You’re just my past... just my past... i never tried looking for you. I never told if you left a baby inside me, in my tummy...

“What’s your plan today Yoona?”

“go home fast and prepared dinner, my boyfriend will come too.”

“ah i know....”

“what happen? Did something that i must doing?”

“ah no... nothing, just want to ask you go to drink.”

“d-drink? Ah Im very sorry... maybe you can ask Hyuna.”

“ah~ hyuna have a boyfriend too... maybe she will prepared dinner like you do. haha” i chukled...

“ne. im sorry Jaejoong sshi.”

“no problem, we can go at another day.” I turn off my notepad and leaving salon.

I picked yoobin first. Today is a Changmin’s birthday. So I’ll placed yoobin at umma’s house. But i can’t stay there for a long time. I have an another ‘bussiness’. After i celebrate the birthday and give changmin a present, im leaving.

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I stopped my car when I arrived at Seventh Heaven’s bar and hotel. I took a deep breathe. What should i do? Im so nervous to meet him. othokke?

Maybe it’s a same.... the dance floor, the lamp, the noise music... and some s there.

I walked slowly and sat on the bar.

“what’s your order sir?” a young bartender asked me he’s very young...

“ah give me tequilla with lemons.”

“Ok.”

We met here... our first met...

Hhhh.... at kind a place? Is Yoobin’s father a bad boy?

“here.” the young bartender smiled at me.

“hey boy, i wanna ask...”

“yes?”

“do you know jung yunho? he’s worker here, he work as waiter.”

“Pardon? Jung who?”

“Jung yunho.”

“can you show me his picture or photo?”

“ah~ i don’t have...”

“Im sorry. Im new worker here maybe you can ask my another friend.”

“Ok... but i saw many new worker here. and they’re looks very young.”

“yes. And Im newest here.”

“Kim Jaejoong?”

I lifted my head after heard someone called my name.

“Hyunjoong! Long time no see!”

“ah!! is really Jaejoong!”

“yes, i am!”

“Look you’re fat now.! hhaa btw Luhan, he’s my old friend” Hyunjoong introduce my self to young bartender.

“Oh Im sorry. Im Luhan.”

“ne. Im Kim Jaejoong.”

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“jung Yunho?! “

“yes... i looking for him...”

“did you two has broke up three years ago?”

“broke up what? we never had a kind relationship... we just a friend.”

“but he hasn’t work here since three years or two years ago.”

“do you know where’s he now?”

“im sorry i dont know, i never ask him because he’s so strange after you leaving him.”

“what? strange?”

“did you two contact each other?”

“never.... since three years ago.”

“oh... im sorry jaejoong... i don’t know. But why you’re so sudden looking for him?”

“ah... no,just reminds me if he’s a my good friend.”

“Im the oldest worker here. if you want, you can ask our old friend like leeteuk, or eunhyuk.”

“yes... just give me their phone number.”

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Now Im alone, i sat at near river Han... the weather so cold, but im comfort with my thick jacket.

Pip pip pip

I pressed my phone, wanna calling my umma first.

“Hello umma. How’s Yoobin? she sleep?”

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“Ne... I... Im walking arround with my friends, some old friends...”

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“Yes... please take care her for me, I’ll pick her at the morning... please prepared her bag and clothes, make her lunch box, she disliked carrot and spinach... just for tomorrow, don’t adding it to her lunchbox.”

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“ah im forget.... tomorrow I’ll wear a pink-shirt, please make her wear her pink hoodie. Tomorrow we will go to the movie.”

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“and last... please hold the phone in her ear, I want to say something.”

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“is Yoobin right? Im mommy dear... Mommy just want to say I LOVE YOU. Good night and have a sweet dream.”

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“Hyukkie...? im Jaejoong. Do you still remember me?”

“Jaejoong who? Kim Jaejoong?”

“yes it’s me.”

“ah... what’s up?”

“why you’re stop working at 7th heaven cafe?”

“hahah Im growing old now... can’t stay there for along time.”

“ne... there’s so much young y dancer there.”

“yak! But im still y you know??”

“hahha ah i want to ask something to you.”

“yes? What is it?”

“do you know where’s jung Yunho live now?”

“Yunho?”

“yes...”

“ah wait. i have his address, last year i visited him.”

“really??”

“hold on, i’ll search his address.”

“send me a text after i shut our conversation.”

“ok.”

PIP

Oh my God.... why my heart fells strange now... like im happy now, but im happy because i’ll make yoobin be a Korean citizen. Not longer, my phone is rang... it’s a text message. I got it. Jung Yunho... tomorrow we will meet. You must look your cute daughter, she has an eyes and lips same with you, but she’s pretty like me.

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“Mommy!!”

“Mommy’s daughter~” i hug and carrying her on my shoulder.

“she eat very well... and sleep tight.” Umma pats her butts and give me a bright smiled.

“she can speak Korean?”

“yes... little by little, but Changmin speaks english too... they two make me confused.”

“Hahaa Yoobin really help me. I practice english with her.” Changmin wear his shoes, ready go to the school.

“Bye bye uncle changmin...”

“Bye bye. Uncle really likes you. Chu~~”

“Yak! ert! You kissed my daughter!”

“Im sorry hyung, i can’t hold it :P” Changmin runs.

“aish that kid. Btw Mom we will go now.”

“Ok... be carefull, and take care Yoobin... my beloved granchild.”

“hehehe” Yoobin laugh.

“Look... your grandmom very love you dear.”

