Dear Jonghyun,

I simply have been very busy these days, so I'm sorry I haven't been able to write to you. The mail is pretty slow to get to me as well judging by the dates you've written up in the corner of each. After your last letter I realized how frustrating this must be for you, so I decided to write back to you as soon as I could. Although, you did do such a terrible thing that made me put writing this letter off by a few days when I first heard of it. 

I was upset with you for a bit, but then I came to see that I couldn't really blame you. I did fall for some of Minho's tricks just as you fell for a few of Taemin's. Although, I did remain pure, while you succumbed to his filth. It is that extra step into the bedroom that you took with someone other than me that upset me, because I feel that we are such kindred spirits as well. I sometimes feel the force of the universe calling to me, perhaps propelling me toward you as if it is my destiny to end up in your loving arms.

I tried to further investigate these strange feelings, but Minho got in the way a bit. I'm sorry we couldn't talk much when we had coffee. Maybe coffee at your place would be better? I've often wondered what the inside of your house looks like. The outside is so gorgeous it makes me a little jealous sometimes. Your rose bushes out front are really quite lovely as well. They seem to just grow so naturally beautiful, without a single flaw, and that amazes me endlessly. When you brought me flowers from your garden I was overjoyed, then far more than just saddened when they eventually wilted. I was thinking about planting rose bushes of my own, but I haven't got much room in the front yard left. If only my little piece of land was bigger, like yours.

Sometimes I've thought about getting curtains for privacy, but then all the plants in my house wouldn't get any sunshine. Besides, after reading your letters I've realized that you're there looking out for me. I think that's sweet of you. Maybe one day I'll have a or something when I'm really old, so you can come to my rescue like the brave knight you are. That's probably why staying curtainless is best. I wouldn't want to be seizing with no one around to help, even though that probably won't happen until I'm 80.

I hope this letter reaches you before it's too late. I wouldn't want you to go crazy. I just want you to know that I care about you, Jonghyun. I'll always be here to read in your time of need, so keep writing to me, even if I don't write back often, because I am busy. I enjoy reading your letters so much. They make me smile, and let me know that I'll always be alright, because I have a secret guardian across the street. I wish Minho would be at least a little like you. He does take me out about once a month, usually Tuesday nights when this bar downtown has a 2 for 1 dinner special, and he does buy me flowers. Sometimes he's sweet like that, but I guess he just isn't that thoughtful like you. Still, I feel a little bad for what he's had to go through in his life. Prison roughed him up some, and I'd like to smooth him out one day. I hope you'll understand that as much as I like you, I feel kind of obligated to help out Minho. I don't know if he'll ever admit to being my boyfriend, but for now it's okay that he doesn't. I'm taking things slow with my love life, because I have the rest of my life to spend with whoever I deem as Mr. Right.

Love,

Kibum