Part Forty-Four: Dongwoo
The Words Unsaid
Part Forty-Four
Dongwoo
This is apart of a double update if you didn't read Myungsoo part last please go back. : D
As I stood in front of my members I tried my best to hold everything together so I didn’t break down right there. I wanted to see them the most in the past few months but now that they were here I couldn’t breath.
“So Dongwoo what is it that you wanted to tell us?” Woohyun asked. “All Sunhyun said was that the members were getting together again?”
“Let him speak,” Sunggyu told Woohyun pointing to me.
“I want to say thank you for coming here,” I told them after I took a deep breath.
Sunggyu nodded and egged me to go on with a reassuring smile.
“About a two months ago I traveled up a mountain to convince a Doctor to help Sungjong. Like I told you all before Dr. Woonha and I have been working hard to help change Sungjong’s condition. After tests and the changing Sungjong’s medication we have confirmed that Sungjong’s state has not changed. Now his parents are requesting for us to say goodbye so they can bury their son.”
Silence.
“What do you mean,” Woohyun was the first to speak up.
“The treatment didn’t work,” I explained once again.
“Is there other methods?” Sunggyu questioned me but I shook my head no.
“Are you sure?” Hoya added.
I nodded my head once again.
“When is Mr. & Miss. Lee turning off the machines,” Hoya asked calmly.
“Tomorrow morning they would like us to be there to say goodbye,” Myungsoo answered simply.
“Okay we will spend the night at someone’s house and go over in the morning,” Sunggyu told the group.
The group nodded and everyone was about to go their own way when Woohyun open his mouth.
“Are you kidding me!”
“What are you doing?” Sunggyu turned to Woohyun.
“What am I doing? What are you all doing?” Woohyun scoffed.
“Stop being an ,” Hoya shouted.
“Stop!” I shouted standing between them.
“Dongwoo is right,” Sunggyu agreed with me. “We shouldn’t be arguing right now.”
“Are you kidding me,” Woohyun snapped.
“What is your problem?” Hoya asked.
“What’s my problem!? Did you guys even hear what you’re saying?” Woohyun snapped.
“Stop,” Sunggyu gave him a warning stare.
“No look at yourself! Look at what we have become and now we are saying goodbye to our brother like it’s nothing!”
“Stop it,” Myungsoo shouted and I could tell that Woohyun hit a nerve.
“No! Do you guys really think that this will make things better?” Woohyun shouted as if everything was becoming too much.
A loud heart-wrenching sob came from the corner of the room and we all turned to see that Sungyeol was curled into a ball crying silently to himself.
“Sungyeol,” Myungsoo sighed as he ran to the member.
“LOOK!” Woohyun shouted turning our attentions back to him. “Sungyeol hasn’t spoken to anyone since the accident.”
“It’s okay,” Myungsoo patting Sungyeol’s back.
“Stop being a Woohyun,” Hoya snapped.
“Hoya you’re one to talk! Did he tell you what he was doing in Busan?! Should I tell them Hoya?” Woohyun yelled.
Was Woohyun finally losing his mind?
“Stop,” Hoya said placing up a hand.
“Woohyun!” Sunggyu snapped at him and I could see that there was fire in his eyes.
“Those bruises on Hoya’s face isn’t from him being jumped or falling down the stairs or whatever else he said. He’s a fighter! A low life fighter who is on drugs and who knows what else!”
“Stop it!” Hoya screamed.
“That’s not true,” Myungsoo looked at Hoya’s face.
No it couldn’t be true because Hoya wouldn’t drink soda because it effects his dancing. There was no way he would take drugs.
I knew Hoya better than the rest and I knew that there wasn’t any way he would do drugs.
“Yeah but Woohyun who sold me those drugs?” Hoya smirked.
“Wait what?” Sunggyu looked at both Woohyun and Hoya. “Is that how you knew where Hoya was? You sold him drugs?!?!” Sunggyu looked at Woohyun who was now biting his lips.
“Hyung he sold them to me. Our greasy member is now a drug dealer and a gang member!” Hoya announced to the whole dance studio.
No it wasn’t supposed to be like this. We weren’t supposed to be fighting!
“That’s not true,” Sunggyu muttered out.
“Tell them about how you partied all your way down here from Seoul with your best friend Hyojin then when things couldn’t get any worst you decided to sell drugs!” Hoya snarled.
“You know Hyojin?” Sunggyu looked at Hoya and Woohyun.
“It’s true,” Woohyun announced crossing his arms.” So what if I did have to sell drugs or join a gang?”
“How could you,” Myungsoo gasped out.
“What do you expect me to do!? You guys left me and I had to find ways to survive in a new environment,” Woohyun told us as he glared at Hoya. “At least my family cared when I ran away.”
“You little ,” Hoya snapped then he brought back his fist and slammed it into Woohyun’s face sending Woohyun to the ground.
Woohyun grabbed ahold of his red cheek as he glared up at Hoya who stood above him holding his fist.
“YOU DI-“
“STOP IT!” Sunggyu shouted but it was too late Woohyun was already on his feet charging towards Hoya.
