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Chapter 17

It was late into the night when Jaejoong snuck out of the Jung house, he felt awkward sleepy in this new environment on his own without his brother, his father and his Umma all under the same room. Instead there where five people he consider stangers  Although his mother was across the hall from him, he didn’t want to wake him up. He thought it was best if he just tip toed down the stairs quietly, sneaking out of the house... he hoped they didn’t have an alarm on the house alerting to the rest of the house he was up. He made his way to the back door and slipped outside, he needed some fresh air to clear his mind. He continued walking away from the house to a great distance into the night with no clue where he was going or where he was heading, he just needed to get out. It wasn’t until to the point when he decided to make his way back he realized he couldn’t. He wasn’t really paying much attention to his surrounding or where he was walking. He looked around looking for something, if only he paid attention. He didn’t have a phone yet… he had lost that privilege until he was ready to handle a new phone and the responsibility that went with it. He didn’t really care but now that he needed it, he regretted the offer of having one again.He remembered the hateful messages he had being getting for months until everyone found out, it broke his mother’s heart when he went through his phone. It didn’t matter how many times Jaejoong deleted them, there's always more came.

Jaejoong began to descend down a street hoping it was the right way back, he scowled himself for leaving the house even for not paying attention to the way he was going. He was just about to cross the street when he felt something on the back of his head. He tilted his head to the sky, although it was dark he could still make out the darker indication of cloud. He realized it was drops of water. As more drop fell down onto his face.

“Oh shoot,” Jaejoong pulled up his hoody covering himself as best he could before running as fast as he could for somewhere to shelter from the rain. He stopped under a bus shelter wondering had he really walked the wrong way, he wasn’t that good with direction. He stayed under the bus shelter looking up at the sky wondering when it would stop and allow him to find his way home. He knew he had to get back before his mother finds out. He wrapped his arms around him as his body as he began to tremble, his teeth chattered as the rain got heavier. Jaejoong didn’t know how much time pass, but to him it felt so long, the cold made his drift that he felt so numb, and the rain had soaked his clothes all the way through. He looked down when he felt something soft pressed against my legs. He saw a cat circling around his leg meowing he bend down and reached out his hand as the cat snuggled up beside him. He lifted it up and held it close to his chest.

 “Hey little kitty, you’re stuck out in the rain too?” he petted it on the head, while showing the cat one of his most tendered smile. One he hadn’t show in a very long time. “Don’t worry I’ll keep you warm now, okay?” 

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Not far away from home, Yunho was on his way back home from a while party… he had snuck out late into the night while most of his family were sleeping. He was so used to sneaking out that to him it felt like Childs play, but if he ever got caught by his mother or father, he knew he would be in for a lot of trouble. But even now he knew he needed to sober himself up before he got home. He had been dancing all night with his so called friends. He could even slightly remember one of the girls trying to led him upstairs. But Yunho wasn’t that drunk… he felt the party shortly stumbling his way home. It wasn’t until he came upon a figure hunched up in a corner of the bus shelter did he stop… he watched the figure of a moment wondering was the person waiting of a bus this late at night. He figured it was none of his business… and was about to continue when he found a familiarity in his voice as the person spoke to something he was holding… he turned to the figure who was avoiding looking at him at all cost.

“What are you doing?” Yunho asked making the figure jump. Before peeking out.

 “I… I...?” Jaejoong stumbled with his words.

“Can’t you speak properly for once? You’ve been stay at our house for a week,” Yunho spoke harshly at him, “Seriously all I ever hear from you is I… I… What are you, five? What are you doing out here in the first place? Come on, I’m waiting…” Yunho folded his arm waiting for Jaejoong’s answers.

“I went for a walk…”

“A walk?”

“Yeah…”

“Then why are you here…” Yunho asked. Home was in the other direction, Yunho thought about it , “Let me guess, you got lost?” Jaejoong nodded his head, “Figured, it was something stupid like that.” Jaejoong pouted at Yunho’s statement. “But then again it can’t be helped. What is it? Is this the first time you made it out of the house on your own without your mother following your every move?” the way Yunho spoke about his mother like that. It’s not his Umma didn’t have his reason. “And I thought my Umma was bad. Fine, comes on,” Yunho walked in the opposite direction. Jaejoong followed timidly behind him. He didn’t like the way Yunho spoke about his mother, it wasn’t like he didn’t have his reason. They didn’t speak most of the way home. Yunho walked in a quick pace making Jaejoong had to quicken his step. As soon as they reached the back door, Yunho turned to Jaejoong, “Don’t make a sound, if we are caught, we’ll be in a heap of trouble.”

