Realization

You Don't Know Love

After walking for awhile, Chanyeol finds himself stopping in front of a familiar place. His hand grabbed onto the handle hesitantly and slide the door of the class. Finally stepping his foot inside, he's not surprised to see how the room hasn't change at all, though the room feels much more suffocating for him than before. He observed the place, thinking how familiar he is with the room. Being in here clears his head. A sudden memory flash into his head making him smile to himself.

He realizes that he hasn't been smiling lately. Chanyeol shrugged the thought and took one of the chair, leaning his head on the desk, letting sleep take over him.

 

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After a couple of minutes, he felt someone poking at his shoulder, but he only grunt in reply. When the poking doesn't stop he finally raise his head to see the person who just disturbed his sleep. There in front of him was no other than byun baekhyun, someone who has been occupying his mind for the past few weeks.

"Baekhyun? W-what are you doing here?"

"You fell asleep."

"Uh yeah.. I was kinda tired."

"You could've missed the next class you know?"

Chanyeol rest his cheek on his palm looking away, "I don't feel like going to class anyway."

"Well that's not good, you don't want to have bad record on your report right?"

"Skipping one class wont hurt anyone..."

Baekhyun was thinking cutely, "Hmm... you're right, you know what? I think i'll join you."

Baekhyun grabbed the chair in front of him, leaning her cheeks onto her palms. Chanyeol was a little taken back at her action but decided to ask her anyway, "Umm baek, not to be rude... but why are you here?"

"I just told you, I want to skip class too."

"But like, why here though? I mean, I know you would rather hang out with kai instead of me so-"

"Don't you want me here?" she asked sadly.

"N-no! I mean yes! I mean ugh," he slap himself.

"I m-mean, you can- you can do whatever you like." He sunk into his seat.

She smiled softly at him making chanyeol heart beats faster not knowing why. "You know yeol, I think I can answer why I'm actually here."

Chanyeol gather himself up, "Oh y-yeah? What is that?"

"I guess I've missed you," She looked at him with gentle eyes.

"W-what?" his eyes turns wide.

"I miss hanging out with you, I miss our hideout, I miss our silly talk, I miss our singing session, I miss your voice." Baekhyun mentioned the moments while looking around the class. She stopped looking around and her eyes went back to chanyeol. "Most importantly, I missed you."

Chanyeol was staring at her, eyes popping out. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out from it. He looked to his lap, not being able to form his words. She looked at him fidgeting in his seat and pouts at herself, "You don't feel the same way don't you?"

She sigh while fixing her glasses and continues, "Its okay, I understand-"

"NO! I missed you too! More than you know." Chanyeol grabbed her hand assuring her.

He was weak once again because baekhyun just gave him a smile that is way too beautiful, "I'm glad then."

He lets go of her hand but facing her this time and waits for her to talk because he was currently lost at words. Baekhyun looked to her right, standing up to open the window, letting the wind in. When she sat once again she looked at the view from her seat, "Refreshing isn't it?"

"Y-yeah," Chanyeol couldn't help but to stare at her face.

His eyes were tracing her face from the top and slowly making its way down. He observed baekhyun carefully, noticing how her skin looks so delicate and soft. Her hair was surprisingly not pulled into a ponytail, leaving it down passed her shoulder. Baekhyun then looked back at him, not saying anything at all. The both of them were silent, only looking at one and another.

He was absorbed in her crescent eyes are shining brightly, glistening like stars in the night sky. looking lower, He suddenly remembers how he wants to poke her cute button nose in a joking way, making her scrunch her face in a cute way. Lastly, his eyes then landed on her lips. The small pink lips that has been haunting him since the day they kissed in the very same room they are in right now. He wonders why he returned the kiss back then and how right it feels to have his lips against her soft ones. He didn't forgot the mole that is resting above her lips adding up to her cuteness, making him want to kiss her lips over and over again.

 

 

Why is he feeling this way? He never felt like this before, not even with Jinah.

Why is that when he hangs out with baekhyun he never once feel tired or bored? In fact she only made him want to see her more.

Why does his heart beats quickly when they make the smallest contact, like when their hand brushed?

Why does he embarrass himself just to see her smile?

Why does talking to baekhyun for hours feels like minutes?

Why does he feels angry every time he sees her hanging out with kai?

Why does he wants to protect her from the people who bullies her?

Why does he has the urge to hug her every time he sees her?

Why is that when talks about his future he could see her being in it?

 

 

When he's done questioning himself he realizes something that he should've known from a long time ago. He finally realizes that he's in love with her, actually he might've had been in love with baekhyun way before she confessed to him. He tried to think hard at the sudden realization, gathering the things he just found out. He got a grip of himself and accepted the fact that he is indeed in love with Byun Baekhyun. When he finally snapped out of himself he actually forgot that she was actually sitting across him all along. How did she manage to made him fall for her without even trying? He stares at her confusedly, "Baekhyun-ah."

"Hm?"

"I-i have something to tell you."

"What is it?"

Chanyeol was struggling with his words. He is thinking very carefully of what he should say to her, unaware of her moving from her seat to the one beside him. After a minute of arranging the words in his head, he finally got the courage and words to say to the girl. Just as he looks up, he wonders why the girl is nowhere to be seen.

"So-"

"AAAHH!" Chanyeol let out an unmanly scream looking to his right.

"-what were you about to say?" Baekhyun asked hesitantly.

"Whoa you surprised me," Chanyeol holds his chest trying to steady his heartbeat.

"You're easily scared aren't you?" She smiles teasingly.

"A-am not." He pretends to dust his uniform.

She laughs at his attempt on covering his embarrassment. Chanyeol couldn't help but laugh as well.

 

yeah so he did make a fool out of himself but if he get to hear her angelic laugh he wouldn't mind embarrassing himself further.

 

Going back to what he was about to say, he grabs both of baekhyun's hand catching her attention, turning it fully back to him. "Anyway, as I was saying-"

Baekhyun shushed him before he gets to say another word, "I know what you're going to say."

Chanyeol stares at her weirdly but baekhyun only giggle when he tilts his head out of confusion, "You do?"

All of the sudden baekhyun leans in towards chanyeol, as if she was asking for a kiss from the giant. Chanyeol was surprised at her action yet excited at the same time, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes leaning into her waiting for their lips to touch. After a couple seconds the kiss is still not happening.

Just when he was about to push his lips on her the school bell rings really loudly, causing him to open his eyes hoping to see the girl he was about to kiss but was faced with a desk instead. Chanyeol rises up from his seat, looking around finally understanding that it was all just a dream. So all this time he was kissing the desk? Chanyeol face-palming himself. He then leaned his head back to the desk sighing in frustration.

Although it was just a dream, Chanyeol noticed that whatever he was feeling in the dream is his true feelings. Even though he didn't get the chance to kiss the girl, at least he understand his true feelings now. Getting up from the seat he exited the classroom knowing that is dismissal time already.

 

 

Chanyeol didn't realize the window on his left was opened.

 

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nurazainal #1
Chapter 32: i've finished reading all the chapters! and currently looking forward to new updates from you author-nim! heheheheh i cant waitttt :'D
kaishoney
#2
Chapter 32: okay i finished it just for 1 day sksksks tysm for this many updates, ㅠㅠ.. i cant wait for what's gonna happen next!
nurazainal #3
Chapter 4: this story is that goodddd ♡
bitterharpy
#4
Chapter 32: Really enjoying this!