“I Love you. Haha grannie only can said that = =a”

“I love you too grannie... muah <3”

“Look she’s cuteeee!!” *my umma fangirling = =v

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A pink man and a pink little girl walking arround at Seoul after watch the movie. They hold each other, eat ice cream and cotton candy. They dating now~ haha

“Mommy... I missed uncle yoochun.”

“Why so sudden dear?”

“Uncle yoochun’s so funny and humble. I miss a person like him.”

“really? But what about mommy? Am i doesn’t funny or humble like uncle yoochun?”

“heheh mommy is perfect.”

“oh my babyyy~~ why you’re so cuteee~”

“Mommy hurt!”

“ah~ now mommy will bring you somewhere. Are you ready?”

“where’s mom?go to the King palace?”

“No... “

“at the zoo?”

“No.”

“then?”

“it’s a secret. Hahaha, cmon girl,”

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It’s a mansion. Ah no.. it’s an apartement, but... why this place is so horrible?even more frightening than my grandmother’s house.

“Mommy... we will meet a ghost or monstel?”

“ah~ this must be wrong address.” I called eunhyuk for fast response.

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“Hyukkie! Do you sent me a right Yunho’s address?”

“no, it’s true.last year i visited there.”

“But the house looks horrible, the house is empty.”

“you can ask the neighbour right? Im busy now.”

“ah~ ok ok... im sorry bother you.”

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“mommy? Who’s yuno?”

“Mommy’s old friend... “ I sigh.

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“Excuse me... anybody home?” i knocked the door of neighbour house.

“Yes.. Im coming~”

“annyonghaseyo. Im Kim jaejoong and she’s my daughter.”

“yes?”

“I wanna ask you~ do you know jung yunho? a man who living there.” I pointed an old house.

“Im sorry i don’t know... I heard if the house is empty for a years ago. And i just living here just a month ago.maybe you can ask another neighbour.”

“I already do that... but the answer are same.”

“ah~ Im sorry... i can’t help you so much.”

“ah don’t worry... thank you, Im leaving now.”

“Ok.”

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Where are you Jung Yunho? i was said if you’re just a past... but I don’t know if now i need you. What a pity me... and i sigh more.

“mommy alright?”

“ne... im Ok dear.”

“mom looks sad.”

“who said? Haha mommy is well.”

“who’s yuno mom?”

“he’s your da—“ I covered my mouth.

“? Who mom?”

“he’s mommy friend dear, like mom said before.”

“is he funny like uncle yoochun?”

aish—i think my daughter poisoned by yoochun. “No dear, he’s not funny but romantic.”

“He gave Mommy a flower? He ask mommy to saw the sunset?”

“whaaat?? How do you knows dear?? Upps!”

“? Did Mommy told me if flower and sunset are romantic?”

“ah~ that’s true... hehe hee” haha my beloved daughter so smart~ >__<

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I opened my notebook, while Yoobin runs and play with her dolls.

I type ‘JUNG YUNHO’ at search engine. And make a weird expression ----à = =a

“Jung Yunho from TVXQ?? Aishhh who is he? And why you jung yunho has a same name with him. argggh. Tha’s useless search him here. pabbo.” I closed the side bar ... that’s full contents by gossip and rumour about Jung Yunho from TVXQ.

I saw the blue sky~ ah... a sweet spring sky~ make me sleepy, but can’t... i must finished my design and take care Yoobin until she’s sleep.

Rrrr Rrrr

“Yoboseyo? Yes junsu?”

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“ha?? You two will comeback to korea??”

PIP

Hm... what if junsu and yoochun knows who’s yoobin father soon? T^T ah... i must find Jung Yunho, borrow his birth certificate, make our marriage certificate and make yoobin be a Korean. Then keep all the secret from junsu and Yoochun. Im really don’t want people arround me knows if yoobin created by someone who don’t love me.

“Mommy! Uncle Yoochun and auntie Junsu will come?”

“haha yes baby~ but mommy still don’t know what is the reason.”

“Yaaay~”

“don’t yell~”

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Today i and my family have a picnic at my backyard. Changmin and appa bring yoobin go to fishing at lake. Me and umma prepared seasoning for the fish.

“did you take care yoobin well?”

“yes mom.”

“she never asked his father?”

“no, mom... and everything will be Ok...”

“You’re not trying look for him?”

I sigh for a while.

“it seems not good... look at your face, maybe better you tell umma who’s the father.”

“I can’t find him umma.”

“mwo? You already search him?”

“Yes... I need his birth certificate to make yoobin’s birth certificate.”

“what? what do you mean? Now yoobin is not korean citizen?”

“Yes mom... they will deported Yoobin if i can complete the administration.

“what?? omo~ you must find him as fast possible.”

“yes... i keep trying. But i need him only just to make yoobin to be a korean citizen.”

“You’re false.... you need it for Yoobin’s future. He must loves yoobin as his daughter.”

“Im not sure he can accepted yoobin as his daughter... he never knows if i have been pregnat and gave yoobin’s birth.he’s just a past.”

“dear... don’t you love him?”

“No, i don’t umma... “

“those eyes can’t lie.... you still love him.”

“umma.... i just love yoobin. I don’t love her father.”

“if you don’t love him, so he must love you.”

“Im not sure...”

“What are you talking about? You two a ex lover right?”

“ahh umma! Stopped it. There’s no Love between us. Now.”

“now? yes i accepted this if that happen now... but at past? you love him.”

.........

Yes... i love him at past . why? but now im not sure with my feeling. For a three years my heart is empty, i have no lover, no boyfriend and i only loves yoobin. Do I still hoping with Yunho? ah no... HE’S JUST A PAST.