Dear Mother,

Some days are still rougher than ever for me. Even with my newfound love interest I'm still fighting a war with Jay's mother. Each day it just gets harder and harder as she gains more support, more people pitying her just because she's a single mom. I hope none of their badmouthing has reached you. I don't want you to ever hear of the awful lies that they paint me to be. Yes, I went to jail, because yes I did do something wrong, but one wrong action on one random night shouldn't determine what kind of person I am. I have served my sentence for it already, so why must it still loom over me for the rest of my life?

They nearly arrested me again today for nothing. I went to visit Jay and his mother called the police on me. I should've known better when she had told me it was okay to come visit a few days ago. I'm sure her whole plan was to get me sent back to prison. Luckily, Kibum had came with me though. He was the only person on my side when the police showed up. All the others accused me of trying to kidnap Jay, but Kibum stood up for me and assured the police that I had no intention of kidnapping Jay. I had just wished to see my only child, because I hadn't seen him in years. Kibum told them that I legally have the right to see my son. I had always thought that, but to hear someone else say it made me feel not as crazy as others make me believe I am. To have someone else fighting on my side is a huge relief. Kibum really is such a wonderful person. His heart is so pure and kind. I want Jay to grow up to be like him rather than me; and I really believe that Kibum will be such a great influence for the boy once they meet.

While the court date is set for about two months from now to settle all of this, the police told me to stay away from my son and his mother until then. It almost seemed as if they were threatening me when they said this. As much as it pains me that I still haven't gotten to see or speak to my son it seems there's just nothing I can do for now. Kibum and I are simply outnumbered no matter how strong willed we try to be. With the world against us we must bite our tongues until our day to be heard comes. I think he can sense that it's getting harder for me too. He often tries to distract me with sweet little romantic surprises such as sneaking up on me when I get lost in reading law books to better help my case and pulling me away from the workaholic mindset to relax and cuddle every once in a while. Kibum seems to have figured me out completely already in these past couple months. He knows just what I like, and exactly how to make me happy. I hope that I make him just as happy. I try my hardest to be romantic. He says that I don't have to try so hard, but I know he loves it in the way he smiles. His smile is always so genuine and beautiful. My purpose is to keep that smile on his face for as long as time will allow, because when he smiles I can't help smiling right back at him with such warmth in my heart I almost think something must be wrong with me. I wish everyone could experience a love so sweet like ours. Then the world would be so peaceful. I want that kind of world for Jay, and I'm gonna figure out how to make that happen someday.

Your loving son,

Minho