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                Hana refuse any schedule and music work,not even border with Group S promote, everyday she only talking to Minwoo and look after him at the hospital.

“ Minbong…do u know how depress I am  now? I cant really focus on anything , now the scandal about us are spread like crazy , Minbong…I don’t know what to do , can u just wake up and tell me how to do? Please “ as she said her tears slowly falling down.

“ Noona!!!Nooona “ Hana turn to the door , Changjo try to catch his breath , she looked at his pale face

“ What happened? “

“ Noona , did u see Eunchae coming here? “ She shaking her head ,

“ No , why? “

“ Noona , she didn’t go to school today and tonight we have a special dance battle stage with Taemin and Hyoyeon Noona “ He said , his voice is cracking full of worried.

“ Didn’t u call her? “

“ She leave her phone at the dorm , Hyejin noona pick up and told me , she didn’t bring it with her “

“ What? “ Hana start to feel worry ,

“ Noona , we missed the rehearsal in the morning already and now we only have 4 more hours. I am really worry “

“ That’s ok , go with me “ She rush go to the company.

                As an older sister , she knew the first place that Eunchae go must be practice room.As she step in she heard the sobbing voice , Changjo want to turn the light on but Hana stopped him.

“ Don’t make a sound and don’t turn on the light , I will go to talk with her , u wait here “

“ But “ She nodded as telling him that it gonna be fine , don’t worry.

                She slowly sit near her younger sister in the dark .

“ It’s me “ Eunchae recognize her Unnie voice.She a bit surprise.

“ Unnie…. “ She said through her tears.

“ what had happened dear? “ She used her gentle voice to asked Eunchae and held her in her chest.

“ Unnie “ Eunchae held her unnie tight.

“ Don’t cry good kid , tell me , am here for u  “

“ Unnie , I don’t know what to do with my life “ She said still sobbing hard.

“ Tell me dear , what had happened? “ she used her thump to wipe Eunchae’s tears away.

“ Unnie , my parents want me to be a doctor but “

“ but u want to be a performer “ Eunchae nodded as Hana held her tighter , she leave a heavy signed before patting her hair.

“ I also come through this problem too , life may seem scary to u right now , but don’t feel worry , am here with u. All parents always wish their kids the best , sometime I asking myself if oneday I become someone mom ,will I do the same ? “

“ hmmm..do u mean that I should try to understand my parents feeling “ Hana smiled and nodded.

“ Yeah but It not mean to let u put ur dream down , trust me , try to talk to them and be an understanding child , tell them what u want , but not yelled at them without any reason , show them that u are growing up and u can responsible on ur life “

“ But….but…I am fear “

“ Let me tell u my own story , I was born in a family that both my parents are professor , they know nothing about art , dance , sing , and more than this, they don’t like it , so as their kid , I have no time to show them that I like dance , I thought that I cant show them because they don’t like it and they will hate me if I show them.I afraid that they wont love me anymore. Yet because am still a child that time. “

“ And they also the same as ur parents , they want me to be a doctor , yes , I decided to go to med school to fulfilled their expectation since that time  I was very young , I graduated from high school when I was 16 , so I don’t know what I want to do with my life , and I even thought , I am weird because almost all of my friends go to med school , law school , so I think why I like dance?.I have no idea. And for one point , I was a kid that my brother always compare me to other, he think other people can do it and why I cant? “

“ my crush also learning with me so he is also the reason I decide go to med school but deep inside I have no passion with what I was doing , I always love art , and write . I got top score in languages , and most of art class but my score is very low in math , and chemistry since both my parents are professor , it’s really difficult for me in high school , I work my off to get top score in everything. And dance is not what they want me to learn so I must skip and don’t dream about dance. “

“ So why u can become a dancer ? “

“ Because I never give up on what I loved , but, college needed to be enjoy and not endure , I really feeling down when I was in 1st year of college but at the same time, I started to grow up , started to found out what I want to do with my life. U know I don’t have any friends because I study at Taiwan and since the college is far from my parents apartment , I stayed at the dorm. “

“ It must be hard for u “

“ Yeah , there are no spare time for me when I am in med school , I stayed up all night , and am not that smart so my grade is lower than other students , I start to feel depressing , and asking myself , Is doctor is what I want to do in my life?.A lot of question overwhelming me , both negative and positive.Each day seem so slow , dance , design and write is what I loved to do the most. And am very passionate in it. “

“ And how do u deal with ur parents? “

“ It’s very difficult , in my 3rd year of college , 1st semester , I had asthma and it’s a serious one , I remember that night was so scary to me , I couldn’t stop coughing and it really difficult for me to breath , I couldn’t even sleep.I think that maybe I cant service  anymore , I start to crying , coughing , but fortunately that I can service until morning , my roommate take me to the emergency room. “

“ I started to fear with life because I don’t know what to do or how to do , if today is the last of my life what I want to do?.I asked myself again and again and I realized I want to dance , design. I know being a performer , my parents wont agree with me even a designer they need to take a deep thought about it.

But I fight with everything , I started to talk to them what I want , of course , they hardly accept it since I am in 3rd years but I told them what in my mind and my heart.It take them few weeks to finally let me do what I want “

“ Remember everyone made mistake in life , u don’t had to feel depressing , all u needed to do is solving the problem , setting up ur goal and do it , “

“ But I really loved parents and I don’t want to let them down “ She said , Hana smiled to her

“ Either do I , I loved them and nobody can compare or replace them in my heart but think again if u don’t happy how can ur parents be happy?.Make them proud of u. “

“ Unnie , so what should I do now? “

“ What do u love beside performing? “

“ I love acting but I afraid I can’t earn my living from it “

“ Yes , I used to think the same as u , life is so scary at that time , I think if I study design how can I earn?.The job market is so small , but do what u loved , u can put all of ur passion and be number 1 , if u do what u don’t love u,u will fail , it doesn’t mean all the doctor always earn the most money right?Other way life is too short.Dont waste ur time. “

“ Unnie , u are my inspirer “

“ Everybody come through the hard time , I believe u too , but don’t feel afraid because u have 7 sisters , u are not alone “

“ Komawo Unnie “

“ Become one of the best performer and actress , understand?. “

“ Yes , but Unnie I missed the dance battle stage today , Ottoke? “ Eunchae pulled Hana away.

“ Don’t worry we have 3 hours more “ A voice from Changjo made Eunchae run to turn the light on.

“ U heard everything?. “ As always Eunchae and Changjo are oil and water.

“ Don’t yelled at me , u made me going crazy the whole day , don’t u know that I worry about u?.SO crazy “ Hana at the corner of the room chuckle.This two kids.

“ Come on , practice and rush go to MBC station “ Han said ,

“ Unnie , but I really cant win this stage , they are too strong , Hyoyeon Unnie is very strong dancer special in popping and locking , and don’t even mention about Taemin Oppa , his ab