I yawned and blinked. So tired.

Kikwang waved goodbye again and I shut the door to my hotel room. We had just came home from the beach. We stayed there and talked for hours until we were both falling asleep.. After that, I urged him to go back into his dorm before he got in trouble or anything.

I dragged my body onto the bed and threw the blanket over my shoulders but I couldn't sleep. My slightly opened window let in sounds of the city and soft, cool breeze. I tossed and turned, uncomfortable in every single position I laid in. Eventually, I gave up and sighed loudly.

I got up and headed out to the small balcony of the hotel room with my blanket wrapped around me.

Today was..... amazing. Kikwang made me feel caressed and loved in a whole different way than before. After seven years of only thinking about one boy halfway across the world from me, being with Kikwang made everything seem so unreal.

Everything was so perfect and set up that I had nothing to worry about at all. 

God had basically put it right in front of my eyes that me and Kikwang were meant for each other.

I had nothing to worry about. All I had to do was love Kikwang and forget Jonghyun.

Simple enough.

[2 weeks later]

Jonghyun's doing good. I mean, that's what I heard from Kikwang, from the SHINee members in interviews, and saw from Jonghyun on television and music programs.

Well I guess I've been pretty good too.

Kikwang and I are getting closer and closer as time passes. He 's so sweet to me and treats me just like any girl would want her boyfriend to treat her.

We see each other every day now after he's done with his schedule and after I finish my hospital work.

The best part of our relationship is that we trust each other. Kikwang knows that I'm not going to stay in Korea for other and he understands unlke Jonghyun did. After seven years, I've finally done it. I've moved on with Jonghyun...

~

"Hana come here," Kikwang held out his hand for me to hold and led me back stage of the huge Dream Concert Stage.

"Isn't it cool?" Kikwang asked with excitement.

I nodded. There were at least 200 cameras catching each and every move of the idols and at least 1000 different lights all around the stage, illuminating the dancers and singers that graced the stage.

I couldn't help but feel agony and jealousy over the girl groups that danced and sang on the stage with their fans cheering them on.

"Your going to do great, don't worry," I ensured Kikwang as I fixed his tie. He looked at me nervously and gulped.

"Why are you even nervous? It's not like it's a solo stage... and you've been on this stage plenty of times!" I said.

"I don't know either but my heart keeps racing and I feel butterflies in my stomach. I'm even shaking!" Kikwang held up his jittery hand for proof.

I laughed.

"Is it because your here?" Kikwang said softly looking into my eyes.

I couldn't help but smile at his words. They melted my heart.

Kikwang leaned in but I stepped back, "Not here. Do you know how many cameras there are?"

"Oh yeah, right," Kikwang flushed and crept away from me a little.

"NEXT ARTIST. BEAST. NEXT ARTIST. BEAST," the intercom announced, "PLEASE GO TO SECTION A."

"Your going to do great," I cheered him on.

"Wish me luck," Kikwang held onto my hand as he walked away, not letting go.

I inched my hand out of his grasp, "Hwaiting."

Kikwang nodded and walked away. All of a sudden, I saw him coming back and swiftly giving me a kiss on the cheek. Before I could react, he was already gone. I smiled and lifted a hand to my cheek where I was blushing. Kikwang made me feel like this.

After waiting a couple of minutes, the MCs announced B2ST's name and the fans went crazy. The lights dimmed and the music started to come on, teasing the fans making them scream even louder in anticipation. The back panel of the stage slowly opened and six handsome boys that they called B2ST stepped out ready to awe the crowd once again.

I watched them dance and sing their hit songs. Even though I've known them for my whole life, I knew why girls loved them for being hot and y yet cute and dorky at the same time.

Kikwang shot a wink to the clueless fans who didn't know about his girlfriend.

All of a sudden, someone grabbed my shirt and threw me aside, leaving me to collapse on the floor.

I looked up in surprise to see a random chaos back stage. The producers were freaking out and running all over the place making phone calls and arrangements for something. The music stopped and B2ST stopped dancing on the stage and looked around in confusion. The fans were just as surprised, throwing fits and asking each other if they knew what was wrong.

As a stylist passed by, I heard her say, "SHINee's Jonghyun is in really bad conditon. He fainted and everything!"

My head immediately turned towards them, "WAIT!"

The stylist and her friend stopped.

"What about Jonghyun? What happpeend?"

"No one's supposed to know... but apparently he fainted and won't get up or something. The doctors can't get here because of the huge traffic in front of the concert hall, " the stylist answered.

"WHERE IS HE RIGHT NOW?!" I exploded.

"Probably in the waiting room... They want to keep this away from the public," the stylist answered and marched of with her friend.

"Oh my god," I went door to door in each waiting room and looked at the signs on each door, "After School, DBSK, B2ST, SISTAR,"

At the very last door i checked, the sign said "SHINee."

Without even thinking I opened the door to see Jonghyun lying on the floor with his managers trying to keep him awake.

"GET OUT!" the managers and bodyguards pulled and pushed me outside.

"WAIT!" I heard Minho shout.

"She's a doctor..." Taemin said.

Everyone stopped pulling and pushing. 

"Your a doctor?" one of the men asked.

I nodded and glanced over to see Jonghyun in a horrible state.

"Fix him," the man pushed me over to Jonghyun and I stumbled towards him. 

The members and bodyguards made a circle around Jonghyun while some locked the door and kept reporters and anyone that could report anything out of the room.

I looked at Jonghyun's troubled face and listened to his heartbeat, felt his hands and did a regular check up.

"Has he been drinking?" I asked.

"He's been out a lot but none of us know where to," Key said. 

"Oh." I replied. I stopped checking Jonghyun.

"What's wrong with him?"

"Alcohol poisoning," I answered in dismay. I asked for a pen and some tools and did a quick "surgery" on him. All of those years of medical school finally came in handy, I thought. After a few seconds, Jonghyun gasped for air and everyone let out a sigh. Jonghyun blinked and looked around, confused. I hid my face under my hair, got up and started my way out of the room.

"Who was that?" I heard Jonghyun faintly whisper.

"Hana," Onew's voice answered, "... Have you been drinking?" There was no more sound from Jonghyun after that. I quickly buried myself through the crowd of people in SHINee's waiting room when a manager stopped me.

"THis never happened. Jonghyun simply fainted because of worry and excitement," he said.

I nodded and shook my shoulder off of his grasp, "Sure.. but don't let him go out anymore and send him to the hospital right now. He could've died if I weren't here."

"Thank you," the manager said as I walked out of the door.

Kim Jonghyun. What's wrong with you?