Dear Kibum,

I'll always do as you wish, my love. I would never want to upset you, because your sadness breaks my heart. I will put my research aside for now so that I can focus on just you. I won't throw my work away, because I am a bit sentimental towards it. I've just locked it away in the safe under my bed. Perhaps one day I can continue working on it with your blessing, but I'm sure that won't be for a while. I know how much you must worry for me already since we live apart. I won't worry you further, because worry can be more deadly than chemicals. I should know. I've nearly died from both.

I am absolutely euphoric that you feel as in love as I do. So much joy fills me that I can hardly contain it. I wish to run outside right now and shout to the heavens that I love you, but I'm afraid that'd be quite an odd thing for the nosy neighbors to see. I even showed Taemin your latest letter, and he was honestly shocked when he finished reading it. The look on his face was priceless. He tried to shrug it off, but I could tell he was jealous of our love. He told me that he wouldn't try to get into my pants anymore now though, since apparently he claims not to be a "homewrecker". I've become pretty decent friends with him now that he isn't silently winking at me with every word or gesture. For a while I was worried he might be obsessed with me, but things seem to have cooled down significantly. Perhaps he's found a new victim to prey on? Let's just hope he's suddenly decided to change for the better, and act more his age, playing video games and complaining about doing homework or whatever it is young teens do.

It still gets harder and harder with each passing day to wait for you though. Minho can take my house if he wants, then he'll have a place to stay and I can have you to myself at last. I would sacrifice anything for you. Please, I could give him any amount of money to make him go away. I don't care if he wants my entire life's savings. All I need is you. Just dump him and let this be the end of our secret suffering. We both know very well now that our hearts belong together. Your heart may pity Minho deeply, but it knows it belongs with me. My heart screams so loudly now that it's voice has turned hoarse with all the repetition. It begs for you even through the pain.

I fear that I may have to resolve this myself. You obviously are far too nice to bring such pain to him, which is not a fault, but I am not so nice, and can do what is necessary to save our love from wilting. I know you won't like me throwing him out, but it is what must be done for the sake of true love. I just hope you'll forgive me for all that I am going to do, because I have our future in mind and heart. I want to make sure that we both have the future we've always dreamed of together, so I won't let anyone get in the way of that anymore. Please do not be angry with me. I love you so dearly that I do this now for you.

Love,

Jonghyun