I bumped into you on the street 10 years later, I said hi, and you said hi back. I asked you how your life is and you told me about your husband and your kids. And when you do, it will break my heart. Not because I don’t want you to be happy but because that’s all I wanted 10 years ago.

 

I pictured somebody else asking how your life is and you would tell them about me.

10^th August 2014

Kai walked around the gift shop aimlessly, waiting for the rest of the members to finish their ride so he could join the pack. His hurting waist forbade him from taking the ride so the others went ahead without him. He could hear fans screaming his name outside, he turned around and bowed at the LA fans politely before roaming deeper into the shop where they wouldn’t be able to see him. He remembered himself promising the fans that as long as there is one person is a fan of him, he want to always be Exo’s Kai. But right now, he just wanted to be Jongin.

Reaching out for the familiar soft toy that caught his eyes, he held it carefully in his hand. Waves of nostalgia hit him as he fell into a complete daze.

“Why do you like Winnie-the-pooh so much?” Jongin asked the girl as he sat on her bed that was filled with the soft toy of different sizes. He wonders where does she sleep when they took up almost half of her bed.

“Because they are cute.” Seulgi picked out her favourite pooh bear and hugged it tightly. “I like cute things.”

“Oh? Does that mean I’m cute?” He snatched the soft toy from her playfully and beamed at her hopefully, his heart pounding rapidly as he waited for her answer.

Hitting him playfully, Seulgi made a face at him before taking another pooh bear to hug it. “Did I say that I like you?”

“You don’t?”

“I don’t.”

“You sure?”

“I’m sure.”

Looking away, Jongin pretended to put her soft toy back on the bed so she couldn’t see his disappointed face. His heart felt as though it was shattering. Bracing himself, he turned back to her with a smile. “I see.”

“For you.” Seulgi passed him the biggest pooh bear she had.

“Why are you giving it to me? It’s yours, just keep it.”

“I’m sure if you look at it everyday, you will fall in love with its cuteness too.” She sang chirpily, pushing the bear into his embrace. “And who says I’m giving it to you? I’m loaning alright?”

“Loaning?”

“Yeah. You need to return me with a bigger one next time.” With a smile, she stuck out her pinkie. “Promise?”

“Just buy it.”

Looking onto his left, Kai saw his best friend standing beside him. Putting his hands around his shoulders, Kyungsoo patted his back encouragingly. “Just buy it. Seulgi will like it.”

Kai shuddered at the mention of her name while bitterness lingered at his tongue. How he wished he had the courage to utter her beautiful name. Shaking his head, Kai the soft toy gently with his thumb. He knows she would definitely like it, he hadn’t doubt it. In fact, he had even pictured them having fun together the moment he stepped into Disneyland earlier. He just thinks about them a lot, even when ‘them’ doesn’t exist. It had become a habit. With a sad smile, he told him. “I saw her yesterday.”

“Did you talk to her?” The mutual love that his best friend and the girl shares is hard to go unnoticed. They had always been very close since their trainee days, encouraging one another through the tough days as they worked towards their dream together. They were more than just best friends. To Kyungsoo, they are almost like soulmates who makes up each other’s shortcoming and compliments one another’s strengths. He could understand why Kai chose to push her away now, and he could also understand why he could not let her go either; for she had capture his heart for years now. All he could say is that fate is cruel.

“Nope.” Kai shook his head and sighed, it is sad that how it is so much easier not to say anything at all yesterday. He hated himself for keeping silent but he knows he is doing it right. People always think that if they love somebody hard enough then everything is going to work out, but, people are wrong.  “She gave me painkillers though.”

“She is still concerned about you Jongin.”

“If you get to talk to her, please help me tell her not to wait for me.” Kai hung his head as he bit his lips. He pushes everyone around him away whenever they showed him concern, but in a way, he is doing them a favor. Especially Seulgi.

Taken aback by his words, Kyungsoo squeezed his shoulders encouragingly. “I’m not in the position to tell her that.”

“That’s cute!”

“Are you going to buy that?” Squeezing himself in between them, Sehun interrupted their deep conversation with his loud voice without noticing the serious atmosphere that was lingering between the two. His eyes arched into a beautiful crescent as he snatched the pooh bear away from Kai.

Kai could feel Kyungsoo’s reprimanding gaze when he shook his head again, telling the youngest that he wasn’t going to purchase the toy.

“Really?” Sehun looked at the adorable soft toy in his hand that had a similar pair of innocent black eyes as hers, twinkling under the lights like how they caught his eyes the first time he saw her. It had been a while since he last saw her and he wonders if she was doing well. A beautiful smile hooked the inner corner of his lips as he the soft toy lightly.

“If you are not buying it, I am!"

A filler chapter. I know it's boring, just bear with me. (:

I had been dropping hints since the first chapter, manage to spot any?

Enjoy!