Mir’s P.O.V

             No corner of this apartment has been spared. In the last three days we’ve had everywhere. When I say everywhere, I mean like literally everywhere, In the bedroom, bathroom, living room, kitchen, even the balcony. I’m kind of wondering how I can still even walk.  Today is just an ordinary day. We’re counting down the days until we return to Seoul. I can’t imagine going to sleep alone anymore, or waking up without Joon’s warm body next to mine, or his constant teasing when I forget about something, or us going shopping then coming home to make our meals together. I just can’t bring myself to be without him every hour of the day. I’ve grown so used to us being inseparable these past few months, I can’t remember ever being without him. I was sitting outside of Star Buck’s waiting for Joon, we’re hanging out with the annoying hyungs because they won’t stop harassing us. They still don’t know that we’re together. How much more obvious can we get? I mean we hold hands, and kiss, and do what any other normal couple does. Are they pretending not to know, or they seriously have no idea? Joon came out with our drinks just as G.O, Seung Ho, and Thunder made their way to us.

“Hey hyungs, what took you guys so long?” I asked sliding the sun glasses off my face and grabbing the mocha frappuccino Joon handed me.

“Doongie here couldn’t decide what to wear.”

“Ahh seems possible.” I was lost in my thoughts. I was tuning out the conversation. What’s going to happen if his dad finds out about me? Will Joon stay there? Will he, will he still love me the same? Will he trust me enough to tell me about his problems? I was pulled back to reality by three irritating screams.

“YOU’RE REALLY TOGETHER?”

“YOU GUYS ALREADY HAD ?”

“MIR ARE YOU PREGNANT? DO YOU FEEL NASEUS? DO YOU HAVE ANY CRAVINGS?” the last person who spoke made me almost choke on my drink due to the extreme stupidity.

“Are you dumb or something? What did G.O hyung do to you? I’m a guy I can’t get pregnant…” I was thinking about what Thunder just asked…are you pregnant? We’ll never be able to have a baby of our own. I felt a small pain in my chest and excused myself to the bathroom. I locked the door, when I made sure nobody was on the other end I let the tears come. I hugged my knees and cried silently. I’ll never be able to see little Joon’s running around. The tears just kept coming and coming. They were falling like a waterfall, there seemed to be no end. I heard a knock outside the door.

“Mir, you okay?” it’s Joon. How long have I been in here? I checked my watch realized it’s been almost seven minutes.

“Yah maknae, what’s wrong?”

“Don’t yell at him hyung!”

“Sorry…”

“Mireu can you please open the door?” I felt more tears run down my cheeks.

“Go away…” I cried out and kicked the door. I heard the knob being jiggled and the door being pulled. After a few seconds of trying it stopped. I heard them walk away. I can’t give him anything…

        All of a sudden the door opened and there was Joon with an employee.

“Thank you.” He said, walked in and closed the door behind him. “Mir what’s wrong?”

“Nothing! Go away!” I choked out, pushing him a bit.

“Baby tell me what’s wrong, I’m here for you, you know that right?” he held me against him and patted my back. I let a few strangled sobs escape me as I put my arms around his back.

“I can’t give you anything…” I shook against him. Joon raised my chin so I could look at him.

“Mir I don’t need anything or anyone but you.” He wiped my tears with his thumb and pushed my hair out of my face. “What brought this on?”

“We can’t have kids, what if your dad finds out you’re dating me? What if your aunt doesn’t like me after turning you gay? Won’t she want grandchildren? Don’t you want kids? I know I do and we can’t do any of that.” I was looking at the floor as I spoke. He just held me tighter.

“Of course I want kids Mir, but having you with me is more than enough for me. I don’t care what my dad thinks, as for my aunt she loves you. She actually kind of thought you were my boyfriend when we visited her…”

“Really?”

“Yes. Really”

“Are you really sure she won’t hate me?”

“Of course she won’t! Why would she in the first place?”

“I don’t know…”

“See, there’s no reason for her not to like you.” He stood up then pulled me up after him. “Don’t cry alright? If you need to vent, cry, nag, or anything else just come to me, arasso?” I nodded and we walked out hand in hand.

           When we reached the table it was a bit awkward. Nobody was talking, the only sounds were of us sipping our coffees or fingers drumming on the table and the occasional forced laugh.

“So Mir are you alright?” Cheongdoong broke the silence at last looking at me carefully. Joon was holding my hand under the table; he gave it a light squeeze for encouragement.

