Chapter 19

In Time You'll Love

(The ink is smudged slightly as the paper is heavily stained with tears.)

Dear Kibum,

You're right. You're absolutely right in every way about me. I'm just a madman. I was never right for you. I never should've gotten so cocky that I believed I was worthy of even gazing upon you. I never should've tried to force my way into your life. You'll be happy with Minho, not me. I understand that now. Our love was just a lie. It was a game that you played with my heart. As cruel as that seems, still I could never stay upset with you. My love for you was always real, and I'll take it with me to the grave.

I no longer wish to walk upon this damned earth if we can never be together. I would rather burn in hell for all eternity than watch another man live happily with whom I've come to believe is my one and only soulmate. Watching you marry Minho would be enough to physically tear my heart to shreds I'm sure. Don't worry, my sweet angel. I will never speak to you again. I will never look at you again. I will never write to you again after this final letter. This is goodbye for good. I'm sure we won't meet again even in the afterlife, because you'll be sitting pretty up on the clouds with the other angels, while I'm battling my demons in hell.

Love,

Jonghyun

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Jeonsa
Hey! It's been a long while, a year since I finished this! xD Well, I'm taking up writing again, and since this was my most beloved fic, I'd like to start up the sequel soon. I'll set it up as soon as I make the poster/banner (or whatever it's called)
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err4tic #1
Chapter 50: Why is this so crazy and convoluted and tragic and so freaking awesome? I’ll tell you the truth, I almost stopped reading a few chapters in... I’m glad I didn’t. Now, on to the sequel.
Rellamellow #2
Chapter 52: I don't even know what to say now that it's over, this is all so tragic ans it's bringing me so close to tears because despite everything that happened, Jongkey loved each other. They loved each other so much despite memory losses and people trying to get in between them. They we're... soulmates. Destined to be together. I think that's what soulmates really are. People that are "a perfect fit" for each other, yet things can still change and they can still choose to be with everyone else in this world, they just can't be as happy with them as they would be with their soulmate. And in some cases, you only realise who your soulmate is when it's too late.
I think this story, although sad, is still do incredibly romantic and kind of... encouraging? It surely gives some life advice, in terms of love. You should always tell someone if you like/love them because you don't know how they feel, what they're going through while thinking their feelings are unrequited. Imagine how this story would have ended if Kibum and Jonghyun gat met up more and Kibum had told him that he liked him. And I don't want to think about how many people experience that day by day. Thinking their love is unrequited and therefore giving up and locking themselves away when they could be so happy with the person they have feelings for.
Shaiala #3
Chapter 50: ;;;;;;; such a bitter ending! I've followed this story since around chapter 4, i'm glad to have seen its end; ;; thank you author
Shaiala #4
Chapter 49: ;;;;;;;; Kibum really is teetering between happiness and hell ;;;;;;;;;
Rellamellow #5
Chapter 49: "Maybe he can soothe my heart" no no no no no. No. That's so cruel. ;;;;;;;;;;;;♡
matassie_xyx69 #6
Chapter 48: This is making me cry, its so sad and beautiful. I swear, this is possibly the saddest fic ive ever read, its just so beautiful. I cant deal with this, i dont know what I'll do when Kibum finds him. The only words for this are tragicaly beautiful.
Rellamellow #7
Chapter 48: Oh my god so the makeout session really happened aaaaaa. I was seriously questioning almost everything in Jonghyun's letters after Kibum found him and it turned out that all of the letters were from him but now Kibum's pov explained so much and verified these things and just... This is so tragic. ;;
I'm still trying to figure out what you meant when you said I was gonna like the sequel... that statement has been stuck in my had for a long time...
I can also feel the and approaching fast here... there's not a lot of time left before he finds him... oh god, I don't want this to happen again and again and again... ;;;;
Shaiala #8
Chapter 48: Ahhh Ki is having an internal debate, I hope he finds his answer
Shaiala #9
Chapter 47: The 4 of them are in such a complicated relationship. Jong suicides after Ki and Min's marriage, Tae's love is unrequited, Min has cheated on Ki with Tae, and Ki is stuck between his love and his dreams. I wonder if Jin will have anything to do with the upcoming plot or not?
Rellamellow #10
Chapter 47: This is so sad but I'm also really happy that the date like... actually happened and that they had so much fun? ;;♡
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