OKAY, EVERYONE!

FIRST OF ALL, I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING FOR SO LONG(2 weeks, I think)

THE REASON IS, I HAD A WRITER'S BLOCK. This past 2 weeks, I kept on thinking and thinking but everytime I opened my laptop, all I ever done is look at the screen. *sigh*

And until now, I still have a writer's block. I just really forced myself to write because in my other story, when I had a writer's block before, it took 3 months for me to write a new chapter again, haha! And i don't want that to happen again.

SO, THIS CHAPTER IS NOT YET FINAL! OKAY? I'LL CHANGE OR EDIT IT AS SOON AS MY MIND STARTS WORKING AGAIN!

I'M REALLY REALLY SORRY!

SO, LET'S SEE THE PRODUCT OF MY 'WRITER'S BLOCK', HAHA!

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF IT. IF IT'S JUST FINE AND DON'T NEED TO BE CHANGED OR EDIT, OR IF I SHOULD CHANGE IT, OR ANYTHING, OKAY?

I'LL BE EXPECTING IT. THANK U!

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 YOUR POV

Jaejoong oppa, where were you?

“What did Yunho oppa said?” I asked Yoona as she came towards me. She sighed as she shook her head.

We had been waiting for three hours already for any news about Jaejoong oppa. I already called our other jobs and said that there had been an emergency so we couldn’t go today. We stayed in the coffee shop, waiting for calls from Yunho oppa and the others.

We knew that we should give him time to think on his own because Jaejoong oppa’s father said that they had a big fight when he came to their house… but we couldn’t help but worry.

He was driving his car… frustrated…

What if something happened to him?

What if he got into an accident?

What if…

I felt a hand on my shoulder, giving me comfort.

“Don’t worry, ~~~~~-ah. Don’t think negatively. He’s going to be fine,” Yoona said in a soft voice.

“Yoona, he must be feeling very upset. Before he went home, we also had an argument. I know he’s already upset after that then he also fought with his father. Now, no one knew where he was. I couldn’t help but think of negative things,” I said as my voice tremble.

Yoona hugged me tightly.

“It’s fine to cry. Release your feelings, your frustrations. That way, you will feel better. If you want to shout, you can shout,” she tried to joke.

Suddenly, I pulled away from the hug as I remembered something.

 

“Every time I felt sad, mad or confuse, I always went here to relax, to think.”

 

Why didn’t I think of that place?

“~~~~~-ah, what’s wrong?” Yoona asked me in confusion.

I got my phone in my pocket as I dialled Yoochun oppa’s number.

“Oppa, I think I know where he is,” I immediately said as he answered my call.

“Okay, I’ll be there,” he answered and hung up.

Minutes later, we saw his car parked outside the shop. I immediately ran to it. He opened the door and got out.

“Where?” he asked.

“His private beach,” I answered. His forehead knotted.

“Do you know the exact location?” he asked.

“I don’t know where but if we go to that place, I know the way to go to the beach.”

He nodded in understanding and told me to get in and I did.

“He brought you in his private beach?” he asked as he was driving.

“Yes. When I... I was feeling sad, he brought me there. He said that whenever he felt sad, he always went there,” I answered as he nodded in understanding.

“We know that he bought a beach… five years ago but we haven’t been there,” he said after a moment of silence. I looked at him in confusion.

“Why?”

“He bought that beach for himself. He didn’t want others going there, well of course other than some maids to clean it and the security. He wanted it by himself so no one could disturb him. We just know where but not the exact location,” he answered.

Then why did he…

“You might be very special for him,” he continued. I looked at him for a while before looking outside.

No, I was not…

He even told me those words…

He also accused me of flirting with other guys.

“If you’re thinking of the bad things he told you a while ago, then don’t. He didn’t mean it, I assure you,” he said and I looked at him in shock.

“Y-you…”

“Yes, I saw and heard everything. Jaejoong hyung… I knew something was wrong with him… It might be related to his past. Every time his past is concerned, he always acted that way. He couldn’t control himself.”

“What past?”

He looked at me for a moment before looking back at the road. He sighed.

“I think it’s best if he will be the one to tell you.”

I kept silent after that.

Jaejoong oppa’s past…

For him to act that way… his past must be sad… or terrible…

I wonder what happened to him…

I wanted to know…

I wanted to understand him…

I hope he would let me…

The whole ride was silent. I was hoping that he was really there…

Soon after, we reached his beach. There was a guard who stopped us.

“Is Jaejoong oppa here?” I asked and he nodded. He was the same guard that time. “Can we go in?”

“I’m sorry, Miss. We didn’t get any order from Young Master that you’ll come today.”

“Then just let her in. I’ll stay here,” Yoochun oppa said behind me. We could see that he was having doubts.

“Please, I need to talk to him,” I pleaded.

“Don’t worry about your job. We won’t let you be jobless,” Yoochun oppa assured him. After a while, he opened the gate and let me in. Yoochun oppa stayed outside. He said it was better if I would talk to Jaejoong oppa alone.

I immediately ran to Jaejoong oppa’s house, the only house in the beach.

But I stopped as my eyes caught something. A familiar figure sitting on the sand, facing the water. It was him…

I didn’t know why but I walked towards him… slowly…

I could feel many emotions running inside me… most especially relief…

He was safe…

He was here…

I could feel my heart pounding inside my chest. I wanted to hug him…

I wanted to touch him…

But I controlled myself…

I didn’t know what he was thinking…

I stopped a few steps away from his back.

He might be so deep in his thoughts that he didn’t notice me.

“O-oppa…”

I saw his body tensed. I was right, he didn’t notice me.

He slowly looked behind him, at me.

