I toss and turn in my bed, laying awake. The thought of her having a fiance made me feel uneasy.

"What are you thinking Nichkhun?"

Have I lost my mind? She is officially taken. However she is afraid of him. How is it so?

"I was kidnapped by his ex."

That was what escapes . Ah.. , her lips. Hearing those sweet voice from her made my day. Aish. What am I saying? She belongs to someone. Maybe I should quit what I'm feeling and just move on. Besides in one more month, we'll be touring for a year.

My eyes gradually could not hold it. It felt heavy. I guess the workload that Jinyoung oppa gave us was getting to me. Pondering over this matter is useless. She has him.

I should let her go..

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I woke up as the sun shines into the room. I guess the nurse or someone had open it. My body still feels the effect of the drug. What am I on?

"Good morning _____." That voice.

"Yoochun oppa." How I wish he is here now. Khun oppa.

"Are you feeling better?" I still have this this feeling that I don't want him around. It maybe childish but after having been kidnapped by his 'fan', it was quite traumatic to make me wanting to avoid him.

"______-ah.." He try to hold my hands but i refuse to let him. I tug my hands under the sheets.

"Please.. What's wrong? Why the sudden coldness?" Sudden? I don't know what to say to him. It's as if, I don't feel the same anymore. Anyone could tell that I'm in confusion if they could read my thoughts.

"Please leave oppa." I really meant it for some reason.

"But why?"

"Just leave" I turn to the opposite direction where he was sitting.

"Please tell me why? I am your fiance. You suppose to share your feelings with me." Could I? Why do I have hatred in this mixed feelings?

"Please go."

"But _____-ah.." Just tell him. Should I? What am I feeling? What do I think?

"Please, please.."

"______-ah-"

"Do you really want to know why I'm avoiding you oppa? Really?" Silence.

"It is because of you that I was kidnapped." Wait. He was not suprise? Does he knows something?

"I was captured by Yuna." None. No response.

"I was captured because she loves you dearly. You were with her all so sudden and the same goes to when you broke up with her.Out of nowhere you came to me and we're enggaged. Why is that? I feel like I'm just some doll. To be treated like this." He seem to be thinking about something. Well, I had a lot more to say. Staying at the hospital realy got me thinking.

Why was my engagement so sudden? When was it decided? Was it just pure love? Or is it a business deal? If it were, who proposed to this deal? Mom and dad? Or uncle and aunty?

"______-ah.. I..I-"

"Stop and just leave." Seeing the seriousness in my face. He left me.

I call out for the doctor to examine me. I wanted to get out of this place. I need to settle this once and for all. I'm no more a coward.