I grabbed Hoya by his waist and brought him to the ground. I felt someone else's hands against mine and I looked up to see Myungsoo helping.
“Let go!” Woohyun screamed and I could see that Sunggyu was holding him down with all his might.
“Stop it we shouldn’t be fighting like this,” I shouted to the members.
“Dongwoo is right now you two need to stop,” Sunggyu grunted in pain.
Woohyun let out a loud laugh. “You shouldn’t be talking leader!”
“What is up with you,” Sunggyu asked as he tried to hold on to Woohyun.
“You know I thought that once you got out the hospital you would find us but instead you were off fixing someone else’s problems. You didn’t even look for us! You ditched us and now you are ditching Sungjong!”
“I eh,” Sunggyu paused and even from where I was sitting I could see the panic in the leader's face.
“Stop it,” Myungsoo shouted as tears ran down his face. “It’s okay Hyung.”
“No you stop it Myungsoo! Did he even see how over worked you are?! Did he even care when you fainted!? Did he go after you tell you to stop or to slow down? He could have save you from Dream!” Woohyun pointed out.
“Seriously Woohyun stop,” Myungsoo said. “I know for a fact that Sunggyu wouldn’t be able to do anything.”
“I heard rumors you know from the other idols,” Woohyun told everyone.
“Stop,” Myungsoo told him.
“They said you lost your mind! Some of them even think you are mentally unstable!” Woohyun snapped.
“I’m not,” Myungsoo replied.
“Then why did some rookies catch you talking to yourself? Saying L this and L that?” Woohyun asked me.
Myungsoo paused for a minute as if he was trying to remember something. “They were mistaken.”
“I don’t think so Myungsoo,” Woohyun scoffed.
“I’m fine. I’m fine! Just because I barely sleep and work all the time doesn’t mean I’m crazy. I’m trying to keep Infinite together,” Myungsoo cried. “No one was thinking about Infinite so I had to take over. I had to carry Infinite so the fans wouldn’t forget. So if that meant I had to deal with hearing a voice in my head so be it!”
Voice in his head?!
I wanted to talk to Myungsoo more about it but I didn’t have a chance because Woohyun started to talk again.
“See don’t you see how mess up we are!? Even Dongwoo Hyung is different,” Woohyun snapped.
My skin started to crawl what could he have on me?
“What about me,” I asked him.
“Even I could see your weight loss and the dark circles,” Woohyun pointed out.
I wanted to cover myself but I knew that the minute I let go of Hoya he would be on top of Woohyun.
“I’m fine,” I answered.
“You’re wasting to nothing,” Woohyun pointed out. “How much weight did you drop 20, 30, dear god don’t tell me you lost 50 lbs.”
“Hyung I also heard about you fainting,” Myungsoo added.
I shot him a glare.
“Are you doing okay?” Sunggyu asked looking at me with concern.
“I’m fine!” I shouted. “Now can we stop fighting!”
I felt tears in my eyes and the tightness of my throat.
No I couldn’t break down in front of them like this not when I was screaming that I was fine.
Maybe if we weren’t all screaming at each other we would have heard the forgotten voice. We were too wrapped up on our own thoughts to see what was about happen.
“I KILLED HIM!”
My whole body became numb and I dropped my grasp on Hoya’s waist. Hoya who was planning out ways to kill Woohyun was frozen in his spot.
“I KILLED HIM!” Sungyeol screamed his first words since the accident.
“I KILLED HIM. I KILLED HIM. I KILLED HIM!” he kept on screaming as he rocked back and forth.
Myungsoo and I ran to him but I was unsure what to do for the boy. Myungsoo grabbed ahold of his shoulder but Sungyeol shoved it off.
“Don’t touch me!”
“We just want to help,” Myungsoo said with his outstretched.
“Do you want to help? Then stop fighting and stop acting like bra-”
“Sungyeol you’re speaking,” a voice said interrupting him.
We turned around to see a beautiful woman wearing a gold and black dress standing in the doorway of the dance studio room.
“Who are you?” Sunggyu asked her as he let go of Woohyun.
“Why are you here,” Sungyeol snapped standing to his feet.
What was happening?
“You’re talking,” she said smiling as she tried to walk towards to Sungyeol but he crossed his arms and stomped his foot like a child.
“Don’t come near me,” he snapped.
She took a step back. “Sorry.”
“Who are you,” Sunggyu asked once again.
“She’s my shrink but a very bad one,” Sungyeol admitted.
“I didn’t know you were getting help,” Myungsoo said but Sungyeol just rolled his eyes.
“What do you want from me,” Sungyeol asked taking a step forward.
“I’m not here for you Sungyeol,” she told him as she open her purse.
“Then why are you here? You don’t have any more lies to tell me?” he scoffed.
I couldn’t help but wonder what happen between them two. I never heard of Sungyeol being disrespectful to a doctor. Although it had been a long time since I saw the childish side and the slap across my face earlier was a reminder that he was no longer the same.
“Be quiet Sungyeol,” she snapped.
