The hyungs came outside just minutes after I came back inside.

“YoungBae-ah come on let’s go home” Seungri said placing his hand on my shoulder pushing me towards the van.

“No I don’t want go” I said stopping Seungri form pushing me any closer to the van.

“Come on you two we’re all ready to go” TOP said peeking his head out the van door. Seungri got in but I just stood there kind of kicking at something imaginary on the ground.

“YoungBae you coming or are you just going to stand there?” he asked a slight smile on his face.

“Yeah I guess I’ll stand here” I shrugged.

TOP disappeared in the van and Jiyong’s  face appeared out.

“YoungBae come on we’re going back to the hotel” Jiyong said.

“I’ll walk” I replied.

“It’s getting late, I don’t think walking is such a good idea plus you look pretty tired” he said looking at me a little concerned.

“I’ll be fine the hotel isn’t that far away from here…I just need a little time…” I trailed off thinking about today.

“Oh I understand, well then I’ll see you back at the hotel, be safe” he said closing the van door. I waited till the van pulled off before a began walking.

The hotel wasn’t that far from the dance studio but I just needed some time to calm myself down.

I felt pretty bad after exploding on Daesung when he told me about Amaya. I didn’t mean to act like that I guess my emotions took over me. I don’t know why they came over me like that, I didn’t even know I felt that way for Amaya but I guess I did.

When I seen her at Dot’s that day before going to the club I fell in love with her beauty, then at the club I fell in love with the electricity I felt when I danced with her. And then today I fell in love with the way she moved.  Love I guess that’s the problem I fell in love with her features but not actually with her. I mean I barely even know her but when she ran off like that while we were talking  I just broke.

I know when Daesung was talking to me he must have been confused on why I was taking what he was saying so hard. To be completely honest I don’t know myself why I took it the way I did. I thought that if she was with us I would get to know her better and then when Daesung gave me the news on her thoughts I couldn’t believe that there was a possibility that she wasn’t going to come to Korea with us.

I found myself in front of the hotel, wow that really was a short walk but just the thing I needed. My head was kind of cleared and I was no longer upset. I went in and reached the hotel room and found Daesung on the couch reading.

“Hey Daesung” I said slowly walking over to him.
“Hey, how was your walk?” he asked concerned.

“It was just what I needed” I said smiling a little.

“Well…”

“Daesung I’m sorry for earlier, I didn’t mean to get upset with you I’m just a little I don’t know” I said cutting him off to apologize.

“It’s okay, you don’t have to explain to me your feelings I understand” he said looking up from his book smiling. I smiled back in relief.

“It’s getting late and you’ve had a long day , you should get some rest” he said.

“Your right, night” I said going towards the room.

“In the end it’s her decision” Daesung called from the living room.

I took off my shirt and climbed into bed.

“I just hope her decision is right” I whispered to myself as I drifted off to sleep.

A/N: So here's Taeyang's thoughts about the so far events... Might not be able to udate for a while due to being majorly behind on homework and having to study for finals but i'll try my best to update when I can. Until next time seeya! and thanks!