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“Till when should I act that I don’t like her?” I groaned.

“……”

“do you know how hard it is?” I ruffled my hair.

“……”

I look at him and sighed.

“You’ll never feel what I feel…you’re god damn lucky.”

“…..”

“everytime I see her with him, It just kills me on the spot. Donghae was just using her against me. I know it but I can’t do anything about it. This real bad.”

“…..”

“Yuri, can you please stop talking to mickey…that thing won’t answer.” Taeyeon said.

“I’d better have him not answering than have you telling me stuffs I don’t even want to hear.” I said.

She rolled her eyes.

I moved beside Taeyeon and lay down beside her.

“this is exhausting. I have been hiding and lying around since I entered this industry. I don’t even know until when can I endure all this stuffs.” I bit my lips hardly.

Taeyeon look at me and asked.

“does you parents know about you?”

I nodded.

“They were my family what do you expect, They were with me ever since from the start.”

“Were they mad? How did they react?” she asked curiously.

“at first they were. I can’t even explain how hard I went through. They won’t talk to me for months. It was only my brother who supported me all the way. I was so scared and depressed to the point that I wanted to break up with my first girlfriend at that time.” I chuckled at the thought.

“you’ve had a girlfriend?” Taeyeon’s eyes widen.

I nodded with a smile.

“She was my first girlfriend. First kiss. First love. First for everything. We were both closet gays. We were just friends and eventually something sparked between us. It was funny how we ended up together, God I miss her.” I chuckled. ”oh and she was older than me. I had her before Donghae”

“what’s her name?” she asked.

I look at her and stuck my tongue out.

She frowned.

“that’s not fair. I thought you trust me.” She pouted.

I rolled my eyes.

“I trust you, so I’ll let you meet her soon.”

Her face lit up and I smiled too.

“satisfied?” I asked.

She nodded like a kid.

“hell yeah.” She said excitedly.

“I wonder what she looks like.”

I shrugged with a smile.

‘you’ll be surprised.’

I said as I look at the ceiling.

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[a/n] exgf

“are you free this Saturday?” I asked ‘my first girlfriend’ through the phone.

“I think so….” She said in an unsure tone.”hey~ are you asking me out?” she giggled.

“I think so…” I answered her on the same unsure tone she gave me.

“meanie.” I can imagine her pouting over the phone.

I chuckled loudly.

“Yuri!.” I look back when I heard someone calling for me.

“Sica.” I smiled.

“Is that Jessica?” she asked over the phone.

“yep.” I answered her with a smile.

“you’re totally smiling wide, aren’t you?” she said in a jealous tone.

“and you’re totally jealous.” I teased.

“am not.” She said.

“you are.” I teased even more.

I was surprised when Jessica hugged me tightly.

“who’s that?” she asked curiously.

“a friend.” I answered her.

“awwwww…you should’ve have introduced me better than that.” She said.

I chuckled.

“Then how should I introduce you then/” I asked.

Jessica lifted up my arm and put it around her shoulder.

I look down at her and smiled.

“your ex.” She said with a laugh.

“that doesn’t sound good.” I said.

“on what way?” she asked.

“in every way.” I chuckled.

I look down at Jessica when I felt her hand tracing the outline of my trident abs.

“why?’ I mouthed her.

She look at me and said.

“you’re ignoring me.” She said honestly.

“uh..oh! princess is mad and she wanted your attention.”

I rolled my eyes on what my ex said.

Jessica seemed to hear what my ex said cause she was now glaring at my phone.

“who is that?” she hissed.

“no one.” I lied. “just a close friend.”

“a super close friend.” She shouted.

Jessica squinted her eyes.

She was about to grab my phone but I was quick enough to pull it away from her.

“uh..uh.” I shook my finger on her face. I turned off the call.

She pouted.

“I don’t like your friend.” She bluntly said.

I chuckled.

“why?” I asked.

She shrugged.

“just because.” She marched away from me.

“heeeey~” I ran after her.

I poked her side and she faced at me with a glare.

“I thought I was your best friend.” She sounded jealous and hurt.

I smiled and poked her cheek.

“jelly~”

She swatted my hand and glared at me again.

“super close friend is different with best friend.”  I said as I put my arm around her shoulder.

“whatever.” She scoffed.

I sighed.

“fine, I’ll just go and talk to her. At least she doesn’t go mad at me that easily.” I said.

She look at me with a frown.

“I hate you.” She said.

‘this is childishly cute.’

“I love you~.” I said.

“I hate you much much much.”

“I love you much.” I took a step closer to her.”much…” I pushed her to the wall.”much…” I held her chin so she can look straight into my eyes.”much….” I kissed her forehead.”more than her…so shut up bestfriend.” I smiled.

I moved away from her and she was blushing.

She sighed.

“I still hate you.” She glared at me.

“I know you don’t” I winked at her and hugged her tightly.”I know you won’t.”

She slapped my arms and smiled at me.

“cocky.” She bit my arm.

“awwwww!.” I wiped my arm with her saliva on it.

‘why do I love you?’

“I love you too, Kwon Yuri.” She ran away from me.