{a/n} I KNOW I BEYOND I REALLY DO AND THIS IS STILL GETTING VOTES AND VIEWS PLS U GUYS CAN BEAT ME IF U SEE ME IRL BUT HERE IS A NICE double update BCUZ U ALL DESERVE THAT OK <3

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I couldn't sleep that night at all. So I brought Mina into the room and told her everything. 

"What, nope. What? Nope. You... nope." She said flustered. 

"I'm not lying." I moped and layed down on my bed buring my head into a pillow. 

"Are you serious?"

"I swear to the pearl sapphire blue ocean." I said momentarily taking my head out of the pillow.

"Oh my god, this is serious." Mina gasped.

"Yeah, exactly!"

"But I thought you liked Kiseop!"

"THAT'S WHAT I THOUGH TOO!"

"Ok wait, I'm bringing Hana unnie in to this."

"Wait yu're what? Do not-"

"HANA UNNIE!" Mina screamed before I could finish.

"... call her." I groaned and heard Hana unnie come in. 

"What's wrong?!" Hana asked with her eyes widened. 

I screamed muffled into the pillow again, "Close the door!"

She closed it and repeated herself. Mina pointed to me, "Hyun Ae's in love with Kevin!" I looked sadly at Hana unnie taking my head out of the pillow.

I waited for her reaction and finally after a few minutes she started laughing. Me and Mina looked at each other confused.

"It's about time! Eun Sun!!"

Eun Sun unnie also came into the room, "What?" She asked while stuffing some chips in .

"CLOSE THE DOOR!" All of us screeched.

"OKAY OKAY OH MY GOD WAIT." She closed it.

"Okay, okay so code name realization man." Hana grinned.

"Code name what?" I asked confused. 

"No way!? Finally!" Eun Sun gasped while munching on the chips with full, "Seriously about time yo." She joked.

I sat up straight, "You guys are kidding."

"Nope, I mean c'mon have you not noticed?"

"Noticed what?"

"How much Kevin has been in love with you all this time?" Hana furrowed her eyebrows and frowned.

"He... he has?"

"Ever since you've met." She said with a sad smile.

"I'm the only one who knows?" Hana asked sadly, "About Victoria?"

"What?" I asked.

"Hyun Ae," She sighed, "Why do you think she left the both of you? Is it not clear? Do you know how hard it must have been for Victoria?"

"She knew?" I gasped. 

"She left because she was hurting too much every day, she loves him too much. She loves him so much that she knew that he loved you. And to let him be happy, she left so you two could end up together."

"But... I was..."

"Oblivious." Eun Sun finished for us.

Minah sighed, "You messed up Hyun Ae. Wow.

I groaned, "Victoria! She did nothing wrong!! I can't believe myself... And Kevin, he must have been hurting every day." A tear escaped my eye. I can't believe myself. "I... I don't want to hurt anyone anymore."

"You have to set things straight, and that mean someone has to get hurt Hyun Ae. " Hana umma hugged me.

"Kiseop." Mina said quietly.

"I can't."

Hana hugged me tighter and ran her fingers through my hair, "You have to honey."

I sobbed into her shoulder.

Later that night when everyone had left my room I began to think back. I thought back to when I had my first crush, Chendoong oppa. Even then when Kevin didn't even know about it, he was beside me. Back when Victoria had left us, he blamed her and not me even though he didn't even know the entire story. I couldn't imagine... how he was doing when I told him I was in love. 

I can't imagine how much I must have broke him. I know what I'm going to do first thing tomorrow, I'm going to meet up with the boys.