom. Making a sharp turn at the hand sanitizer whilst also remembering to dispense some onto your palm, the door automatically opened and your pace naturally quickened, adrenaline rushing through your veins due to the forbidden task you were doing.

You saw a gangly looking man leave Suho's room as you hid behind a pillar, checking that the coast was clear. As the door began to swing shut, you quickly and swiftly slipped in, shutting the door quietly behind you and not taking your eyes off the handle for a second. Once you were satisfied that your position wasn't compromised, you turned to see Suho who was staring at you with wide, open eyes.

'H-Haneul' he stuttered, 'w-what are you doing here?'

'I'm here to see you of course. They said we couldn't see you until tomorrow'

'Oh... I see...'

'Oppa...' you said cautiously, taking a seat beside Suho's bed, 'why do you need a therapist?'

'H-Have they not told you?...'

'Told us? Told us what?'

Suho's bottom lip began quivering and his hands began shaking. You held them to steady him, feeling concerned about why his body was doing this. What was stressing him out so much?

'Haneul... I...'

He lowered his voice and managed to get out a whisper

'You're going to be so disappointed'

'How could I be disappointed in you? You're the best' you said quietly

Suho shook his head, 'no I'm not... Haneul... I'm the worst'

His voice was raspy and sore and the words struggled to form on his lips.

'D-Do you promise not to be angry with me?...'

You nodded, gripping his hand a bit tighter.

'What happened?'

'Those pills... I overdosed on purpose'

Tears rolled out from Suho's eyes, hitting the clean, crisp, white sheets and disappearing into the fabric. 

'I wanted to give up everything. I'm so sorry.'

You closed your eyes, wanting to process the information better but it only worried Suho more.

'Oh no, you're disappointed.' 

He began crying even more.

'Haneul, please, I'm so sorry-' he croaked

'Don't be sorry, Suho' you said, wiping your eyes

'Are you disappointed in me?'

'No'

'Am I weak?'

'No'

'Then what's wrong with me?'

'Nothing. You're perfect the way you are'

'I should have told you about the tablets, I'm sorry. I just didn't want you to worry.'

'It's alright. Tao's told me it's no more secrets and I forgive you all anyway.'

'Th-That's a relief'

'...Are you still scared?'

'What are the others going to think about me?'

'Nothing.' you said, 'nothing at all. Why would their opinions of you change? They know you the best, Suho'

You stood up and hugged Suho awkwardly, dodging the IV drip in his arm. He could feel his shoulder getting wet from your crying and he gently patted your back with his free hand.

'I'm sorry to ruin your birthday like this.'

You retracted from the embrace, staring at Suho who was now smiling a little.

'You didn't think I knew? Kai's not the only one who looks over documents of new students, especially the ones we have to look out for.'

You were speechless and luckily, Suho had more to say.

'I'm being let out tonight actually... I'll be back tonight.'

'Really?'

Suho nodded, 'are you happy?'

'Yeah.' you replied, unable to contain your smiles. 'Oh, crikey, I should get back. I should get back to the others. I told them I was going to the bathroom.'

You gave Suho one last hug and quickly rushed out, taking care not to be caught. Suho sighed once you left, looked around whilst carefully removing the drip from his arm and got out of bed, making his way over to the window.

 

As you approached the corridor again, Kris was waiting, still tapping his foot.

'Where the devil were you? Have you been causing mischief?' 

'No, I was simply-'

You were cut off by alarm sounds, blaring down the corridor and the noise of almost every nurse on the ward's beeper beeping, signalling they were needed. 

'I was just in Suho's room' you said, trying to be heard over the noise, 'what's going on?'

'It's some sort of emergency it seems' Baekhyun said

There was a crackle on the overhead speakers followed by a clear voice.

'Can all free nurses please attend to room 1084 please. That's room 1-0-8-4. Emergency code red.'

'What does code red mean?' Tao asked you

'There's a life in danger. In room 1084. Wait-'

'Isn't that hyung's room?...' Sehun said

'Didn't you just see Suho?' Kris asked you

'Yeah I did. And he was fine.'

'Hyung!' Sehun dashed off down the corridor, following the train of nurses.

'Sehun! Wait!' Kai ran off after him and soon you were all running back down the corridor, turning right and making a sharp turn through the automatic doors. 

 

Upon reaching Suho's room, you could hear shouts of struggle from him as nurses attempted to get him down from the window ledge. When you saw Suho standing outside the window, hospital gown billowing in the wind, you wanted to scream and you would have done if D.O hadn't clasped your mouth shut and turned you around so your head was buried in his chest.

'H-Hyung...' Sehun said, stepping into the room, 'Hyung, it's Sehun... Oh Sehun.'

Suho turned around to see Sehun's panic stricken face. A nurse tried to remove him from the room but Sehun shook her off screaming 'you can't make me leave my hyung!'.

'S-Sehun-ah...'

Suho's grip on the window frame was making his knuckles turn white.

'Hyung... Um... Um... A-Are you okay?'

'What the hell is he doing?' one nurse muttered, 'talking to someone who's suicidal isn't going to help'

Kris looked at her disapprovingly.

Suho was shaking still, his knees about to give way and in any moment, he could have fallen and plummeted to his death.

'Hyung?'

'Sehun-ah... I'm sorry...' Suho said

'Why are you sorry, hyung?' Sehun replied, inching his way forward a toe at a time.

'I can't carry on... Sehun... I- I'

His right foot slipped and everyone gasped. Suho managed to maintain his place on the narrow ledge and Sehun took a couple of deep breaths to calm himself down.

'I can't do this... Sehun, am I weak? I'm sorry I've disappointed you.'

'Hyung, you're not weak'

Sehun slowly stepped closer, reaching his hand out.

'Don't come closer!' Suho shouted, 'Or else I'll let go and jump'

Sehun's breaths shallowed but he tried to maintain focus.

'Hyung... It's going to be alright... It's going to be alright... Just get down from the ledge and it'll be alright again.'

'Sehun... I...'

'You're stronger than this, hyung. I know it. Where's the hyung that can wake me up on a Saturday morning and get me to come food shopping? And who's the one that can actually control what food I put in the trolley?'

'Sehun...'

'Luhan-hyung would cave in immediately but you were the only one who could really tell me no. And I actually listened to you because I look up to you. Hyung, you're not a disappoinment at all. You're hardworking, everything we aim to be. Chanyeol-hyung even said it himself and Lay. We all look up to you.'

'I...I...'

'Just... Come down from the ledge and we can make it right, okay?'

Sehun stretched out his hand so that it was in arms reach for Suho.

'Take my hand and it'll be okay.'

Suho looked at it and nodded, slowly reaching forwards. He grabbed hold of Sehun's hand but his right foot slipped again and this time, he lost control. He grabbed onto Sehun's wrist with both hands and Sehun shrieked in pain, his wrist still not fully healed from the previous accident. You screamed and grabbed hold of D.O, clutching him tightly whilst Tao rushed over to the window ledge to help haul Suho back up as his body form was in the best condition by far.

With the help of one other nurse, the three of them were able to bring Suho's frail frame back to safety. The windows in the room were locked and everyone was escorted out.

 

 

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How was it? I'm slowly easing you into the boom boom boom plot of this story that will hopefully blow yo mind~

(so yes, this isn't the highest level of drama, I gots even more in da bag)