“Yeah sorry about that…”

“As long you’re alright. Let us know if something’s bothering you okay?”

“Okay.”

“Good! Now tell us, why didn’t you two inform us about you being together already?”

“We thought it’d be obvious we were together.” We said shrugging.

“Hmm I guess but you should’ve still told us.”

“Eh sooner or later you would’ve known, by the way where did Seung Ho and G.O hyung go?” I asked looking around. i knew there was a reason why it was too quiet!

“Don’t know…”

“You know those two would make a nice couple.” I stated, me and Thunder got into a conversation as Joon reclined in his chair with his eyes closed.

Joon’s P.O.V

           I feel like a third wheel even though I’m here with my boyfriend. He’s talking with Thunder while I just sit here pretending to sleep. My conversation with Mir in the bathroom kept finding its way into my thoughts. Don’t you want kids? I know I do! I thought about it for a bit. Of course I want kids! I want to see miniature hyped up versions of him running around our home. I smiled at the thought of me coming home from work, with Mir waiting for me at the door with our kids, spending time together as a family, like what I couldn’t experience. It didn’t matter much to me as long as I have him by my side everything will be okay. I need to call my aunt to help me find an apartment when I get back. I kept thinking of a way to bring up the subject of Mir moving in with me after we got back to Korea. I didn’t want to freak him out about living together. I just want to wake up to that smile every day, to hug him whenever I see him, to kiss him good morning or good night. I want him to be fully mine.

“Oh hyungs you’re back!” I heard Mir say, I opened my eyes and saw G.O and Seung Ho making their way back to us. I noticed their hair was messed up and they were wearing the others shirt.

“What happened to you two?” they looked like they had been caught doing something bad. “where did you go?”

“We decided to go for a walk to lose a few of the coffee calories.”

“Yeah, and we found a tree we wanted to climb.” Lame excuses!

                    Do they think I’m stupid? I can clearly tell they just had somewhere. There was an awkward silence but was cut by Mir.

“Hyung when are you guys going back?”

“The day after tomorrow, when are you guys?”

“In a week, Joon wants to get back a week before I start school.” He stuck his tongue out at me and I just squished his cheeks. “Joonie don’t do that~” he whined and I ruffled his hair.

“Wae? Your cheeks are so fun to squish.” I gave him a wink and he blushed.

“Yah! We’re still here ya know?”

“And why is that?”

“You’re so cocky.”

“Whatever you say”

            The five of us walked around the plaza for a while. I noticed that G.O and Seung Ho kept disappearing a couple of times. Who they think they’re fooling? Clearly those two are together. They began walking towards the bathrooms and I decided to follow them just to confirm my suspicion.

“Byunghee not here, what if one of the kids comes looking for us?”

“I don’t care, why don’t we just tell them?”

“We’re supposed to be the hyungs, and besides they’re still working out their own problems. We can tell them after they settle down.”

“Fine, but don’t expect having any of this,” G.O did a wave “tonight. Hmmph.” I quickly walked back to Mir before those two came back. I knew it! Should I just tell them I know? Nope I’m going to have fun. blocking time!

           G.O and Seung Ho were walking next to each with their hands brushing. I decided to walk in between them and hold G.O’s hand.

“Hyung~ look at me!” I put my hands up to my face and made a fishy face. Seung Ho was looking weirdly at me, I didn’t pay attention and just dragged G.O with me everywhere. Mir and Thunder were spending time together, so he didn’t mind. “Oh hyung you should try this on! I bet you’d look good in it, right Seung Ho hyung?”

“Hyung you should your legs are nice, you should wear short!”

“Look at this hyung!”

“Hyung that guys looking at you!” I dragged him to another store while Seung Ho ‘discreetly’ glared at whoever was looking at G.O.

         G.O was in the bathroom when Seung Ho came up to.

“Joon just what are you doing?”

“Nothing, just spending some quality time with my hyungs.” I said slinging my arm over his shoulder.

“Why don’t you go spend some time with Thunder then?”

“He’s hanging out with Mir. I want them to get close since Mir’s going to be a part of our family.”

“Well then shouldn’t you hang out with them?” This idiot trying to get rid of me!

“Nah it’s fine. I want them to get close on their own without me. Oh here come G.O hyung!” I ran over to him and pulled him into a shoe store with Seung Ho following behind.

