It's been two weeks.

Moonchul clings to Chanhee.
Suji clings to Byunghun.
Chanhee loses himself in confusion.
Byunghun loses himself in confusion.

Chanhee walks to school, holding hands with Moonchul. Sneaks in kisses, talks to Niel, Changhyun, and Jonghyun when he's around. Sometimes gets strange looks from Niel. Sometimes gets strange looks from Minsoo. Sleeps in study hall. Walks home holding hands with Moonchul, kisses him goodnight. Sleeps.

Byunghun skips school, avoids people when he does show up. Kicks Minsoo and Suji out whenever they ask "why are you like this?". Barely eats, barely sleeps. Lays on his bed and wonders what the is going on in his mind. Looks for something, anything to tell him what he's feeling, why he's feeling it.

Moonchul questions. Moonchul hopes. Moonchul wishes. Moonchul needs. Moonchul gets angry. Moonchul gets sad. Moonchul hates. Hates Chanhee, for being so spaced off, for being so perfect and holding Moonchul, kissing Moonchul, but not in the reach of Moonchul. Hates Byunghun, for knowing Chanhee in a way Moonchul never will, even if Byunghun doesn't know, even if Chanhee himself didn't either.

Suji wishes. Suji cries. Suji get angry. Suji gets sad. Suji wants. Suji doesn't hope. Suji knows. Knows Byunghun more than Byunghun himself. Knows Chanhee from just one look at him when he's around Byunghun. Knows Moonchul, even if she's only seen him once in her life. Knows herself well enough. Knows that Byunghun will never love her. Knows Byunghun isn't in her reach, even when his hand is intertwined with hers.

Chanhee's losing his grip on reality.
Byunghun's spiraling.
Moonchul's fading.
Suji's torn.

Chanhee can't stop crying, can't stop hoping, can't stop dreaming, can't stop thinking.
Byunghun can't stop sighing, can't stop dreaming, cant stop thinking.
Moonchul can't stop wishing, can't stop clinging, can't stop hoping.
Suji can't stop crying, can't stop clinging, can't stop wishing.

Niel's been watching his best friend fade into a dreamland, and it doesn't help that Changhyun's constantly fanboying over Jonghyun.
Minsoo's been watching his best friend spiral, and it doesn't help that the person he's "dating", is also his childhood friend.

"Yah! Bang Minsoo!" Niel's obnoxious voice was heard from the other end of the hallway, causing Minsoo to stop in his tracks and turn.
"Yes, Ahn Daniel?" He asked when Niel was in front of him.
"You know the only reason I'd ever talk to you willingly was because Chanhee and Byunghun had some serious going on between them during the project. Now they're dating other people and I've noticed Byunghun hasn't shown up to school much, and Chanhee's been fading away from reality. I have this strange feeling, they're connected."
"And?" Minsoo asked, bored.

"We're going to fix it, ."

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have some serious sad.
yeah, the happy doesn't really come for another chapter or two.
um... yeah, i had some kids staying here too and lauren's kind of a so i didn't work much. they keep making fun of me 'cause i don't do anything here, and i'm like, "what am i supposed to do? i know nothing about here." like i'm from iowa, man.

so now they're forcing me outside. ;-;

yesterday, i actually had a pretty good time. i hung out with my cousin jess, and she's weird. it's uncomfortable, a bit. but she's into the same things i am. we had like, an hour long conversation about music and my dreams. it was nice, we drove through heavy rain and saw mist from the heat of rain in the mountains.

you don't care ok i lub you guys. <3

also, i think l. joe has the cutest confused/surprised/frustrated/sad faces ever. but then again, i also think l. joe has the cutest face ever...
has anyone noticed i'm hopelessly in love with l. joe and he's my ultimate bias? kekeke