“Now boys my name is Dr. Kang and as you could maybe tell I’m Sungyeol’s shrink-“
“You were my shrink,” Sungyeol pointed out. “I fired you.”
Dr. Kang rolled her eyes then turned her attention to us. “Now like I was saying I AM Sungyeol’s shrink but more importantly Sungjong was my patient.”
Silence.
Was this a dream or was it reality. The words the woman had told us sent chills down my spine and I couldn’t help but stare at her with a wide-open mouth.
“W-Why didn’t you tell me?” Sungyeol sputtered out after a couple of minutes had passed.
“I couldn’t,” she told us.
“I didn’t know he was seeking help,” I said shocked.
“I knew he needed someone to talk to but I didn’t know he turned to a shrink,” Sunggyu added.
“Why couldn’t he speak to us,” Hoya pointed out.
“Sometimes it’s harder to talk to people we love,” Dr. Kang added. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you boys sooner but Sungjong was still my patient and I couldn’t give you out his information but since things have changed I think it’s time to give you this.”
She pulled out a small cardboard box.
“Sungjong left it at my office by accident before the crash. I found it in the lost and found a couple weeks ago and I think he meant to give it to you before the accident,” she told us.
“What is it?” I asked staring at the box.
“It’s for you all to find out,” she said then she handed the box to Sunggyu who held onto it tightly.
“Goodbye,” she bowed then gave Sungyeol one last glance and began to turn around but then she stopped.
“Sungyeol our last session,” she took a deep breath. “That wasn’t a lie and that’s all I want to tell you. Now you can hate me all you want.”
She bowed one more time and turn around and left the dance studio.
We all sat in silence once again as we stared at the box in Sunggyu’s arm.
“What do we do,” Hoya was the first to speak.
“Let’s open it,” Woohyun said looking at the box like it was a bomb.
We all arrange ourselves so we were sitting in a circle. Sunggyu placed the box in the middle like it was some sort of object we were going to warship.
“What do you think is in?” Myungsoo asked.
“I don’t know,” Hoya sighed as he brushed his hand through his hair. “I don’t even feel like I know who Sungjong is anymore. After all I never thought he was the type to go talk to a shrink.”
“You’re right Sungjong was never one to hold in his thoughts,” I replied as I thought about all the times Sungjong yelled at me.
“The more I think about it I can’t really remember him,” Sunggyu admitted.
“So why don’t we find out,” Woohyun pointed out.
“Whatever is in that box it doesn’t change anything,” Sunggyu told us. “Also no freak outs okay?”
We all looked at Woohyun whose eyes were red from crying.
“Why are you all looking at me?” he said as he crossed his arms. “Fine I’m sorry and I won’t overreact!”
“Good. Now are we ready,” Sunggyu asked.
We all nodded our heads then Sunggyu picked up the box and open it.
“What’s inside!” I half screamed, as I was too curious to hold in my thoughts.
“A dvd? It look likes it’s handmade...it has Sungjong’s handwriting on it. It says number one and there is also…” he shuffled through the box. “Envelopes with our names on them.”
He handed each envelope to us and I couldn’t help but want to rip it open and find what Sungjong’s last words were.
“Wait,” Sunggyu said. “We should see what is on this. Hoya go get the TV from the closet.”
Hoya nodded and stood up and grabbed the old TV.
“What do you think is on it?” Sungyeol sputtered out.
“I don’t know,” Myungsoo said as he grabbed Sungyeol's hand to comfort him.
Hoya rolled the TV from the closet; it was the same TV where we used to watch our dances on. He plugged it in and pressed the ON button. The TV screen flickered then it went blue indicating that it was ready to be used.
For a split second I wished that the TV was broken so we could always have a mystery at what Sungjong’s last words were. What if he was telling us off? What if he knew he was going to die?
What if-
“Are you ready,” Hoya asked.
No.
“Yes,” we all said.
Sunggyu handed Hoya the DVD carefully and Hoya placed it into the slot and pressed play. He ran back to his spot and looked up at the TV. If any random person walked in they would have thought we were watching a movie or having a sleepover, or even maybe reviewing our latest dance.
I took a deep breath as I tried to keep my tears from falling.
The screen flickered black then suddenly we could see a hand in front of a camera then some movement as if someone was trying to move the camera by it’s lenses. The person released their hand letting the camera see their face. It was a young boy who was looking above the camera with a frown.
“How does Myungsoo use this thing,” he scoffed then the camera moved again.
He let out a deep breath then turned his attention to the camera itself.
“Hello Hyungs...”
Hello everyone,
Are you surprised I did a double update?! Well I really wanted to post this chapter tonight too but I wasn’t sure if I could edit it in time. Also there is a reason why Woohyun freaked out and I will talk about it in another chapter. What do you guys think that Sungjong will have to say? Also sorry if there is any spelling mistakes. : ( I’m trying my hardest to not fall asleep while editing this. But anyways you guys there is only eight more chapters left because I added more to the story. I honestly don’t know what do after this story is done. Like what was life before I wrote this story? I have no clue. Well I’m going to bed because I’m old. Just kidding not really…Goodnight!
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