Jiyeon’s P.O.V

I liked being in control and confidant. I had missed this feeling for some time now, and gaining it back makes me feel stupid for changing myself for some boy. Although to be brutally honest, my heart still experienced electric shocks of pain. I was beginning to think that the whole worlds confidence wouldn’t cure the heartache I had. What I only wished for now was that this confidence didn’t leave me in my time of need. This senior trip to Jeju was going to be one that would create a war between my head and my heart…

‘Yoseob, why did you ask him to forget me? Kikwang, why did you agree?’ I went to bed that night thinking that. But for some reason, I couldn’t help but think I was forgetting something.

Suzy’s P.O.V

My job was complete. After fixing the room assignments, I think things are going to get a lot more dramatic, and fun around here. I’m so happy Appa decided to bring the family back to Korea! Now I have new toys to play with, and their names are: Jiyeon, Kikwang and Yoseobie! Keke ahhh you should have accepted my love Yoseob, now everyone you love is going to have to suffer… especially Park Jiyeon.

Kikwang’s P.O.V

Lying down on my bed, I couldn’t shake the image of Jiyeon’s face when she found out I had lied to her about my feelings, out of my head. I got up and went to my desk, and held up a picture of Yoseob, IU, Jiyeon and I at a school event just one year ago.

“I wish I could go back to this day. When neither one of us had expressed our true feelings. The four people in this picture were so innocent, sweet, and let’s not mention kind to one another. Now what are we to each other? We’ve just hurt each other to the extent that we can’t even talk without fighting. I miss this.”

“YAH KIKWANG! KEEP IT DOWN I’M TRYING TO STUDY! NOT EVERYONE CAN GET INTO SEOUL UNIVERSITY LIKE YOU OR UNIVERSITY OF SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA LIKE YOU! aish…stupid talks to himself now.” Sohyun yelled from her room.

I took a second look at the group picture.

‘IU, what did you say to Jiyeon? Why did you lie to me? Was I really worth it?’ With that, I went back to bed. But again, Jiyeon’s face never left my mind. I dreamt about her that night, even in my dream her embrace seemed real.

Yoseob’s P.O.V

“Wooyoung, I’m screwed! What should I do? I messed up man, I can’t live without her.” I said as Wooyoung and I  were playing video games. We both thought the best way for us to not be late to school the next day, would be to stay up all night playing video games.

“Ca--can we t-ta-talk about this later. I really just want to focus on---! Aish see what you made me do. That’s it. Let’s talk about your problems, I need a damn break and a cookie!” he got up and walked to the cookie jar on the table.

“You know…you’re kind of weird…” I said as I dropped the remote control onto my table.

“YAH! shut up! now tell me, what’s the problem again?” he said as he stuffed 5 cookies in his mouth at the same time.

“Jiyeon. Well she’s not the problem, I am but today I--“

“HAHAHA I almost forgot, you totally made yourself look pathetic today in front of class A-1! Hahahaha how could I forget to make fun of you? Oh my god. Some people even took videos and put them on—“ Videos? AISH!!!

“WILL YOU SHUT UP! I WAS THERE! I KNOW HOW EMBARRASING IT WAS!”

“Dude, chill. I think there are more stuff eating you up besides Jiyeon.” I hadn’t really told anyone about Suzy yet, could I trust Wooyoung to keep everything to himself, or would he tell Jiyeon since he’s faithful to her?

“Well there is more on my mind.” I managed to say.

“Well spill! I’m not a psychic. I can’t read your mind and tell you your future. You gotta give me a little something something, I need something to work with!” I think he’s had too many cookies now. I slowly grabbed the cookie jar and hid it when he was looking the opposite direction. ‘SUCCESS!” I then made my way back to the couch.

“Well, what’s really eating me up besides this whole Jiyeon situation is—“ all of a sudden Wooyoung got a text message, and his face went from happy to sad. What was wrong? I’ve never seen my cheerful Wooyoung change expressions this fast.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” I was really scared…DID SOMEONE DIE?

“If I told you something, you promise not to tell anyone else?”

“I promise. You didn’t kill anyone did you?” OH MY GOD HE KILLED SOMEONE DIDN’T HE?!?!?!

