Its four days left, and I haven’t heard anything from him yet. Yesterday I had been begging and praying that he’d read the note. But knowing that he hadn’t called, texted or knocked on my door, I guess he hadn’t.

I constantly checked the time, watching how the time ticked closer towards the graduation ceremony in four days, which had been set to February the third at 10.00AM. To tell the truth I didn’t know whatever I was going to skip or not. The only thing I was waiting for right know was the paper from Kookmin University telling me whatever I was accepted or not.

After changing song on my phone to Super Junior’s ‘In My Dream’ from their fourth album, which also was my favorite song from their fourth album I shifted my body, so that I was lying on my side. Before I shut my eyes and drifted off at the voices of the Super Junior members.

Yeah I know, I said that I didn’t like the ‘newer’ boy groups, but I actually got to like Super Junior after watching some music videos of theirs. Plus I sort of bought all four albums. So know I have my whole phone filled with Super Junior songs plus the oldies.

Well, Super Junior is the only group that is sort of new that I can listen too, and they are not like those groups that debuts now. Even though they are starting to get a little old, but that’s not something that bothers me, because they have great voices, really.

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I woke up by the sound of something slamming on my door. After taking a quick notice at the digital clock on my cell phone, telling me that it was a bit past 3.30PM I sighed, luckily for me that we didn’t have school on Sundays or I’d be screwed, though we didn’t have any school until the graduation ceremony.

The slamming sound continued, which made me sort of irritated as I scrambled to my feet’s and proceeded to the outer door to see what was going on.

After that I unlocked the door I opened, it was actually a person standing there. “Annyeonghaseyo” he greeted and bowed his head slightly. “Ah, yeh annyeong” I greeted back a bit awkward as I stared at the package he was holding in his hands. I noticed that it had a ‘Kookmin University’ stamp on as I felt myself getting nervous.

“Here this is for you” he said as he handed over the package and then brought a piece of paper and a pen from his bag, saying that I needed to sign it. After doing so he bid goodbye and so did I before closing the door.

“So this is it” I uttered as I sat down on the couch and placed the package on the table in front of me, I were beyond scared and nervous, what if I hadn’t been accepted. God, what was I going to do then?

*Work?*

I slowly, ever so slowly started to rip open the package that would tell me whatever I was going to be occupied with architecture studies for the next coming five years or not. The first thing that caught my eyes was a letter. I could tell that the paper used was expensive as I ran my fingers along the shiny surface.

After taking a deep breath I opened it and brought out the paper itself. It had been folded in half so I couldn’t see the letters clearly enough to tell whatever I got in. I closed my eyes as I unfolded it before I waited. My eyes where still shut. I breathed out and opened my eyes as I read the content out loud.

“We are sorry to inform you that you have not been accepted into Kookmin University”

I stared, dumbfounded at the paper I was holding in my hands. My sight became blurry in an instant as I let go off the letter, and saw how it crashed towards the floor beneath. Now, my whole life was destroyed. I had nothing. No parents, almost no money, no one to relay on, I didn’t get accepted to the University and worst. In three weeks I would have nowhere to live.

My life had really hit the bottom.

I didn’t know how long I’d been crying when my phone suddenly rang; it was the signal of when I received a text message. After hurrying to get up, I half ran towards the bedroom and where my phone was. What if t was MyungSoo?

But it wasn’t, it was In Ae. The girl who was working at ‘High Love’, she was asking if we could meet up and talk. Well it wasn’t like I had anything else to do.

‘Okay, where do you want to meet?’ I pressed send and waited for her to reply as I took a glance on the clock, again. It had turned 6.38PM. As I waited for In Ae I went for some food search in the refrigerator. Ugh. The only thing present in that refrigerator was some old milk and a piece of cheese with disgusting green dots all over it.

Sighing I threw the cheese in the garbage can and poured out the milk before I opened the cabinet and found a package of noodles that I could eat.

*I really need to buy some new food*

I flipped my phone open after that I received yet another message from In Ae. ‘Namsan Park at 8.00PM’. Luckily it was the park that where close to my apartment block, which meant that I didn’t have to rush that much, still I needed to eat, shower and get dressed. Though I didn’t understand why she’d want to met outside in this weather, instead of being inside.

An hour later I was walking towards Namsan Park and where she wanted to meet me; she’d texted and told me to meet at the pond. The weather was beyond cold. Well, it wasn’t much of a surprise since it was winter after all, plus it was soon 8.00PM. And nighttime is even colder than daytime. Still I had dressed myself in the warmest clothes I had.

“Iseul, here” In Ae’s voice rang in my ears as I glanced straight ahead of me; her smile was the first thing I noticed. She always had that smile on her lips whenever I saw her. Though, I wasn’t complaining since I needed someone positive around me right now.

“Annyeonghaseyo” I greeted in a formal way as I bowed my head slightly, even though we had worked together I weren’t too sure if I could talk informal to her. It’s not like I wanted her to get angry at me.

“Ah stop with that, you make me feel old” In Ae waved her hands in the air as she pouted like a child. Hehe it seems like I insulted her either way by being formal.

“Okay” I half smiled, despite that my heart was in pain. And it would for the rest of my life, knowing that I had lost the most important person in my life. Kim MyungSoo.

“So why did you want to meet me?” I asked after we had talked for a while, even though it was just merely two weeks ago we’d met I felt that she didn’t want to meet up just because she wanted to chit-chat. No. It was something else. I saw how she scanned the surroundings, as if she was scared of something before she turned her gaze back at me.

“About your boyfriend”

My eyes widened and my heart started to beat faster as I stared at her, though MyungSoo and I weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend, I still knew that it was him she was referring to.

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Hehe she started to like Super Junior XD hah In My Dream is actually my favorite song from their fourth album and it needs more love, that's why I included it in the story. Which song/s are your favorite this year. It can be any artist/group =D I'll include my list in the next post X3