Taeyeon POV

Grandparents Villa – Gangnam

City of Seoul – Gyeonggi Province

While laying on my new bedroom here..

“Was all this a dream?”

“Will it all go if I closed and opened my eyes?”

“Is this real?”

“What should I do?”

I kept asking myself.

After what I heard from Jiyong, I can’t accept this shock yet!

Jiyong leaving me, after knowing that he liked me.. how could I believe this?

I kept thinking till a late hour, then without knowing I slept..

“Good morning miss.” The butler greeted me as I opened my eyes.

I brushed my eyes “Good morning..” I looked behind her there were two other maids opening the curtains “What time is it?” I asked.

“It’s 9 o’clock.”

“What?! Omg I’m late!” I jumped out from my bed.

“Be careful miss!” she cried out.

I washed up. Get dressed and went down stairs.

“Good morning Grandma, Grandpa~” I told them when they were having breakfast.

“Why are you running?”

“I’m late! I’m gonna see you later~”

“But brea-”

“Bye bye~” I waved at them and rushed outside.

“Good morning miss.” That gentle man greeted.

“Good morning. Please let’s hurry I’m late!”

“Of course.” He told me and hurried inside the car.

I’m not in my right mind! I kept staring blankly at the car's window..

We arrived at the SM building.

I unloaded from the car. Hoping no one could notice me..

“Miss Kim.” That gentle man called.

I turned “Yes?”

“This..” he handed me a bag.

“What is this?” I asked him while opening the bag.

“Your breakfast.”

“But.. when?..” I was amazed.

“Have a nice day~” he told me and bowed down.

“You too~” I bowed down. “Ajusshi..” I called

“Yes Miss Kim.”

“Please don’t do this from now on..” I told him, “..this will have rumors to run around!”

“As you want miss.”

“And don’t call me miss please.”

“That is something I can’t do it.”

“Then at least between us.” I winked at him.

He smiled and nodded. “Please take care. We’ll come to scout you later.”

And by that they left.

“Taeyeon~” Hyoyeon called. She was alone at the practice room “What is this?” she asked.

“Ah, this?.. it’s breakfast. Want some?” I told her.

“It looks delicious.” She opened it and started eating.

“Taeyeon? What’s wrong?” she asked, as she noticed that I was blankly staring at the food.

“U-Uh?.. nothing.”

“There is something going on.. tell me you know I would help you with anything~”

“I know. But it’s not like you can help me with this..”

“Taeyeon, I know you’re someone that don’t’ have much words. But that not healthy, That’s the cause of your stress. There’s something called secrets and there’s also something called ranting..” she continued, “..and that’s something all people do in this world except someone called Kim Taeyeon~” she said it in funny way.

I chuckled, “It’s not that I don’t want to share it with you, it’s just I don’t know if sharing with you would get a result. I think it will only give you guys more headaches, so that’s why I’m someone without much words.”

“How could you know that it won’t give a result? Did you try? Try me now..” she said.

“Okay, but don’t tell anyone.. ” she nodded, “..actually I-”

“Hi girls~” Sunny and Tiffany came in.

“Later then?” Hyoyeon said in low voice, I nodded.

We practiced till late hour, since we have our tour soon and also our comeback album songs had some changes.

“Taeyeon where is your mind today?” the trainer oppa yelled at me.

“I’m sorry..” I told him and bowed my head down.

“Put some attention here please!”

“Are you okay?” Tiffany asked me.

“I’m fine.”

“You can’t practice hard.” She reminded me of Jiyong.

“I know.” I told her and went to wash my face.

My mood was just the worst. I completed the practice and just vanished to the car downstairs as we ended.

“Good evening Miss- Taeyeon-ssi” that gentle man told me.

“Good evening, can we pass by a café nearby?”

“Are you feeling un-well?” he asked as he noticed my pale face.

“I need sugar.”

He quickly dispatched from there and went to the café nearby our company.

As I sipped down the iced Americano..

“Ahhhhh~” I moaned helplessly.

“Do we head toward the villa miss?” the driver asked.

“Can I go somewhere else?” with that I went somewhere that I always go to when I have something in mind.

Han river - Gangwon

City of Seoul – Gyeonggi Province

“Miss.. it’s dangerous here to stay alone.” The gentle man told me.

“I have a mask on and a snapback, it won’t be a problem.”

“But still..”

“Don’t worry. Just leave me for couple of minutes alone.”

“We’ll be here. Call me if something happened.” I nodded and went.

This place is a magical way to release your stress out. You can shout everything you have in your heart. No one could tell you why are you here? Why are you shouting? And it’s empty at night.

I sat down there alone..

‘Why are all these happening to me?’ I asked the skies.

‘Can’t I live in peace?’

‘What did I do?’

I kept silent for a minute..

‘my parents left me..’ my voice became muffled, I think tears started to flew too..

‘I didn’t blame them or resent them for leaving me here.’ Tears got harder ‘Why now taking Jiyong away from me?’ I shouted out, and cried out all the tears I have.

‘What did I do?’

‘Am I a mistake in this world?.. is my birth a mistake for this world?’ I didn’t think I would ever let these words to come out from my own mouth.

I buried my head between