             After hours of us walking around we all went to dinner. I purposely sat Thunder in between them. Thunder gave me a what are you doing look but I just looked over the menu. After finishing dinner we went our separate ways. Me and Mir drove home and instantly fell asleep.

A/N: let's play some music before we start my rambling 

Hey guys! It's been a while since I updated, feels like it's been forever! Sorry! This chapter isn't as good as my previous because I'm just not feeling to wellI don't know, like my blog said I have no idea what the heck is going. It all started on Thursday when I met this boy. I'll now you my super long no point story k?I didn't go to school on wednesday and turns out we had a neww kid that day, my friend told me about it but I just didn't pay attention because I thought it was going another one of those idiots we have already but it turns out he isn't!So on thursday when I went to school,I had P.E so I go out to the track because we get two choices get in groups and play a sport on the blacktop or go out to the track. I decided to go to the trackbecause noone ever wants to run, well neither do I but if it means getting away from them then I'm going to run. Okay so I have my ipod on and I start jogging around when I feel someone elses presense next to me, I look to my side and see this cute guy -cue spazzing- to make it better he's KOREAN!! So we start running together and he asks me what I'm listening to, me being the kpop freak I am I'm listening to kSS501 he didn't say anything but took an earbud and we walked around the track together talking the whole period. When it was time to go we said bye and went back to get dressed so after P.E it's lunch and I'm walking to the football field because I like to be alone and dance freely right? When all of a sudden someone called my name I turn around and Isee him he's all come over here so I go over to him and we eat lunch together in the middle of the field he asked me if I could dancemy reactiona little and so he gets up and starts dancing I'm goingso I can't dance well but yeah I tried LOL! Okay it wasn't good because I was nervous alright? We started talking about music and he likes what I like. We're learning to dance Warrior by B.A.Pthis is what we look like so far-> either way we're learning so yeah, we've been hanging out and textingsince then. Yesterday we went out to eat Yes!He's so nice, he told me I'm pretty, I have a good personality, and has been trying to flirtyeah...but I don't know...today he called and asked if I wanted to hangout, so I agreed and now I have three hours to killam I supposed with that much time? -sigh- what do you guys think about this?

COMMENT TIME!!! Sorry no replies w/gifs this time! Let's enjoy some music while I do this 

dearcaroline:Yeah oh well, she said it was so we could get close? WTF! Lol but yeah I'll try to abuse some more next update!xD Please don't shut up kekeke~

Kanani:Thank you!!<3

KpopAmericanGirl: Kekeke~ thank you much! It's only 2nd or 3rd attempt at xD I'll try to piut more gifs next time[:

Chococinna: Aww thank you!! o: Really you're going to? -spazz- wooot ahh thank you so much for the link! I can really to Seung Ho xDD

KaishkaKo: I LOVE YOUR COMMENTS! Lol xD I try to make it as realistic as posible kekeke~ Joon won't leave his father because he still cares about him somehow ^-^ HAHA the titles are so random! The chicken gif is my favorite one! It always makes me laugh lol. I'll try to add more scenes with the rest of the memebers soon Aww thank you, it is a nice place and the heat does get to me a lot! Makes me cranky kekeke~ you'd think I was used to it being a native. Lol I wasn't sure baout the "calm yo " thing in, but I'm glad I did now lol :3 It's okay to be a ert! I'm a big ert myself xD Here's another update and some gifs! I hope to see you spazzing with me/us here in the comment section! thank you for subscribing. You should get sleep (:

faayicecream: Haha thank you! Here's an update! ^-^

dionka:Haha thank you! Yeah she's one weird chick. Same in where I live not many people listen to kpop, or even bother to reach out into another culture. My parents don't say anything anymore about it, they just go: There she goes again, or oh god it's korean. Lol xD Ohh cool, I'm glad you liked it. I want to go to SS4 but its always that I'm short on money or they just don't come to where I live -_- I tried getting a job but my daad made me quit because according to him since he's my father he will support me until I move out. So I told atleast for me to pay for my cocerts/merchandise etc..but he said no): but if I do manage to get the money we should so go! kekeke~

kami_wings: Right? That's mega creepy but according to her it was so we could get closer lol xD See you on the next update! ^3^

And that concludes our comment/spazz corner! Time for me to get ready!I'm spazzing c: my sister's looking at me likewhatever Okay bye bye~

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