They slipped into the house as quietly as they could with Yunho in front, leading the way into the darkness of the house while Jaejoong closed the door behind them, but as he didn’t remember the kitchen light was switched on. Around the kitchen table, his mother sat looking worse, with Leeteuk’s arm about his shoulder. Kangin was the one who switched on the light. Yunho could see his father glare at him, he knew he was in trouble. Jaejoong stood frozen, looking down at the cat he was still holding. His could see from the corner of his eye his mother’s eyes were blood shot. He wanted to dart back out of the kitchen… but where would he go. He walked toward his mother making his Umma gaze at him, his eyes filled with worry. The first word that came out of his mouth…

“Did you…?” Heechul asked. Jaejoong shook his head no, he didn’t need his mother to finish his statement, “I need you to say it Jaejoong… Did you cut yourself?”

“Yunho… Living room now…” Leeteuk order his son as he was getting up, he wanted to give Heechul some privacy with his son. “I think it’s time your father and I had a little chat with you…” Yunho knew he was busted. Yunho was about to walk out when he was stopped.

“Leeteuk-shi it’s all my fault, I’m sorry…” Jaejoong took a deep breath he wanted to sound convincing. “Yunho saw me leave the house and came after me.” Jae lied. “I-I couldn’t sleep so I thought a walk would do me good, but I got lost and Yunho brought me back…” Leeteuk and Kangin glanced to one another and then back at Jaejoong who turned to his mother, “Umma, I’m sorry.”

“Are you?” Heechul didn’t sound convinced. “How could you be so stupid Jae… Do you know how worried I was? What I’d think when I saw you gone? Do you have any idea what was going through my mind?”

“I-I do…”

“DO You?”

“Yes…” Jaejoong clarified. “I know Umma… I really do, and I told you I wouldn’t do it again. I promised you, Appa and Hyung… I wouldn’t do something like that again.” Jaejoong told him, while Yunho glanced over at him. He couldn’t help but wonder what the hell was going on and why was Jaejoong lying for him. Jaejoong placed the cat on the ground and lifted up his sleeves. “See I told you I wouldn’t.” Yunho couldn’t help but notice how many white lines all over Jaejoong’s arm. He couldn’t help but wonder.

Why are there so many scars on his arms?

Yunho furrowed his eyebrows thinking had Jaejoong done that to himself? The answer he couldn’t come up with was why? Why would Jaejoong do something like that to himself? He eyes didn’t move from the white lines, to Heechul’s reach and pulled Jaejoong into a hug and he held him dearly. It was only then did he realised his his son was soaked to the skin.

“Jae you’re soaked to the skin,” Heechul held him at arms let, “You’ll caught a cold if you don’t get out of these wet clothes.” Heechul was already pulling Jaejoong’s hoodie off his shoulder, leading him up to his bedroom.

“Umma, the cat…”

“I’ll get it, you up and change.” He walked back into the kitchen and pick up the little stray Jaejoong had picked up,  "I'm sorry about this Kangin...Leeteuk.....

"Don't worry about it.... ?" Kangin told him.... befor ehe left the kitchen to follow Jaejoong. it was only after they left the turned their  atention to the eldest son....… both sighed.

"I hope what Jaejoong said was true or you would be in for a world of trouble... no off to bed....!" Leeteuk  told his son. "We’ll talk in the morning,” Leeteuk told him.

“Umma wait...… Jae… he…”

“Leeteuk, I think now would be better to discuss it with Yunho,”Kangin suggested. "He can help keep an eye on him..

“Maybe you’re right, more people will help....Yunho take a seat.” Yunho took a seat and gave his parent his full attention as they told him everything they knew. Yunho couldn’t believe it. How could someone make Jaejoong feel like that… the thought planned on his mind the whole night?

"Yunho you have to promise you won't tell your brother.s...Jaejoong still strugging so it would be best it you didn't mention to anyone.

"I will Umma....."

"Good... now i think it time we all go to bed..... Yunho left his parent in the kitchen standing out side Jaejoong slighlty ajar door. Heechul was sitting on the side of the bed ta lking to Jaejoong who seemed to be playing with the cat  he picked up.  He didn't know how someone could make another person feel like that. he was pleaged my memories of his friend moking his younger brother.... He wondered had Taemin ever felt like that.... Changmin had tols him a number of time.... about how the picked on him... but Yunho just say it as friendly banner.... what if they didn't see it like that... he made his way to his room  and closed the door...

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