I could feel my tears threatening to fall…

The look on his face…

This was the first time I saw him this sad…

He looked so lost…

“~~~~~-ah…”

I couldn’t control myself anymore, I ran to him and hugged him. He hugged me back tightly.

“Oppa…”

“Please, stay like this for a while… Please…”

He didn’t have to ask me that.

I would do anything to make him happy…

END OF POV

JAEJOONG’S POV

I didn’t know where to go…

I didn’t know what to do…

I was so confused right now… of everything that happened today…

I wanted to see her…

… ~~~~~-ah…

But…

I knew she was mad at me…

Until I just found myself in front of my private beach.

Even though I didn’t know where I was going, my body knew the place I needed to be in…

I sighed as the guard opened the door. I stayed inside the house in exhaustion. I didn’t know how long I lied in my bed, looking at the ceiling without a particular thought in mind…

I sighed as I got up. I decided to go out…

I walked outside, looking at the view of the place…

… but in truth, my mind was thinking of all that happened today…

… and the past…

Appa… he said that Na Young was my mother… my real mother…

How could that happened?

Why didn’t they tell me before?

And what about Omma? Did she know?

I sat down on the sand as I ran a hand on my hair in frustration…

I didn’t know what to think…

So many questions were lingering inside my head…

So many images of the past…

So many words from different people…

 “O-oppa…”

I felt my body tensed as I heard that very familiar voice.

Was I imagining things? How could ~~~~~-ah be in here?

But then, I decided to confirm my thoughts. I looked behind me and without mistake, she was really here…

… in front of me…

… looking so worried…

“~~~~~-ah…”

I wanted to hug her… to wrap her inside me….

She ran to me and gave me what I needed the most…

She hugged me as I hugged her tightly…

I felt warm inside me… it was as if I just found the right path...

“Oppa…” she whispered and I was afraid she would pull away from me…

“Please, stay like this for a while… Please…”

I hugged her tighter, afraid that she might leave me…

… but she didn’t…

We stayed like that for a while before she pulled back slowly. I reluctantly let her go. She sat beside me and looked at the water. I did the same.

“I… We heard… that you had a fight with your father…” she broke the silence.

With the mention of Appa, all the thoughts I had a while ago came rushing back.

I looked down and groaned, as if in pain. I felt her warm hand on mine. I looked at her. She looked at me… as if asking me what happened or if I didn’t want to tell her, it was just fine…

“I…” I hesitated.

“It’s fine if you don’t want to tell me---“

“No… I want to tell you…”

“Oppa…”

“I loved my mother so much…” I started. She just kept quiet, waiting for me to continue. With a sigh, I slowly told her of what happened…. to my past… something I hadn’t told anyone before except my friends…

I didn’t know what I wanted to see on her…. on her expression… but one thing was for sure… I didn’t want her to pity me… or even hate me…

... those were the last things I wanted her to feel for me…

… and I was glad she didn’t…

She looked at me in understanding…

“I don’t… know what to think… what to believe anymore…” I ended.

“Then… why don’t you talk to her… to them?” she spoke after a while.

“I know I should but… I don’t know what to expect.”

“Expect the truth, oppa.”

“It’s not that easy.” I sighed once more. “I… I don’t know if… I could trust them… if the things that will come out from their mouths were real…”

“Only you can judge that. Oppa, sometimes you don’t need words to believe something… it’s not also enough with actions… that’s why we are given this,” she said, pointing to where her heart was. “This will help us know what we need to know. Just feel it. Just let it open…

“Because sometimes… even if you know the truth… it still depends on you if you’re going to accept someone or not. There are people who still accept someone even if that someone betrayed or lied to him. There are also people who chose not to care with those people who did them wrong.

“But oppa, don’t lose this chance. You grew up without a mother. You’re lucky that you were given a chance to have a new one again. You are lucky that she is already there… in front of you. Give her a chance. Let her in your life. You hadn’t given her a chance to show you who she really is.”

I looked at her and felt my heart sank. I knew she was thinking of her own parents.

I thought of everything that happened the past years. On how Na Young always looked at me in worry whenever I got myself drank or went home very late. How her eyes turned sad every time I looked at her in disgust. Every time her face lit up with just a peek on me.

I chuckled. Funny though, I even thought she liked me.

But now, I know why…

I was too consumed with Omma’s words… On my hatred towards her… and in the process hurting other people as well…

I looked at ~~~~~-ah again, remembering our fight, my accusations. I held her hand and she looked at me.

“About the bad things I told you, I didn’t mean it---“

“I know. I already forgot about it,” she said with a smile. Then, her eyes widen, as if realizing something.

“What’s wrong?”

“Yoochun oppa.”

I frowned. “What about Yoochun?”

“He’s here with me.”

“Here?”

“Yes. He’s outside, waiting for me. We were looking for you, even your parents.”

“They were?”

“They’re very worried, oppa. All of us.”

I know it was bad making someone worry about you but… I couldn’t help but feel really happy…

“You have your phone?” I asked her. My phone was in the house. She nodded as she handed it to me. I dialled Yoochun’s number. With just one ring, he already answered it.

“I’ll be the one to send her home. Go back now,” I told him and heard him chuckle.

“Why did I even expect a ‘Thank you’ from you?” he said in amusement. “By the way, bring her home immediately or else I’ll come back to pick her up. I’ll tell others to stop searching. Bye,” he said.

“Thank you,” I told him before he ended off the call. I immediately ended it.

I stood up and offered a hand at ~~~~~~-ah. She looked at me in confusion.

“I’m hungry. Let’s go inside the house and cook. I need my energy for the confrontation,” I said and she gladly obliged.

We walked hand in hand.

I was glad she was here beside me. Our misunderstanding was already clear.

Now…

I just had to face one more problem…

… my parents…

END OF POV

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DATE: JANUARY 16, 2012