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“Are you okay, darling?” Her mom saw her crying as she entered the door. Mom quickly went on her side to know what happened. “Why are you crying my dear?”

“I’m fine ma.” She said and quickly ran upstairs.

“Chrissy?” Her mom was about to follow her when her dad stopped mom.

“Let her be. She needs time to be alone.” He said as he pressed his wife’s shoulder.

She went inside her room and threw herself on the bed, crying as hard as she can.

Christine can’t bear the pain she’s feeling right now. The emotions are all in her. She’s feeling everything right now and she felt like going crazy.

She’s been thinking about Onew and wants to see him badly.

She feels super guilty at how she cheated on Robi.

She feels really hurt that he was hurting because of her.

She feels so confused about her feelings.

Does she want to continue?

Or is it better for her to let go of both of them?

She turned and laid on her back, facing the ceiling. “What’s wrong with me? Why am I like this?” She bitted her lower lip and let out a sorrowful cry again.

She allowed herself to be reminded of everything over again… thinking this must be the right time to decide on whatever path she will be taking.

I was 17 when I fell in love to the KPop SHINee Leader Onew…

I spent almost 3 years loving him…

Not even thinking of something in return.

I loved him and all I want is to him every day.

See his smile, see his laugh, and see his contented face, telling everybody he’s happy.

Until I met Robi…

That one guy who assured me that I don’t need to change.

He loves me with all his heart… even tolerating my little craziness.

He willingly accepted everything and didn’t even complain when all I ever did was spazz with the Korean music I was hearing.

I feel burdened, and I feel sorry for what I did…

And to top it all… I feel so stupid.

I feel so stupid of missing him when I know all I need to do is move on, face the good life with Robi, and build a happy family together.

But I miss Jinki. I really miss him to death. I feel like I’ll only stop crying if he ever appears in front of me and hug me.

Though I know… I need to make a decision. I don’t know… but tomorrow, I shall go decide on my path.

I hope I’ll made the wisest decision, though.