As I got home I directly jumped into my bed and tried to sleep, though the look on MyungSoo’s face when I left him like that was still haunting my mind, making it hard to fall asleep. But after half an hour of endlessly staring into the wall I managed to fall asleep. I’d set my phone on alarm at 7.30PM.

It felt as I’ve only gotten an hour of sleep when the phone rang, after pushing the middle button the bothersome signal finally stopped as I sleepily sat up in the bed and rubbed my tired eyes. I’d slept for a little more than eight hours, yet I felt dead tired.

That doesn’t make any sense at all.

I sighed as I stood up and proceeded towards the bathroom so that I could shower and brush my teeth’s. Twenty-five minutes later I was standing in front of the hallway mirror, checking myself out. I wonder how someone could even let me work in a club, I’m not even pretty.

Another sigh escaped my lips after seeing how the apartment looked like; it was shattered glass pieces and other stuff that I’d thrown to the ground these past days.

The whole apartment looked like a dump, clothes lying everywhere, glass fragment in both the kitchen and the living room. I where more than glad that it wasn’t any old food lying all over the place, well I guess I’ll have to thank my I-can’t-eat diet.

I passed by the shattered belongings and proceeded towards the bathroom so that I could take a long and refreshing bath. And as I went to pick some new clothes from the drawer I noticed that my clothes where soon all gone. I don’t know in how many days I hadn’t washed.

Clean and that stuff would I do some other day, though when that day would arrive I didn’t know, more than it wasn’t today.

A tear unknowingly slid down my cheek as my mother’s smiling face came to mind. I clutched my aching heart and fell down on my knees in front of the bathroom mirror.

*Mom, dad I miss you*

I sat there and let my tears dry out before I stood up and started to fill up the bathtub with steaming hot water. As I waited for the water to fill up I exited the bathroom and proceeded towards the kitchen, in search of something to eat.

Though I found nothing in either the refrigerator or the cupboard, well it wasn’t like I where dead hungry. But I would want to eat at least something. Whatever it was banana milk or a slice of bread.

*I guess I’ll buy something easy on the way to ‘High Love’* I though on my way back to the bathroom and the bathtub. The air was rising from the steaming hot water. I fastened my phase and hurried to take a bath and then slung on some nice clothes. My favorite pair of jeans, a chiffon blouse and then a warming jacket over, nothing fancy since I already knew that I’d have to change once I got to the club. But it’d be nice if I actually looked somewhat in order and not arrived in sweatpants and some washed out t-shirt.

After swiftly grabbing everything else that I needed I proceeded out from the outer door and locked it before I walked towards the nearest supermarket to buy a bottle of water. Okay, water was maybe not my favorite drink, but it was hunger suppressing and that was the only goal I had in mind.

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When the clock had hit a bit past ten that mafia man arrived again, it was safe to say that I where afraid of him and what he was doing, was he one of those that tortured and killed people? Actually I didn’t want to know as I strode over to his table and started to pour up some soju for him and his two friends that had arrived together with him.

And to worsen my fear he clapped the seat next to himself and told me to sit, I gulped down on my saliva as I sat down and carefully placed myself not too close. God I didn’t know what kind of person he was.

“What’s your name you lady” one of his friends asked and an alarm clock sounded in my mind, I couldn’t tell them my real name, no. I had to come up with something and that was fast.

“I’m Ara” I had no idea how that name suddenly came to mind, but then again, it was much better than that my real name slipped. I glanced over on the person that had been asking and saw how he smirked as I gulped and looked away. I didn’t want to know what he was thinking.

I glanced in the direction of where In Ae was sitting together with three old guys, eh I wouldn’t call them guys, more like old men. It wasn’t hard to see that one of them seemed seemingly interested in her, though when the old man tried to kiss her she pushed him away and then waved her hand in the air, I couldn’t hear what she was saying but it wasn’t that hard to figure out what she meant.

“Pour me some more”

I turned my head around and picked up the bottle with Soju before I re-filled every one of their glasses before I sat down and stared at the clock. It was 11.30PM, which meant that she still had two and a half hour more work before she could go home. Though she had already decided to skip school the next coming day and just focus on being fresh and lively for tomorrow.

Because when being around these guys, you had to be careful.