“No. But it’s much worse. It’s shady and heartless, and I never intended it to happen, but it did.” What was eating him up? I’ve never heard Wooyoung say these kinds of words before.

“You’re scaring me Wooyoung. What happened? Why are you so sad?”

There was an awkward pause, but he finally spoke.

“I like IU” There was something inside of me, waiting to come out…

“HAHAHAHAHAHAHA THAT’S YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? HOW IS THIS WORSE THAN MURDER? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH” I probably shouldn’t be laughing, but all the pain inside me just turned into laughter, hahaha this was better than tears, at least!

“IT’S NOT FUNNY, YOSEOB! She’s my friend’s girl, how can I like her when she is in love with him? But what can I do, it hurts here whenever I see her smile at him.” He pointed to his heart…that’s how I feel whenever I see Jiyeon.

“it hurts a lot doesn’t it? I know how you feel, that’s how I feel right now.” I saw Jiyeon’s bright face in my head; I wanted nothing more than for her to be in my embrace right then and there.

“I’m sorry bro. Why does love have to be so complicated? At least you’ve had a chance with IU, I’ve never had a chance with her! Because everyone thinks I’m such a playboy, but I’m not. I’ve never liked any of the girls I’ve hooked up with. I guess that’s not helping my case… I just wish I could turn back time and stop her from ever dating Kikwang…he doesn’t even treat her well. All she does is cry all the time.”

I was torn, I couldn’t tell him to go after to her because if he succeeded then Kikwang would go after Jiyeon, and I couldn’t compete with that. Especially now that Suzy was in the picture. But I couldn’t let Wooyoung not go after the one thing that makes him happy, that would be selfish. I had made a promise to myself: I was never going to be selfish again; my selfishness wasn’t fair to anyone.

“Do what your heart and head want you to do. If it’s the right time, then everything will fall into place. Just, make sure this is what you want.” I think my advice was good…right?

We stayed there quiet for a while. Neither one of us wanted to talk about love anymore, it hurt too much to think about Jiyeon, and he probably felt the same way about IU.

‘Why did Suzy have to show up and kill my happiness for the second time.’

The next day

No one’s P.O.V

As the students began arriving at school, they were divided based on cliques for the car ride to the airport and seat selections.

Jiyeon’s P.O.V

As I arrived at school, everyone seemed ecstatic. I wish I could be the same, but I came to school with the mindset that this was going to be the trip from hell. -.- at least I was rooming with IU…That reminded me…

“THE ROOM ARRANGMENTS!!!” Evereyone just looked at me.

“Why is she screaming again?”

“She’s going crazy, just walk away from her!”

I didn’t care about what my stupid classmates were saying behind my back, I ran to Miss Park

“Miss Park, I’m so sorry I forgot to turn in the room assignments to you, Chunji took them from me yester—“

“It’s okay Jiyeon, I got them in my box yesterday. Don’t worry about it anymore. Now go back to where all the students are, we will be reading off the van arrangements in 5 minutes.”

I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Thank god for Chunji’s thinking, or else what would my excuse to Miss Park be? “Sorry Miss Park, I have been having boy issues for the past 2 weeks. Thus, I couldn’t turn in the sheet on time because I was telling the two most important guys in my life to date each other and leave me alone?” I don’t think that conversation would’ve turn out well…

“All right seniors, please settle down. I’m going to read the van arrangements for the bus ride to the airport. You have all been split up into 8 vans, and in those vans you will have to choose either one or two classmates to sit next to on the airplane. The first van will be:

Park Jiyeon(yay me!)

Lee Ji-Eun(IU)(YES!)

Lee Kikwang(NOOOO!)

Yang Yoseob(NOOOOO!)

Jang Wooyoung(yay!)

Son Dongwoon(hmmm okay…we don’t really talk that much.)

Yong Junhyung(YAY!)

Goo Hara(Aww I love her!)

Jang Huynseung(the mysterious one..hmmm)

Park Sunyoung(Luna)(YAH! My girl!)

And last but not least…

Bae Suzy(! Why her?)

I was willing to sit next to anyone but Yoseob and Kikwang. Hopefully I could find my friends fast enough before they made other plans. I ran around the whole field looking for everyone, and when I finally found them in their tight little group, I was already too late >.< Wooyoung was already confirming the seating arrangements.

