Hwasa

I ran to lay on my bed with a heavy heart. Why the hell do I feel like I can't breathe? I covered my face with my pillow, "I can't believe at how cold he looked at me.. damn, I feel like the baddest woman on earth.." I whispered to myself. "I get it when he's all smiley in front of the camera, since every celebrity do that. He could've just asked for the recording to atleast delay a bit if his situation was already like that.." Why do I keep on talking to myself! And the moment I caught him earlier, he was already burning up! How could he allow himself to catch a cold terrible as that— argh. Why am I even worrying? Thinking about him? I.. I thought.. I thought I'm gonna leave it all up to our fate? What happened, Ahn Hyejin!

I can't believe that I lost every guard that I've managed to put up for the past 2 years of never interacting with him.. how could this all happened? Do I really like him that much? Even until now? Even after 2 years? Even if I knew that he already forgot about me? Even if he looks at me with cold and different eyes?

I would also do the same if I was on his position, being left out suddenly.. but I didn't know that it would hurt this much to receive those cold look, when all gave me before was a warm and geniune bright smile.. I suddenly felt like I have to make it up for it all. Dating ban is already gone, but would he even bother to be involve with me again, considering the bad experience I gave him even if he's just a friend? I wanna make it up to him— wait. My phone is ringing.. It's Seonghwa oppa. Who's that? It sounds very familiar— Gray oppa!!!

"Oppa?"
Hyejin-ah. Wow, I'm quite surprised you picked up the phone..
"Oh.. I actually just happen to grab my phone then saw your call..
what is it by the way?"
Hmm, sorry for the bother. I didn't really think you'd pick up.
"It's fine, oppa. Sorry too."
I'd take that as an apolog