“So why aren’t you at practice right now?” Seungho asked curiously, they all glanced at Leo waiting silently for him to speak.

“I’ve decided to take a break from VIXX.” He announced, five mouths fell open in shock and Leo looked away  a small smile on his face at their reaction.

“What..but why?” Thunder asked confused, Seungho knew how Leo felt about N and was surprised that he would make this decision.

“I don’t really feel like this is the life I should be leading. I don’t know why I thought it was possible for someone shy like me to be an idol.” Leo explained, G.O snorted in disbelief shaking his head.

“Yah. There’s no need to lie.” He stated pinning the younger boy with a stern look, Leo gulped his face flushing slightly staring intently into his coffee.

“Well, since Yunju is here. I decided to back off and let him have his chance, I didn’t expect him and N to get along so well. I thought that this would be a good way to show the others how much they need me in the group but…I think its backfiring.” He explained softly, Mir smiled gently wrapping his arm around the older boys shoulder sighing.

“Ah Ravi-ah, what can I do for you?” Jung asked curiously when the young rapper walked into his office a nervous look on his face.

“Um well hyung, I know how Leo hyung feels about N hyung and I want to do something to help him. I feel like the longer Yunju sunbae stays with us the worse things will get.” Ravi explained, Jung was listening closely a small smile forming on his face thinking that maybe this plan might be working.

“Go on, I’m listening.” Jung encouraged leaning back in his chair, Ravi tried to contain his excitement and turned back to the door motioning Ken, Hongbin and Hyuk into the room.

“Go on Hyukie..play what you recorded.” Ken murmured, Hyuk his lips unsure if this was a good idea because he didn’t want to break Leo’s trust in him but he wanted to help his hyung more than anything.

**recording**

“She…she’s your mom?”

“Neh…I found out when I was about 10, that Seo-hyun isn’t my mom. I guess my parents divorced when I was about a year, when they divorced my mom had to let me go. She doesn’t know that I know.”

“After I found out about my parents and what the actual situation was. I was angry and heart broken, I lost trust in everyone. I wasn’t upset at Mrs. Lee, I knew that she just did what she had to thinking that I would have a better life but the truth was that I didn’t. My parents are terrifying people Hyukie, tey don’t like people who are different and lets be honest I’m clearly different. I’m quiet, I don’t really like people and I like to be alone. They wanted a loud energetic athletic son, of course they got the athletic part because I loved soccer. It wasn’t long until I realized that I liked boys, I didn’t tell them because I knew what their reaction was going to be. I really liked hanging out with my friends around that time but as I realized my feelings it became awkward and I started to withdraw. Yunju was one of my closest friends so I ended up telling him, and he seemed okay with it. Actually all of my friends were okay with it, they supported me whole heartedly. So growing up I had a normal life and I did skinship a lot with my friends, I ended up dating this guy named Sejong, we were really close. He respected my boundaries and never pushed me into anything that I didn’t want. I was going to introduce him to my parents when things suddenly changed, Yunju and I decided to try out for Jellyfish together, we anted to be in a group together. However he broke his leg a few days before the audition and I went alone, he knew that I was going but he didn’t think that I would make it. When I made it into the agency, he was so supportive. Little did I know that he was very jealous and was going to ruin my life that I knew until then, after making it into the agency I went home to tell my parents only to be met with hate and disgust. Seems like Yunju went and told them about my relationship with Sejong, they forbade me to see him. I ended up having to cut all ties with him and my friends, my parents literally kept me a prisoner in our home.

“I couldn’t have friends over if they were guys because they didn’t want me to do anything. I wasn’t even allowed to hug male family members, only to shake their hand out of respect. Dad would beat me if I did something that angered him, even if it was something like being late from school. Since I thought Seo-hyun was my mom, I think her reaction hurt me the most because she looked at me as if I was disgusting, that feeling was probably the worst thing ever. Since I had gotten into the agency, I knew my parents wouldn’t agree until I proved to them it was all a lie. I  started to change, it felt so wrong Hyukie, why couldn’t they love me for who I was? I stopped being close to people completely, I met one of my elementary school friends Eunji who knew that I was gay but agreed to be my girlfriend to fool my parents. I’ve never been so grateful to someone before, I owe her a lot. Finally after about two years, my parents agreed to let me enter the agency full time, before that I would practice but go home and sleep and other things. I was so relieved to get away from my parents, I came here first because I wanted to see Mrs. Lee for the last time since I didn’t know how long it would be. I think the reason that I haven’t told her that I know who she is, is because I’m afraid to be rejected again, it already happened from one mom I can’t go through that again.”

“Wow..I didn’t know it was that bad.” Jung whispered glancing at the four boys sitting in front of him he sighed and stood going to his bookcase he searched around until he found a small picture frame and turned to them. “Leo, seems to be opening up to you guys more, I think I can as well.” They looked at each other confused, Ravi took the picture and they all stared at it curiously. It clearly showed Jung when he was younger and also another younger boy who looked slightly familiar.

“Isnt’ that Leo hyung?” Hongbin said suddenly, looking closely they recognized him and glanced at Jung confused. “How did you know him when he was younger?”

“Leo is my half-brother.” He stated calmly, Hyuk’s eyes widened in surprise because Leo hadn’t mentioned a brother but he understood because it could cause problems if anyone found out. “Now, please tell me this plan of yours.”

“Uh well, we were thinking that we could get them on We Got Married, the show is getting more adventurous and besides everyone knows how shy Leo hyung is and how close he is with N. I think it would be good, showing the fans how N could help Leo with his shyness and all that.” Ken stated, they held their breath waiting for Jung’s reaction and to their surprise he smiled slightly.

“I think that is a great idea, I can make the arrangements. When you see N please send him here so we can talk.” He said, they nodded bowing and quickly left they were shocked that he had agreed and could barely contain their excitement unaware of the consequences that were sure to arise.