“So Luna, IU and Kikwang are taking a three seater. Goo Hara and Junhyung are in a two seater. Dongwoon, Hyunseung, and me are sharing another three seater. That leaves… Yoseob, Jiyeon, and Suzy.” There was an awkward silence. I didn’t like the arrangement either, but what was I supposed to do? Make a scene in front of my friends. If I was lucky enough I would get the window seat so I wouldn’t have to deal with either of them.

“I’ll give up my seat to Suzy” I heard Kikwang say. ‘Oh great just what I need, a seat next to the two guys I wasn’t talking to at the moment.’

“No, oppa it’s fine. I want to sit next to my Yoseobie.”

“I’m not YOUR Yoseobie..” Yoseob let out, frustrated.

“YAH! Who told you, you can call me oppa? You have to earn that right. I’m not giving you an option, but an order little girl. Just take the seat and shut up.” everyone looked at Kikwang. Why was he being so harsh?

“You guys. Just let it go.  I’ll sit with another group if I’m the problem, it’s fine with me-“

“NO! You’re sitting with us Jiyeonie! I’m not letting you leave!” Goo Hara spoke out.

“Yah Jiyeon. It’ll be fun!” Luna didn’t know the drama that was going on, I wanted to tell her everything, but she was so busy being a member of F(x) that I didn’t want to burden her with my problems.

“Arasso.” Thank god for headphones and short plane rides. But how was I going to avoid the both of them? This seemed literally impossible! ‘Just my freaking luck!’

We began boarding the bus. It was like a party bus; I was the last one to get on, but the driver didn’t wait for me to sit down, he just started driving. Before I knew it the car made a sharp stop, thus resulting in me falling. But for some reason, my drop wasn’t painful? It was actually comfortable. I was too scared to open my eyes and see what kind of position I was in. When I finally did, I gave myself a mental face palm. I was now face to face with Kikwang, and IU was sitting right next to him.

‘…AISH STUPID BUS DRIVER!’

My arms were somehow wrapped around his neck and his arms around my waist. My heart was beating faster than ever. I didn’t realize that every one was starring at me at this point. Did Yoseob see? He must’ve…but why isn’t he doing anything? I missed starring at those eyes, it had been too long, I was beginning to forget them. Between waiting for Yoseob’s jealousy to kick in, and for me to finish starring into those beautiful eyes, 5 minutes had already passed.  What more could I say but sorry?

“Ahh mianhae.” I freed myself from his embrace.

“Don’t worry about it. cough cough, you should go find your seat before the car starts going on the freeway.” Why was he okay with all of this. Shouldn’t he at least put on a show for his girlfriend, and scold me to make her feel better?

“Ahh yeah. Okay.” My heart went from racing to pain in a matter of seconds once I left his embrace. Maybe it wasn’t that big of a deal. Maybe Kikwang was really over me…?

 I began walking past everyone on the bus to an empty seat. I knew everyone was looking at me with shocked and judgmental eyes. But they didn’t know anything about me and my situation, and yet they were ready to make assumptions. I couldn’t help but feel Yoseob’s pain as I walked past him. He didn’t know that the pain he was going through was 1,000,000,000 times less painful than seeing him kiss another girl. I made my way to the back of the bus where only Wooyoung sat. This is what my life had turned into…I had a best friend who couldn’t be my best friend because of my other best friend who was his girlfriend. And I had a boyfriend (if I could still call him that, I’m not even sure what we are at this point) who cheated on me and is sitting next to the who is trying to steal him away from me. If he was really sorry for cheating on me, then why was he still sitting next to Suzy?

Although it had only been a few minutes out of Kikwang’s embrace, I wanted to cry seeing Yoseob and Suzy sitting so close to each other. At that moment in time, I wanted to be her. I wanted everything to be fine, and I most of all wanted to enjoy my last trip as a senior with the friends I have loved since elementary school.

My heart broke three times that bus ride: once when Suzy began speaking in Yoseob’s ear. Second when Suzy’s head rested on his shoulder. Third, when he let her stay there. That’s when I realized that I truly was all alone (minus Wooyoung who was dancing in his seat…weird boy.) I always thought that I could never accept a cheater back into my life, but I still loved him and wanted him, I wanted so badly to claim him as mine in front of Suzy so she could back off. But was that what HE wanted? That I can’t answer. I tried to fall asleep before I could see anything else. Were we really over?

