"Chanhee hyung, you've been spaced out all day. What happened?" Niel's voice brought Chanhee back to reality.
Chanhee squeezed his eyes shut and pinched his nose, "Yesterday, I went to amusement park with Moonchul. We ran into Byunghun and Suji, and at the end of the night, Moonchul confessed to me, asking me to be his boyfriend."
Niel's eyes widened and he coughed up the food he was about to swallow, "WHAT'D YOU SAY?"
Chanhee bit his lip, looking down at the ground.

"I said yes." He mumbled, right as Moonchul sat down beside him, lacing their hands together.

Chanhee could've sworn Niel was going to explode.
"Hyung, hyung! Breathe, hyung!"

-

Byunghun didn't know.

Byunghun doesn't have to know, Chanhee. Stop worrying about it. He scolded himself, shaking his head as he walked hand in hand with Moonchul.

Byunghyun wants him to come over.

He probably doesn't actually want me to come over. If he does, it's not for any reason I want it to be. Byunghun's straight, he's dating Suji. He doesn't even know I have these kind of feelings for him. Even worse, I'm dating Moonchul! He sighed, looking at the boy beside him.

Moonchul met his eyes, "You okay, babe?"
Chanhee attempted a half hearted smile, "Yeah, I'm alright. Sorry, I'm just a little bit out of it."
"A little? Chanhee, you haven't even realized we've been standing in front of your house for over ten minutes."
Chanhee blinked, looking around them. He nodded when he noticed his overly familiar house in front of him, "Okay, so I'm really, really out of it. I'm sorry, Chullie."
Moonchul nodded, "It's okay, Chanhee. I'll wait." He smiled softly at Chanhee, making him feel worse.

He kissed Moonchul's cheek, "Thanks, Chullie."
Moonchul just nodded again, squeezed Chanhee's hand and let him go, "Sleep well."

-

Byunghun feels like vomiting.

He sees them. He knows. He watches Moonchul sneak kisses on Chanhee's cheeks in school, sees them hold hands.

He doesn't like it.
It makes him want to march up to Chanhee, pull him away from Moonchul, kiss him on the lips over and over again and the older boy is dizzy with Byunghun, knows only Byunghun, not some stupid pretty guy with some stupid name like "Moonchul".

He doesn't like that, either.  

He just doesn't understand why meeting nerdy, feminie Chanhee sparked these kind of feelings in them. Suji was beautiful, but Byunghun just.. doesn't want her half as much as he want Chanhee.

Why?

-
here, have some sad.
it took me like four days to write this lolololol
i don't have any solid ground here so all i have is my laptop on my well, lap. and i'm not very sure how my family will react if they find out i'm writing some gay fanfiction about random asian guys who "look like girls".

/sighs

i've also been kind of sick and a little loopy with my meds(time zone changes )

the happy is coming, guys. I PROMISED B1A4KATE1, ITS COMING, I SWEAR.
i have no idea when this story ends, but i'll try to fit in lots of together chunjoe fluff. so yeah. 

OMG BY THE WAY, YESTERDAY, I READ THIS TEEN TOP INTERVIEW THING, RIGHT, RIGHT?
CHANGJO'S ALL "SECRET" OR SOME TY ANSWER LIKE WOW I CAN'T I'M CONVINCED HE'S A STRIPPER, I REALLY AM. ALSO, CHUNJI'S SUCH A DORKY , I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS BAND, I CAN'T. THEY'RE SO UNHEALTHY FOR ME, I USUALLY TALK ABOUT THEM IN CAPS AND "FUDJFGOIFJG". JUST, WOW I LOVE THEM. /SCREAMS

i lub you guys. i have so many subbies now, i figured i wouldn't get anymore when i announced the interwebz thing. but nope! i got like, five more that night. i mean, sure, i don't have 100 subbies(i have like, 40 away from that actually) but i never do so i'm fine with what i have. i lub you so so much <333

/long gushy author note END

oh and P.S. no, no, no, it's not kim moonchul from royal pirates. that's not how i imagine him, as much as i'm a fan of that man's face(and voice, don't get me wrong. plus, the instrumental makes me want to cry from pretty) i'm not a big fan of squishing bands together when they've never once interacted. i'm weird like that.

okay, so it's over now. i need to stop making my AN's as long as my chapter i'M SO SORRY.