A tear fell from my eyes. Was it true, what they say in movies? You can never avoid heartbreak no matter how much you try? I wanted to be happy; but it turns out that I was wrong, happy endings never leave fairytales. I wished someone had told me that before I began to believe in love, and before love broke my heart.

Yoseob’s P.O.V

I knew the last thing Jiyeon wanted was to sit on a plane ride for an hour with Kikwang and me. I wanted her to speak her mind, say something about the situation, but she stayed quiet.

‘Jiyeon, even though I’m not calling out your name right now, although you’re right here next to me, you’re the only thing I’m thinking about right now.’

As we boarded the bus, I sat near the window, praying that the next person to walk on would be Jiyeon. I felt someone sit next to me, and I happily looked over my shoulder, but I was more shocked than happy.

“Oppa! I’m sitting next to you! You have to agree to this, or else I’m calling Daddy and I’ll tell him about your whorish girlfriend.”

“She’s not a . Go right ahead, call him. Then maybe this stupid engagement can be called off too. Call him, right now. You’ll actually make my life easier, that way I look like the victim and not you! Please, call him. What’s his number, I’ll dial it for you!” Like she would ever call him. She’s so dumb, but the one thing she’s good at is getting what she wants. But let me tell you, she’s never going to have me ever again. Even if Jiyeon decides she doesn’t want to be with me anymore, I will never go to Suzy, EVER!

“She’s not a , huh?” Suzy changed the subject back to Jiyeon. She really needed to get a life..

“NO SHE’S NOT! BACK OFF SUZY BEFORE I DO SOMETHING I’M GOING TOR REGRET!!”

“Well then, why is she sitting on someone else’s lap right now?” She was lying.

“What?” Suzy pointed to where Kikwang was sitting. There was someone sitting on him..that couldn’t be my..

“Jiyeon?”

“SEE OPPA! She doesn’t love you! Why would she be sitting there if she did? Psh isn’t that her best friend’s boyfriend, how can she sit there?” I was still shocked, but I couldn’t let Suzy think she was right, plus we didn’t know the story.

“I’m sure there’s a reason for it. Don’t talk to me anymore, I’m tired.” I ignored her and faced the window. I glanced over my shoulder once again when I felt a cold breeze pass by.

As Jiyeon walked past my row, I felt all the pain inside me, and for once I couldn’t hide it.

‘There’s got to be an explanation for why she was with him Yoseob. Don’t worry. Just worry about this who won’t leave you alone.’

All of a sudden, someone whispered something in my ear.

“Oppa. From today on, I’m going to try to be your girlfriend again, unless you want your precious Jiyeon to be hurt, I think you should let me have a second chance. Now I’m going to sleep on your shoulder, if you don’t let me then I’ll raise hell and tell the whole world the real story between you, Kikwang, and Jiyeon. I know everything Oppa, and you don’t want the love of your life to get hurt right? Yah I thought so.” What did she know? Everything? How did she know everything? This is freaking sly and conniving. How could I have ever liked her? How did I ever date her? How were her kisses not poisonous? This snake!

I had no choice. I let her stay there. I knew my decision was wrong, but what could I do? Push her off and have Jiyeon’s reputation ruined once again because of me and Kikwang? I wanted to ram Suzy’s head into the window, and just go to Jiyeon. AS I was thinking of ways to escape, I didn’t even realize I had fallen asleep.

‘I’m never staying up all night to play video games with Wooyoung, EVER!’

 As soon as I passed out, I felt this heavy weight on my shoulder. Ironically, my burden was on my shoulder and I couldn’t shake her off!

‘Mianhae Jiyeon, I’m hurting you again aren’t i? Please don’t look at me. I haven’t given up on us yet. Please don’t misunderstand.’

SO. TIRED! >.< But I promised you guys an update, and I always keep my promises! Although this chapter might be dry, the good stuff is coming up so please anticipate it! I'm sorry for the not-so-exciting updates, but i'll make it up to my wonderful subscribers! But for now, enjoy chapter 23! I'm going to go sleep now, it's WAY past my bedtime! keke! <3